Sunday nuaness

so the day started early as i went to toapayoh temple to pray. crowded as usual. finally saw my cousin who has been away in china for a few years and is now back in singapore to stay.

went back home. felt really nua. wanted to read up on the psycho textbook which i brought home but didn't feel like it. have nothing to do, don't feel like going on, just sitting on the sofa, watching what's on on the tv. most of it was olypmics. other than that, i don't really know what to look out for.

it's bothering me, greatly. in fact, too much. i currently don't have the drive, to push me. can't expect someone to pull me along.

a bit of struggle today as i thought of dropping one of my mod to take up one of the maths mod. there were vacancies. i gave it much thoughts before allowing the deadline to come.

i really do not have much confidence on my own course of study. i really don't. i need results for assurance. something to show me that i can do it. but that something, i must first create.

watched lin dan (China) vs lee chong wei (Malaysia). a rather quick victory by lin dan as he read chong wei pretty well. but i still feel that chong wei's smashes are much better in terms of speed and power. i wished i could play, at least once in a while. and therefore, i will.

i don't feel like hearing any ranting from anybody. i have been saturated with those already. enough to last a while. don't wanna think about all those stuffz anymore. nobody wants to feel special to a certain individual, and then realise that they're not. this somehow amounts to betrayal, fraud, deceive. upon knowing the truth, they have to force it down their throat. how do you think they feel? enough, i said.

they will not know who i am and where i belong to. they will only see this unknown shadow that lurks around in the night.