dreaming lately

been having dreams lately.
it wasn't those dreams that occur when i wake up, then go back to sleep again.
those dreams are usually kinda bad, cuz probably my brain is forcing my body to wake up.
the recent dreams were different.
they were part of the normal routine of sleeping.
and it's only recently that i started to dream, or perhaps remember my dreams when i wake up.

here's a funny, weird dream that i just had today.
it kinda involved me and a particular female friend whom i fancied before. don't rmb the beginning much, but i supposed we were having a good time together. it felt like we were in a relationship. anyway, after that, the scene somehow switched to me and my ex. we decided to catch a movie, and strangely enough, we were in a place which was freezing cold. she was wearing those sweater with a hood. i went to the toilet, but when i came back, she was missing. so i ran all over the place to look for her. in the end, i found that she was dead at the same old freezing place. the thought of murder came into my mind, but there was no blood. but her, frozen, with her eyes open. then soon after, i woke up.

well the story probably ain't as accurate as what i just said, but i tried to formed some sort of links from the fragments of dream which i can barely remember.

it's strange becuz it isn't often that i dream of my ex. and even more weird to dream that she died; perhaps murdered. i was trying to recall whether did i run around again to find the murderer, or just stared at her frozen face till i woke up. sigmund freud would have come up with some great repression of desires that i have, or still have. but i would just brush it off with modern psychology beliefs that dreams are just random neuronal firings. that is, until i dream of her, again.

anyway, i managed to get a part-time assignment doing data entry. tough work, just started today. it isn't just simply entering data. there's a lot of skipping of questions, so entering the data ain't as easy as i thought it would. and damn slow too. 20 entries in an hour. sighz. money hard to earn.

cut my hair short again. feels good~