To my close her

I thought back.
I used to promise to myself i will protect you as a young man.
I didn't do anything when that bastard left you heartbroken.
Instead, i brought you another portal of life. (online games)
I should have kill that idiot.
When he brought another girl along, I should have give him the hardest punch he will ever receive.
sorry for the things that i didn't do for you all these years..
but anyway, hope you stay happy always.

Happy Bday, dear sis.

i didn't buy a gift. becuz i think i spent more than enough on the movie tickets and the cake. hmm.. another hole, another weekend. i don't really care, as long as the money is put to good use.

last year.. last year...
i look at the memories, and i see contradiction, confusion, the continual self-denial that i've always encounter.

we are what we are, becuz of what we've been through.
but to be what we want to be, we have to go through what we need to go through.
if we don't go through what we need to go through to be what we want to be,
then we will never be what we want to be, and stay as what we are.
held back by what we've been through, we'll then not be what we want to be.
therefore we should be what we need now, becuz of what we've been through, and what we want to be.

shitz, i miss those xxx and xxxxxx.
it's too porno to state. go figure.
just to mention, it's not sex and bj.

KR IS ON THE NEWSPAPER~!
WOOHOO~! THAT BASTARD.
WHEN HE GRADUATE, I MAKE SURE I WILL BUG HIM NOW AND THEN TO DRAW ME SOMETHING NICE.

i think the wave is coming back, real strong this time round.
can feel the signs.
whether it's heading this way, i'm not sure.
better be on high grounds, and just look from high up.
or should i just stay around.

as the blue serenity takes a wrong turn,
the beast of darkness devours the heart.
wrongs begin to justify.
rights start to diminish in significance.

i hate to see couples behaving "uncouplish".
either you're holding hands, kissing, hugging, or on bed.
if not, forget it.