you know what's a tankini?

all i know is bikini. until nik told me abt it.
so a tankini is something like this:
http://www.sensuoushaven.com/tankini-with-boy-shorts-p-961
it's a sub version of a bikini; a tank top, hence "TANkini", i think the bottom can be the boxer shorts of the normal triangular thingy.

i kinda like the design above. but she said too... bright.
maybe i should give up this idea.
i spent some time last night scanning through the net for tankinis for her.
haha... some are really nice, and weirdly more expensive than bikinis.
more cloth=higher price? hmm... that doesn't make sense to the swimsuit industry trend.

well anyway, somehow i got to know her bust size and her mum has a nice description of her butt too. juicy. hahaha..

now seriously, i don't expect myself to calmy go inside the shop full of ladies clothes. and when we're talking about bikinis, the shop most probably have things like bras and panties ba. so... HOW THE HELL AM I GOING TO BUY IT IF I REALLY WANT TO BUY IT?
it's worse than buying condoms. much worse.
i might just turn red without drinking a sip of alcohol. although i never knew i can blush before.

i forgot how i got the idea of buying a bikini or tankini for her.
it feels like it should be someone really close instead.
i'm just... not that someone i guess.
drop that idea ba.

oh shitz, it's work again tml. i forgot to do something.

and how am i going to finish up that project before sat?
4 nights, i only have 4 nights. i spent the whole day the previous time.
and i don't even know how to start the whole thing.
it's like building something you haven't plan for, nor have the knowledge to do it.
at these kind of moments... screw it. just whack.

all i want is her to be happy...
though preferably becuz and beside me.
if that somehow makes me a selfish and wishful bastard,
well, then let it be.

~if those are tears of love, don't wipe them off. show them.