Still thinking

It's beginning to suffocate me.
The thoughts, the memories, the emotions, once again.
They did fade along the years, but return anyway.
I don't want to ask myself why, becuz the answer might just make it worse.
hide it deep inside, and hide it well.
For even now, the image of you eats me alive in the dark
Your sweetness that kills, your smile that mesmerizes
It's a secret, but I want everything back.

Perhaps among the many reasons and excuses not to hide my sorrows,
Is i can't find a good reason to put it all behind
Is a shoutout to others i still miss you
Is the fact that I'm still thinking, abt you.