3rd time seeing red

sianz... my entry gone becuz blog got prob...

to cut things short.

3rd blood donation, quick, nice.

everyone please donate blood.
you're saving someone's life, just not seeing the process now.

i don't feel like working

i only feel like enjoying life.

-playing badminton
-chionging games online
-reading on books on my bed that are bought but haven't read for don't know how many years
-indulge in some good food (steaks, basically meat)
-go out with friends for meet-ups
-sports (running, basketball, badminton, soccer)
-sleeping at home in the cool afternoon
-playing with baby zx which i now know how to make him cry (just make him feel like freefalling, i think he will come to enjoy the rush of adrenaline when he grows up)
-do some relax jobs like tutoring (high-paying job with min. working hours)
-read up on psychology, and plan on how to proceed further
-ride on a bicycle and visit the sembawang beach, or some other places which are cooling, relaxing, lots of breeze... or maybe just ride to familiar places
-finish up the project for her becuz it's on my table for freaking long
-start on my own project, i'm left with...7 months to complete. with school and procastination setting in, i think i have a big chance of not being able to complete it by then
-writing up an essay of "The World without Money". it may seem insignificant and ridculous, but it was, and still is, my ideal evolution of this world. or is it, de-evolution.
-tune up my guitar which is abandoned, and hopefully learn some guitar on myself (so i can charm those xmm, haha... kidding) mostly to enjoy music.
-check out some paranormal and psychic stuffs. bending the spoon with willpower is something not only fun, but somehow i feels it brings you to a higher level of mind. imagine, with enough mind power, from a simple piece of rectangular acrylic, i can turn it into a photoframe in just minutes.
-learn martial arts of some form. sparring is fun. basically i like anything that brings competition and excitement. that includes academic side. the adrenaline comes when i recieved the test paper and i know nuts about it. (e.g. Fmaths)
-currently i have 3 health problems. maybe it's the busy life, didn't really care much about them. so i should if i want to enjoy life.
-go on a holiday! alone! or group! i dont care! cruise! the beach! BIKINIS - jking.

but now i'm stuck in office and i'm wasting every mornings surfing the net, just to get me settled down to do work after lunch. i don't like to do projects, especially not yours and you dont really know what to do. there's not really a specific deadline. i don't feel stress. i'm only stressed over me being not stressed.

i just wanna go home, on my computer, sit infront of monitor and chiong cabal until i wanna sleep.

today's friday. weekend nothing much on. bday party, facial maybe, or soccer.

ppl have been commenting on me.
no life, no style.
i admit to having no style. wearing shorts and slippers seem like a big taboo to the others but not me. simple and comfortable.
having no life... weekdays ba. weekends i ususally live in the virtual reality. that's a lot of life to me. hahaha...

oh, lunch time again before i actually get down to finishing up this stupid project.

eating steak and chocolate ice cream

went to jack's place for dinner with the army guys.
small gathering as usual.
black pepper steak again~!
chocolate ice cream at some jap place.

eugene gave us some photos. nice.

talked crap, hell lot of it.
most of the time i'm just listening though.

got some assurance from them that most probably it will be just a fine.

half of the day i felt so restless, can't settle down to do any work.
moreover, i'm alone in office.
just told boss i'll stay till april, becuz she asked.
haiz. i was thinking of a pay raise, but don't even want to be in the office doing any work now. thinking of night job, may need some planning to get it through.

having thoughts of changing my future.

something important to remind myself

check:

urticaria (hives), Dermagraphism

this doesn't really help in choosing my major.

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AH! WTHELL?

so now they decided to take actions against me.
after 1 year.
maybe they should have just settle it last year.
i felt like i'm getting screwed this time round.

it's these kind of things when i thought... how nice it would be if someone is around to comfort. it sounds super gu niang, but it would be good if someone would just give me a tight hug, and say everything will be just fine... really. although i might cry. but i don't care. i want to cry. i want to cry my heart out. the agony i felt, the fear that torments, all my worries, all my troubles... i'm weak to this extent.

but there's no one.
to be strong and stand alone against the odds.
tired, i may have been too exhausted...
that's why i felt a need for company.

hope everything will be alright.
i told myself that every time.

love, a wonderful feeling in its most cruel form

such a mood is coming over me
there is moodiness in everything i see.
that's life for me for the past few days.

anyway, on the topic of love.

before that, yesterday was one of the days i used an umbrella. the rain was too heavy for me to run 200 metres to an overhead bridge, crossed it, then run another 200 metres to reach the bus stop. lucky the office has one.

okay, yesterday i guessed was the finale of one of the chinese shows. hmm.. those short storys one, not the 7-8, 9-10 drama serials. i would say a nice love story with a not-so-happy, happy ending.

it started out 7 years ago, the guy and the girl were childhood friends. grew up, fell in love with each other. he had a date with the girl and planned to propose to her. she didn't show up. her family was missing. absolutely no news of her.

7 years later, he hired a PI to check her whereabouts. he told the guy, she met with a car accident and died. he was devastated. he didn't care about his restaurant and even planned to close it. one day on the streets, he saw a girl who looked exactly like her, rushed up to her, but she denied she was the girl. "you have found the wrong person".

his bro, in an attempt to encourage his bro, approached the girl and asked her to pretend to be the dead girl, and tell his bro to move on. the girl was already married to a neurologist and a mother of a 7-year-old. she agreed.

she visited his restuarant. he was delighted. he commented that she still wears the same perfume as before, and still like egg fried rice, kinda like his specialty. the girl kept asking him to move on, saying she's married, a mother, and all is in the past now. he wasn't ready to give up just yet. nevertheless, the girl left with her daughter when the husband came. he was again, confused. "why?" he asked.

his bro finally revealed that the girl isnt really his love. it's just someone who looked like her. he couldn't believe it. the same perfume, the same egg fried rice preference, the same face, the same voice. he went to approach the husband.

the confront btw the guys end up in an sort of angry way. he said "i won't give up", the husband said "don't kajiao her", or something like that, can't remember. "she's not your old love."

out of a sudden, husband decided to cut short his family stay in singapore and move back to US. the girl found it weird while the daughter was whining away about staying in singapore. just as they were about to leave the hotel, the guy confronted them again.

"please don't fake it" he pleaded the girl. the husband was getting pretty upset and anxious. that's when the girl told the husband she's not leaving sg till the whole thing clears up. he, being in a rush to go back to us and upset abt the guy, and he being all so certain about his old love. the husband finally comply and had a solo chat with the guy.

the truth came out. the girl was his love, but she doesn't rmb him. she had a car accident 7 years ago, probably on the way to meeting him during the date when he wanted to propose. she was in coma, and treated by her current husband. miracously, she woke up at the 56th day, but didn't rmb a single thing. even her name. he told her he was her boyfriend, got together, and married after one year.

the husband told the truth on one condition, that the guy will keep it a secret, and not ruined the current happiness. be it selfish and cruel to both him and her.

after knowing the truth, the guy was ~ (a representation of feeling becuz i have no word for it). he apologized to the girl who still know nothing abt the truth, saying he got the wrong person. then he left.

having the things settled, the husband decided to let the family stay one more day. and in request to her daughter's crave for the guy's egg fried rice, they planned to have dinner at his restaurant.

dinner came, the husband deliberately didn't show up to let the guy spent some time with the girl. (i was kinda touched by this selfish bastard's actions)

during the dinner conversation, the daughter told him that she was 7 years old. now if you put it in chronological order, it was just nice 7 years ago that she had that car accident. she got married only 1 year after that. so now, it turned out to be more than just a reunion of old love. then came the stupid background music and showing the guy with teary eyes, and the husband smiling outside the restaurant, having a big enough heart to let the actual family have a final dinner together.

the end.

love. don't you feel the wonder in it? and yet can't deny that sometimes, it brings out the most cruel side of destiny. you have to let go when things have turn out this way, to not break the current state of happiness.

快乐的一刻, 胜过永恒的难过

how true is this phrase to you?
a moment of happiness overwhelms even the eternity of sadness.

every story has its ending.
my story has just ended.

bye bye

had a farewell dinner for kr who's leaving for japan in a week time for his digital arts scholarship. 8 of us went out, cool gang. nothing much have changed for us since the last time we met. they are the ones who brought me through one of the toughest times in army. i rmbed the time they told me i may not make it. after months of training, no doubt one will feel super dulan and disappointed after hearing those shitz.

anyway, 一路顺风 to kr.

feeling the usual moodiness.
i suppose the best remedy is just to stop all the nonsense.
having that thing on my table, just doesn't helps.
and it's like... end of march already.
so i took like 3 months to do one simple thing, though it's stupid and getting more senseless towards completion.
besides, it's making my table look extremely messy.
will find some time next week to finish it and store it somewhere.
i'm planning to burn that stupid notepad i wrote when i was broken.
and i was hoping someone would throw or lose something.
if not, i will break it when i see it.

don't feel too good.
and i know i will feel even more so if my game lags when someone initiates a chat with me.
i'm afraid of filling myself with hatred.
once to the brim, it will never go away.
it's impossible to forget something you always think about.
i have to put a full stop to this shitz.

4 days of sports, i think that took most of the energy out from me.
no mood to even be moody.

my heart aches

along with half of my body. it's badminton on thursday night, swimming on friday morning, then badminton again today. tml is soccer. my body will probably aches more after tml.

lost to an uncle in yishun during thursday game, 15 - 0. i know i was going to lose, but didn't expect it to be zero only. haha.. hard to score when i'm tired shuttling around the court trying to return his shots.

i'm slowly losing to myself too. i felt a sudden loss after her words. i found myself too different from now and before. i may have force it upon myself to create an image, an unique individual, in which i shouldn't have. she reminded me, i should listen to my soul more.

i will get away from everyone and live in the virtual world. isolation, solitude, can bring you to places you never know before.

i wanna become rich!!!

hmm.. stranger with the name smartphone came to comment.
and i wonder if it's just some advertising ways to bring people to their website.
becuz it's in brazilian language, i don't really understand anything on it.
but the thing is, i don't think this blog has that many ppl viewing it at a regular basis and won't click on the comment to go to his website.

anyway, i just wanted to be rich!
that sounds kinda dumb, but, it's just a sudden urge.
reason is simple.
i want to buy a house with a room that comprises of:

1. Table soccer/Foosball
2. Table Hockey
3. Pools table

that is according to priority. of cuz, i need some friends to be crazy over them first, which i think is a very minimal (excluding pools).

this thought came rather long ago, it's just that i didn't really bother to jot it down.

it kinda seems that eacg time i don't succeed in proceeding with a relationship, or failed in one, i will just tell myself, "it's just another infatuation, don't bother too much abt it." so.. after commiting much efforts, it's an infatuation. haha.. i don't really know if it's the real or just a pathetic way to comforting myself, consoling the sorrows. but if bluffing yourself works wonder, why not? if you bluff yourself you can fly, you will somehow. maybe for a few seconds though, until you realise you just jump off from a really high building and heading for the ground below in a matter of...... time. then you died.

so if there's really a bluff, am i falling still, or have i reached the ground, then went into the spiritual world?

lunch time again~!

a story to share

the boy and the girl were childhood friends.
during their schooling years, the girl will approach the boy for any problems.
at the age of 18, they both went into the same university.
doing things together, studying, going to the canteen.
at the age of 19, the guy asked her to be his girlfriend. she nodded. it was their first love.
after 2 years, the guy left her, becuz he want to love another. she was heartbroken and cried. they were 21.
at the age of 26, the girl got married. she was tired, just wanted a shoulder to lie on. the guy, still finding a better one, one after another, countless relationships.
and after every failed one, he thought of her.
there was once the girl and her husband got into a great fight, she went out for a ride. she thought of the guy, and the past.
becuz the girl worked in the media business, the guy often avoids her shows. he thought of the past too.
at the age of 29, the girl got divorced with her husband.
sometime at the age of 30, the guy got hold of the girl's number and asked her out.
they met, reminisced.
i think they got together in the end.

saw jieen on sunday while on train after First Rule at yishun gv, stupid show by the way. it seem that she became a bit.. bigger? the first look it seemed like her, but i thought it wasn't becuz she was rather bigger. in the past was already 前凸后翘, now i suppose it's more prominent, especially her butt. maybe becuz of dancing ba. i missed irritating her from requesting staplers with liang. she gave the eyes that would mesmerize many, captivates their hearts. but most of the times, she was giving that look like she was going to kill me and liang.
not forgetting yuuuwuuuu sitting beside her.
it's fun in school, especially secondary school. you get to irritate the hell out of girls, and get away with it. if not, just borrow the stapler from someone else loh.

what i wanna show, is also what i wanna hide.
what can i do, to show and keep it hidden at the same time.

i saw someone brought up a similar issue i have some time ago.
who i wanna be?
hmm.. i chose a part of me long ago. some ppl called it pervertic. others went into extreme and called it pornograhic. i call it, normal.
other than that, the many sides are constantly evolving and changes with time, environment, and people. you can behave like an idiot infront of your friends, but not your relatives. similarly, you can strip in front of your spouse, but not your friends.
who are you and what you are, grows and changes.
define myself, and you will find a lot of questions, but also a lot of answers.

oh, time for lunch. by the way, i'm busy at work now.

it's growing

something's growing inside of me
hatred or wisdom, i can't differentiate
to the know the inferiority of others and look at them from above
or to blame them for their inferiority, and spy them from under

don't look me up on the streets
don't call me up at night
don't even bother to say a word
i am, but one, invisible person in my own world.

come on, rain

i don't remember the sad memories.
all i have left is the happy ones.
and that is why, i feel bitter.

sweetness was just a thing of the past.
the closeness of another heart to mine.
hide no secrets, cover no feelings.
naked in front of her.

i've learned to hold the truth, and speak the right.
for often i find, the truth ain't right.

IT'S THURSDAY

hmm.. too early at work. so blog for a while.
or else, i'm chionging game at night or just plain tv.
it's getting too boring at work.
can't wait to finish this damn project and get out.
in fact, i don't even feel like finishing this.

life has been okay.
somehow she realised she has been initiating chats with me.
hey, it's your turn.
and you thought i have it easy initiating chats with you last time.
it was worse than now.

hair getting long.
i used to see hair as a source of troubles.
so more often than not, i will cut my hair just before exams.
something like a move to remove myself from the worldly desires and concentrate fully on work. if not, the hair is just irritating the hell out of me and i don't bother to style it in a more stylish way.
by the way, i'm still going to the barber. it's just 8 bucks.
i can do it at least 3 times less if i go for those.. professional cut.
i don't see myself as a guy who cares much abt style.
becuz my style is short and okay.

traffic jams on the way home these fwe days.
pity on the lorry drivers, sad.

nice songs.
~sometimes love just ain't enough
~男人女人

some sentences were quite meaningful.

I don't wanna lose you
I don't wanna use you
Just to have somebody by my side

(i'm kinda wondering if i'm feeling this way some time ago. do i just need somebody by my side? haha.. ponder ponder)

but there's a danger in loving somebody too much
and its sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust

(is it true that i put in too much each time that i know my heart ain't true anymore? it's just the effort that i'm reluctant to let go.)

tml friday.
tml's tml sat.
tml's tml's tml sunday.
i can go on forever.
just becuz i feel ready for tml to come.
are you?

aching on the right

you know... when you haven't play badminton for a long time...
you better don't play like you usually do years back.
becuz when you do that, you might end up like me
achings in my right arm, right leg, right shoulder
unless you're a left-handed.

had a 2-hr badminton session with the sgforums, avid shuttlers. 1st time.
hmm.. it was a... something not like me.
it's not like me to want to go out with strangers i have never met before.
it's not like me to want to socialise with other ppl.
hmm... let's put it another way, i don't really know how to socialise.
couldn't really talk much with them, maybe becuz it was the first time, and they were already friends long ago.
another reason may be becuz i'm the youngest one ard. all of them seemed to be in their 30s. i'm... 20, 21 this year. -_-"

the session was good. although i didn't really catch all of their names.
the tallest guy played quite well. hmm.. i think he's better than me. haha...
my shots were going everywhere that i don't want them to go to.. -_- it's been some time since i've hit the shuttles. realised a lot of bad habits on court again. as the game progressed, it got harder for me to hold back my smashes, becuz there were ladies in court. afraid of coming too hard on them, but towards the end, i just whacked. haha.. must learn how to hold back and play with wits rather than just pure brawl.

one of my old friends just came to irritate me with her dream of having a baby. -_-" i seriously wonder why is she so keen on having a baby so early? you're both not financially stable, young, not even engaged... although i would very much like to play with the baby when it's borned, and having the first friend becomes a mother. but NO, alamak... hmm... but babies are fun. like the one in my house. he just learned how to roll over by himself recently. a scorpio too, so he's ard...3-4 months. and he's making ALL sorts of stupid noises. you're not even sure he's happy or whining.

over the weekends i started on a game called cabal for SEA. hmm.. let's just say a lot of players miragated from maplestory. hopefully we don't see another game being dominated by stupid players. sis and her bf playing too. it's good in a sense, you know you have company online. and we 'ran' into one another sometimes. since she's always not at home. haha..

i'm losing interest in work. or should i say, the work just isn't for me. hopefully this month i will complete the project and leave this job.

i was thinking of watching the movie, leap years. it's about a love story of someone whose bday is on 29th feb, and met her love on that day also. both agreed to meet at the same place, same time, everytime the date comes. which is every 4 years. now.. everytime when i want to watch this kind of movie, i can't think of anyone to go with. the guys ain't interested, asking the girls doesn't seem okay. so i thought of asking someone who's somewhere in between. (NIK, ARE YOU LOOKING AT THIS?)

the plus point is i no need to travel all the way to yishun to watch, just becuz most of them live in yishun.

lynn reminded me of watching a movie alone. hmm.. possible, but unless you're really alone and bored, like you're over there in taiwan by yourself, then perhaps i would just don't bother and don't watch. got other things to do, projects to do and start, games to play, sports to sweat.

the first movie i watched by myself was LOSER. hmm.. i thought it was a nice movie to start out. the second one was... i forgot the title, or the plot. basically i only know i watched 2 movies by myself, the second one i have no remembrance of. haha.. i kinda like the feeling of watching a movie alone. but of cuz, don't watch it when it just came out and you have to sit with 2 strangers beside you. i rather watch it with 2 empty seats beside me.

and somehow i missed the feeling of someone beside me during the movies... when romance wasn't only on the big screen.

i'm getting accustomed to the timely pinches of life to tell me again what i can't experience. it's painful nevertheless, but humans all live in pain, don't we?

every paths that we walk, we will have regrets.
becuz i believe in every path, there are pros and cons.
regret over the pros you didn't take,
but rejoice over the cons, you didn't suffer.

oh ya, for any reason that i'm being dragged to church, i will only be focuzing on finding chio bus.

我又心动了

nice song to recommend.
写一首歌 by 顺子
hmm.. i kinda like soothing songs.
full of feelings, smooth, nice melody.
i know it's old. but it's classic.
i've been listening to it whole day, repeat mode.

completed 5 volumes of manga related to badminton.
hmmm.. i think it's time.

i missed the time when all my mind thinks abt is 求胜 and girls.
haha.. 求胜之心, 来之自己.
everyone knows that. but are you doing it?
i used to dream abt having a life like that.
hmm.. have the rackets and shuttles accompany my life through.
i kinda stop dreaming at secondary school. haha..
hey, i actually consider sports school. -_-"
just like my little cousin. haha... although his results are so much alamak. haiz

seriously, i don't like to study much.

have you ever been on the court before?

1-on-1 with your opponent. you only have supporters outside of the zone.
you asked yourself, what's victory to you?
can you feel the wind? your wind.
what does it feels like to be controlling the court? having the shuttles going your way? deep thoughts analysing your opponent while sprinting cross the court? when's the best time to strike? will he see through my fake actions?

"oh shitz... next up with the 1st seed"
"i need to win this deciding match for the team to move up"
"this guy's dead meat!!!"

pressure, anger, happiness, and how to handle all the emotions.

my rackets and shuttles have found me my foundation in life.

my deep love for it.

such a feeling coming over me...

and it's coming true especially for me...
stupid influenza, making me feel... weird for the past 2 days.
haiz... i just recieved a stack of infomation to read through, analyse, extract, summarise, process and produce. it's like 10 times the amount of projectwork, or worse. kaoz. why did i say i wanna stay on to complete something i'm not interested in? haiz... sometimes being too responsible isn't all that.. good. haha..

on the way back home, was listening to radio..
a familiar song suddenly just came up. hmm.. what a nice description of my situation.

i kinda wanted to prove that there's always something interesting in our daily lives. no matter how minute, or how huge it is.

my interesting thing today:
the bus back home wasn't packed. in fact, i found a seat alone when i board it. it's usually full. but the thing is, the usually 2 ladies that i saw, were absent today.

i think it's more towards bo liao than interesting. hahaha..

somehow, it feels better

i'm feeling better.
not sure whether is it the music that's bringing my spirit up,
or just the realization that even though i'm missed, it's still alright.
haha.. a really wonderful and peaceful serenity..

they said,
why love someone even though they don't love you
i asked,
why love someone else, when you love her now

True Love - SENS

Today's Bonus Joke

I was riding to work yesterday when I observed a female driver cut right in front of a pickup truck causing him to have to drive on to the shoulder to avoid hitting her. This evidently angered the driver enough that he hung his arm out his window and flipped the woman off. "Man, that guy is stupid" I thought to myself.

I ALWAYS smile nicely and wave in a sheepish manner whenever a female does anything to me in traffic and here's why:

I drive 48 miles each way every day to work, that's 96 miles each day. Of these, 16 miles each way is bumper-to-bumper. Most of the bumper-to-bumper is on an 8 lane highway so if you just look at the 7 lanes I am not in, that means I pass something like a new car every 40 feet per lane.

That's 7 cars every 40 feet for 32 miles. That works out to be 982 cars ever mile, or 31424 cars. Even though the rest of the 32 miles is not bumper to bumper, I figure I pass at least another 400 cars. That brings the number to something like 36,000 cars I pass every day.

Statistically, half of these are driven by females, that's 18,000. In any given group of females, 1 in 28 has PMS. That's 642. According to Cosmopolitan, 70% describe their love llife as dissatisfying or unrewarding. That's 449. According to National Institute of Health, 22% of all females have seriously considered suicide or homicide. That's 98. And 34% describe men as their biggest problem. That's 33.


According to the National Rifle Association 5% of all females carry weapons and this number is increasing. That means that EVERY SINGLE DAY, I drive past at least one female that has a lousy love life, thinks men are her biggest problem, has seriously considered suicide or homicide, has PMS and is armed.

Flip one off?

I think not.

--written by a very smart man

=)

i must run

i must run away from this side of me
ugly, disgust, whatever you can think of
i shouldn't be permitted to be like that
so wrong, not right, illegal

why can't i shake off this feeling
pressurized, squeezed, getting harder to breathe
why is looking away doesn't means it's non-existant
denying, bluffing, faking, me and the surroundings

will reminding myself of another torture, reduce this torment
it feels more like an add-on than a diversion
time fades even the strongest emotion
words well said by the one who didn't sense the presence

am i too naive for this sophisticated intertwine
or is this naiveness its truest form
nobody can really define the word
yet everyone has their own definition

i must run away from all my doubts
let them remain dissolved in my spirit
till my heart is with the sea and breeze again
then i shall face them with a true smile

weekend is here again

hmm.. so i just spent my sat like a lazy guy.
woke up late, even though i keep waking up from 0700 - 1100hrs.
just feel that i should catch the sleep i didn't have from all the late nights this week. play games... eat lunch...

spent some time on the slope of the hill doing my stuff and relaxing.
saw some boys playing around. they got to fighting though. it was kinda stupid. all they did was just use their hands and swing it around. that is not a punch. then there was tag team too. boys.. should fight more fierce lah.. fight until like gu niang like that.

at some point of time, the little ants swarmed my legs one by one. got kinda irritated so quickly finished up my stuff and headed home for dinner.

watched tv with dad until now. hmm.. i think we're two lazy guys.

some words are better left unspoken.
i felt sinister in the face of naive.
manipulation, is that what i'm after?
is that horoscopic, or just characteristic?
perhaps it's just me.
beware.
i'm thinking of a good way to kill you.

the terrorist is on the loose.
seriously speaking, i saw someone similar that day at the bus stop along the route back on bus.
well, hopefully he will be arrested soon. i don't like the feeling of having the possibility of spotting him near my workplace.
if i really see him, i don't even know if i will bother to do anything.
what i know is, the retention centre is crap to let such a person on the loose.
somebodies going to get screwed.

there's a need to escape from my feelings.
if not, it will mess up my spirit again.
since i've decided on the path of future,
i shall walk on and leave the past.

let the energy flows and gather around my palms..
sometimes i wished i was an esper. haha..

there's a new chinese song. not very sure abt the title.
the words Amour caught my attention straight away.
italian for love.
there's a puzzle on named Amour.
and i still rmbed the way to it.

nothing to crap more abt.
it's time to do something else.