The glowing Puzzle

i wrote something on the story of the glow around 8 months ago.
that's roughly the time after i broke up.
someone say it was a beautiful story, meaningful.
i thought it's just life.
life is always beautiful and full of it.
but life is also always ugly, and saturated with it.
how you view life, is how you view yourself.
if it's beautiful, i'm sure you're living in bliss.
if it's awful, i'm sure you're living with sorrows.
but normally you're just not here and not there. haha..
the grayness of the sky is just life.

i don't really know what's the material of glow.
but i found it quite amusing to have something that absorbs energy, and then release it once the source disappears. but there's only that much that it can take in, and hence it has a limit, a maximum amount of time it can glow. let me relive the meaning behind it...

glow is something similar to love.
i was basking in the the rays of it when she was around.
absorbing and storing the potential energy, i grew stronger.
when the source disappears, the glowing starts.
it can only hope that before it fades into the darkness, the source will return.
slowly and steadily, the glow becomes weaker.
until the second it has no more energy to produce even the minute amount of photons.

come to think abt it, maybe it's not love.
you're just glowing, becuz you're loved.
or perhaps it was love. just that it left you.
and hence, you glows.
once you have no more energy to glow, you just move on.

what about a jigsaw puzzle?

doing up a puzzle takes a long time to finish.
patience my friend, you just have to do it piece by piece.
what do you think of love being related to a puzzle?
the patience to complete a piece of masterpiece.

you started out by choosing which puzzle you wanna complete,
just like how you began looking out for that special someone you wanna have an end with.
you buy it, and bring it home.
open out the box, and see that all the different pieces.
like the one you love now, you're not loving, you're just completing that love for them.
love has no boundaries, it only completes itself when perhaps, the person is gone.
whether the person left you in life, or in the heart.
it's not wrong to say i love you.
but i think it's more correct to say, i'm not done loving you yet.

you started out doing up the frame, you began a friendship relationship with her.
portions by portions, you pieced together the different parts of the picture.
step by step, you two got closer to each other hearts. eventually, a pair.

there will be times you think that this piece of the puzzle, matches that other piece.
when in truth, it doesn't.
like the many times you quarrel with her. you think it's her fault, she think it's yours.
basically both are at faults. it's just a mismatch of puzzle pieces.

you get more committed towards the results. as you can actually see more and more of the final piece. you get more interested, you dedicate more time, you focuz more.

until you put that last piece of that puzzle, then can we called it complete.
but no, that's not the end of love.
that's when you're certain of it.
if framing the puzzle up means maintaining it, then frame up your love.
be it marriage, or just maintaining at the present state. you've gotta make every effort to make sure it doesn't just breakdown into pieces again. well of cuz, normally you just glued the pieces together. but from my first experience, the glue is often not enough. both, first experiences.

perhaps this is just a simple yet ideal case of relationship.

glowing puzzle... hmm... imagine.

i like to talk nonsense on weekends.
becuz i'm kinda trapped at home by my parents.
stupid phone calls.