Saturday, April 30, 2011

1 week

1 week before 1st paper. and i haven't started revising.
DAMN IT!

stupid stats report.
i'm gonna DO you.

Sunday, April 24, 2011

feeling not right

has been this way for the past couple of days.
my body doesn't feel right.
perhaps it's those late nights of doing up my reports and waking up 3 hours later that's causing me to have some sorts of withdrawal now.

oh well.

happy 53rd bday to dad yesterday.
went to MBS to find that the buffet place was full till 9.15pm. -_-
dad didn't make a reservation too, so in the end, we went to barrage for dinner.
everything was fine except for the stupid fish.
steamed sea bass in hong kong style.
first, it was not fully cooked.
then, it became over-cooked becuz apparently they forgot about the fish.
finally, the salted vegans taste in the fish was overwhelming due to it being overcooked.

walked around, admired the scenery, saw many beautiful kites, then went home.

and a happy 24th to jw today.

all of us are growing old.

暗地里

对你好的事
我只会在暗地里做
不让你看见
不让你知道
因为只要你开心
我暗地里的委屈
就算一辈子被忽略
也心甘情愿

Tuesday, April 19, 2011

stupid voting

becuz of voting, it's a public holiday. wtheck?
my first paper got pushed back, and became my last paper -_-
good and bad.

more time to study; a longer period of studying

random synthesis

握着你的手 感觉不到温柔
你的心还在吗 情还有吗
是否还爱我
不要让我一个人在这等候
如果你不爱我 请你说出口

words that just came naturally this morning.

Monday, April 18, 2011

suddenly thought of her

as i kept myself awake with a short shower while doing up my presentation slides, i suddenly thought of her.

not the 'i miss you' kind. and it is hardly this kind of thoughts anyway. but the qns of how we hold hands, suddenly appeared.

usually in those movies or tv shows, when a couple just started to come together, there's a magical moment when they hold hands for the first time, do some silly smile, and walk like it's the route to happiness.

but where's mine? did i miss it? i can't rmb any bit of it. is it becuz it's been too long? hmm... well nonetheless, i'm quite sure i was overjoyed then. i could probably guess the place, but not the moment.

oh well.

Saturday, April 16, 2011

damn it

i did it again.
slacked off my sat morning till now, haven't done anything yet.
but i did watch a light-hearted romance korean movie.
was laughing my lunch break away. haha...
and i dragged my attention around the computer until now.
sad, but true.
sometimes, it feels like i'm giving up on studies already.
not motivated, not interested.

sometimes, i feel like i need to get out of the house, and put myself in a situation whereby there's nothing else to do except for studying. that would be viable, if not for the fact that i need my laptop for doing my reports.

starting to have some anxiety issues, which keeps me from doing any work.
perhaps i could start some self-therapy.
that would be interesting. haha..

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

trying to keep up

lately, it's been a rush for everything.
quizzes, projects, assignments, presentations....
had my biz finance quiz today. was hectic. 30 mins for 10 questions was simply not enough. yes, they are mcqs, but they are almost all problem sums. wtheck? i only managed to solve 5 of them, guess the rest due to time limit. got 7 correct. nice.

tml's econs. then gotta prepare an email stating a proposal for stats project analysis. then will burn the midnight oil again doing my drugs report on thurs night. friday night probably gonna spend it on stats assignment 3 if i'm done with drugs. gonna finish both drugs and health report, and presentations. tuesday going to a meeting with wendy, gotta read thru the materials first. thursday stats assignment 3 submission. given the fact that i spent freaking lots of time on this shit, i'm gonna start during the weekend if i managed to finish my drugs and health. coincidentally, my drugs, health presentations are on the same day, thursday, along with my deadline for stats assignment 3. damn it. it's like i'm getting tested for endurance of deprivation of sleep, determination, and my ego tells me there's no way out, only the forward path.

Tuesday, April 12, 2011

Innocent Steps

just watched a korean movie to relax myself before the intense studying i have to do for the upcoming quiz on wed and thurs. and trying to squeeze 2 projects inside.

innocent steps came to my youtube page, somehow, after some clicking. it's nice, so i just watched the whole show through. was a very nice movie, nice dancing moves. romantic movie, but without a single kiss.

the female lead caught my eye though. i did some check on her. same year of birth, but has already accomplished much relative to me. haha.. quite a bit of charity work done. nice girl.

the movie ending was however rather disappointing, as it drifted away from the expected ending. sometimes, a twist is not always welcomed. but nonetheless, a recommended love story.

Saturday, April 9, 2011

past conversations

i was bored and wanted to distract myself from doing the presentation slides for the coming monday and due today by request of my group mate...

so i went to review my conversation with my boss.
there are times when i wondered how i got so close to my boss.
then when i looked at those conversations, i realized how.

Friday, April 8, 2011

一个人

一个人的感觉
就像是影子
陪在我身边
当黑夜落在
我的地平线
影子就会出现

一个人的感觉
不过是少了一点点的安慰
习惯后无所谓
但想起你
我会泪

只不过是一种感觉
必须用一生来适应
只不过没有人来陪
我不会随便找个人来安慰

就算我留泪
只有影子看见

就算我心碎
一个人 无所谓

Wednesday, April 6, 2011

good planning

sometimes, or most of the times, when i failed to plan through the school sem, i get into this kind of fix whereby i have tons of things to do at once.

HP318 - the final paper is due in 3 weeks, but the individual submission is this thurs. got a presentation on an article next mon.

HP321 - not keeping pace with the group's progress on the project paper, totally lagging behind. haven't write a word when they have sort of completed theirs.

MB102 - presentation tml, quiz next week

HE191 - quiz next week

HP409B - waiting for the news of assignment 3 which i think will be out this week, and need to urgently find a group for project

and damn it, why i have 2 tuitions this sem? didn't really see all these shit coming all together. why was i so freaking relax last sem? i can't even enjoy breakfast nowadays becuz i'm too tired to do so.

Tuesday, April 5, 2011

nice chinese song



喜歡你
作詞:梁文福 作曲:梁文福 編曲:錢幽蘭

喜歡你 給我你的外衣 讓我像躲在你身體裡
喜歡你 借我你的梳子 讓我用柔軟頭髮吻你

喜歡你 車窗上的霧氣 彷彿是你的愛在呼吸
喜歡你 那微笑的眼睛 連日落也看作唇印

我喜歡這樣跟著你 隨便你帶我到哪裡
你的臉 慢慢貼近 明天也慢慢地慢慢清晰

我喜歡你愛我的心 輕觸我每根手指感應
我知道 它在訴說著你承諾言語

i always have a soft spot for chinese love songs.
and my favourite line of the lyrics,

我喜歡你愛我的心
I like your heart which loves me.

the lyrics describe the feelings and thoughts one have when being with someone you like(or love), and interpretations that one would like to have, in a very much positive and loving way.

it's like when love comes around smoothly, everything seemed to be so heart-warming. is it a self-fulfiling prophecy? but perhaps it aint the case when 2 persons are doing it to one another.

Sunday, April 3, 2011

getting fed up with myself

can't seem to get any work done.
i'm playing games and surfing the net to withhold this anxiety that i have for the upcoming deadlines.
and the more i play, the more anxious i get, and then i play some more.
wicked cycle.

fed up.

dreamt abt an old friend on friday night.
it was super weird.
in the dream, she was my gf.
and we're not even that close in sec sch -_-
though she has a nice figure.

damn you random synthesis of dream.
can't my brain come out with some fictional girl so i don't feel weird after i wake up?