in the recent years i have caught on the japanese drama wave, followed closely by the korean wave. but preference goes to korean drama. love those love stories with the right amount of comedic touch. it's funny how the korean directors are able to create drama with so much laughter, while all i see in the local dramas are just stories after stories promoting values that we should have, mostly family ties. why the missing comedic element? the funny scenes may be what's causing the local dramas to be inferior to taiwan, korean, and jap. even those touching scenes are better overseas.
hypothesis: is it becuz if there's more laughter elements in the show, the sadness part that follows after would be more impactful? hmm... worth a thought.
well, the new interns are well. basically i've been talking too much nowadays to get any real work done. better keep my mouth shut and concentrate on my work. fyp's confirmation deadline coming, need to settle HPAP stuffs, ICT stuffs, get some black pants over the weekend, settle my ICT leave at DPD and NTU... why is my holidays like that? haha.. work just creeps deep into my life somehow.
spent the last weekend watching the korean drama that john was quite crazy about some time ago. watched 16 episodes straight, before sleeping and then waking up to complete the last 4. initially i thought it was a typical korean love story, poor girl falls in love with rich guy, rich guy's mother don't allow, blah blah blah. but it got some twists, such as the magical switch of identity, the refusal to approve the marriage till the end... and i thought the side roles were well played. when hoping for things to happen between the main leads, i was anticipating the developlment of the sides roles too.
whole weekend spent on a drama. shiok.
thought of some lyrics when i was walking to work this morn.
请你别忘了我
忘了我们的所有
就算我们的爱没有结果
也希望你会记得我
如果分手是回到情人之前的美梦
那为何我还在这里等候。。。
i totally forgot the melody of these few sentences. haha.. and downside of me not being able to bring my iphone around.
Tuesday, May 31, 2011
Friday, May 27, 2011
air force openhouse
today is the end of 2 weeks from the start of my internship at mindef.
it attracted a bit of attention of fb when i posted it up on my profile.
i don't know why, but the idea of being a regular again, just doesn't sound fitting to the future that i envision.
went with DPD to the air force open house at paya lebar. saw the types of aircraft we had, not so interesting. the most entertaining part was the air show, with the F-15s and F-16s taking off, apaches flying around, fighters flying in for the kill, and the most relevant of all ~ close air support (CAS) mission. it kinda reminded me of the time i did my CAS missions at the southern islands. kinda fun to command the pilots to fire away.
tried to differentiate the fighters in the air, but it was too hard. the easiest way is probably to look at the back since they are two burners, plus the wings. still, too hard when they are so high up in the sky.
saw sam yeo, had become LTA now. asked him about the rest of the guys... only 3 of my course made it to through all the way to pilots.
later on saw sharon when i was waiting at the busstop.
the other day saw cpt kenny at the canteen. went over to congratulate him on his coming wedding, in which he invited me over, and also got to know that he's leaving the force for further studies. it's kinda weird that the old bosses leave one by one, and now only left leck. the turnover rate in the force seemed rather high. and that's why i'm doing on the engagement survey. haha..
when i was going back home from the air base, i kinda felt that me being in the defense psychology department, is like a path that was mapped out to me already. i get to see familiar faces, get to know new friends who i am going along well with... was it me who was adapting to the new environment, or the environment chose me? i might consider defense psych... haha..
missed the darts outing due to tuition. wasn't really that into it also due to my dartitis condition. but after hearing that angela was going, kinda got a bit interested in going. although not close, we haven't seen each other for quite a while.
i realized the deadline of the fyp is drawing closer. perhaps this weekend i should do some work on settling it.
it attracted a bit of attention of fb when i posted it up on my profile.
i don't know why, but the idea of being a regular again, just doesn't sound fitting to the future that i envision.
went with DPD to the air force open house at paya lebar. saw the types of aircraft we had, not so interesting. the most entertaining part was the air show, with the F-15s and F-16s taking off, apaches flying around, fighters flying in for the kill, and the most relevant of all ~ close air support (CAS) mission. it kinda reminded me of the time i did my CAS missions at the southern islands. kinda fun to command the pilots to fire away.
tried to differentiate the fighters in the air, but it was too hard. the easiest way is probably to look at the back since they are two burners, plus the wings. still, too hard when they are so high up in the sky.
saw sam yeo, had become LTA now. asked him about the rest of the guys... only 3 of my course made it to through all the way to pilots.
later on saw sharon when i was waiting at the busstop.
the other day saw cpt kenny at the canteen. went over to congratulate him on his coming wedding, in which he invited me over, and also got to know that he's leaving the force for further studies. it's kinda weird that the old bosses leave one by one, and now only left leck. the turnover rate in the force seemed rather high. and that's why i'm doing on the engagement survey. haha..
when i was going back home from the air base, i kinda felt that me being in the defense psychology department, is like a path that was mapped out to me already. i get to see familiar faces, get to know new friends who i am going along well with... was it me who was adapting to the new environment, or the environment chose me? i might consider defense psych... haha..
missed the darts outing due to tuition. wasn't really that into it also due to my dartitis condition. but after hearing that angela was going, kinda got a bit interested in going. although not close, we haven't seen each other for quite a while.
i realized the deadline of the fyp is drawing closer. perhaps this weekend i should do some work on settling it.
Sunday, May 22, 2011
sunburned
after like 2 months of not playing soccer, i got my face and body sunburned, and a cramp in my right leg which i can still feel strain in the muscles.
was kinda surprised by the number of ppl who came to play this morning. it was great to see everyone, but the fact that i'm not in a good shape to sprint in the court kinda just puts me at the back.
had overnight mahjong, with the army guys, over at jimmy's. tiring, and lost money. haha.. sad. wasn't in luck through the night.
my procrastination took over since friday, and i'm just starting to do my presentation tml. haha.. damn it. and i just found out that syl. is coming next next week, not tml. was looking forward to the whole time and now it's delayed. oh well.
i wonder why i don't get as much sunburn as i get from sunday morning soccer back in secondary school when i do all my parade drills under the hot sun in my blue npcc uniform. was it becuz i was already accustomed to the sun back then? and now i'm just some weak guy who can't stand the sun? haha..
shitz, better finish up my presentation and go to bed. don't really like starting the week with a deprivation of sleep.
was kinda surprised by the number of ppl who came to play this morning. it was great to see everyone, but the fact that i'm not in a good shape to sprint in the court kinda just puts me at the back.
had overnight mahjong, with the army guys, over at jimmy's. tiring, and lost money. haha.. sad. wasn't in luck through the night.
my procrastination took over since friday, and i'm just starting to do my presentation tml. haha.. damn it. and i just found out that syl. is coming next next week, not tml. was looking forward to the whole time and now it's delayed. oh well.
i wonder why i don't get as much sunburn as i get from sunday morning soccer back in secondary school when i do all my parade drills under the hot sun in my blue npcc uniform. was it becuz i was already accustomed to the sun back then? and now i'm just some weak guy who can't stand the sun? haha..
shitz, better finish up my presentation and go to bed. don't really like starting the week with a deprivation of sleep.
Thursday, May 19, 2011
thursday
it's thursday.
i'm already feeling 'normed'.
it's like an ever running cycle of work work work.
before exams, work for the assignments.
during exams, work for the finals.
after exams, work for the intern, fyp, and all sorts of shitz.
think i saw yh's gf at kfc when i had dinner there.
couldn't recognize her at first, so, oh well.
sometimes when i have too much time on my hand, i tend to think about having someone by my side. i stop counting how long was it that i hold someone's hand. i stop believing that love is all that great. i had to. becuz if it's all that great, and i'm missing it in my life, then isn't my life ain't all that great? haha..
it hurts, sometimes. not becuz of the pain of the previous, but becuz of the absence in the present. i don't miss her, i miss it. love's like a candy that keeps you hooked on the first time. it stimulates your very mind, activate your rewarding system in the brain. in biological terms, it excites your ventral tegmental area (VTA) to release more dopamine into the nucleus accumbens, which inhibits the activity of it, causing a feeling of enjoyment. a smile, a touch, a hug, a kiss.
love aside, life's much bigger.
there's more to life than love.
i have to believe that.
or perhaps, i should believe that someday, some place, some girl is gonna come into my life, and blow my heart away.
i'm already feeling 'normed'.
it's like an ever running cycle of work work work.
before exams, work for the assignments.
during exams, work for the finals.
after exams, work for the intern, fyp, and all sorts of shitz.
think i saw yh's gf at kfc when i had dinner there.
couldn't recognize her at first, so, oh well.
sometimes when i have too much time on my hand, i tend to think about having someone by my side. i stop counting how long was it that i hold someone's hand. i stop believing that love is all that great. i had to. becuz if it's all that great, and i'm missing it in my life, then isn't my life ain't all that great? haha..
it hurts, sometimes. not becuz of the pain of the previous, but becuz of the absence in the present. i don't miss her, i miss it. love's like a candy that keeps you hooked on the first time. it stimulates your very mind, activate your rewarding system in the brain. in biological terms, it excites your ventral tegmental area (VTA) to release more dopamine into the nucleus accumbens, which inhibits the activity of it, causing a feeling of enjoyment. a smile, a touch, a hug, a kiss.
love aside, life's much bigger.
there's more to life than love.
i have to believe that.
or perhaps, i should believe that someday, some place, some girl is gonna come into my life, and blow my heart away.
Wednesday, May 18, 2011
internship ain't gonna be easy
2nd day and i'm already feeling some pressure.
basics of psychometrics testing - don't know.
organizational psychology - don't know.
statistics - not sure, but it's the best knowledge i have at the moment.
just found out sylvia is joining me next week.
nice.
and found out someone got the intern for touch cyber wellness.
wtheck? my qualifications not good enough? wtf?
seriously, i would prefer something else rather than creating and validating the survey. but since i'm in it, might as well learn something from it. but the thing is, it's an intern. you're suppose to come equipped with the knowledge, or self-learn along the way. the supervisor is just there to guide. and by the way, my supervisor looks a bit like rui en.
she's expecting a powerpoint presentation next mon -_-"
basics of psychometrics testing - don't know.
organizational psychology - don't know.
statistics - not sure, but it's the best knowledge i have at the moment.
just found out sylvia is joining me next week.
nice.
and found out someone got the intern for touch cyber wellness.
wtheck? my qualifications not good enough? wtf?
seriously, i would prefer something else rather than creating and validating the survey. but since i'm in it, might as well learn something from it. but the thing is, it's an intern. you're suppose to come equipped with the knowledge, or self-learn along the way. the supervisor is just there to guide. and by the way, my supervisor looks a bit like rui en.
she's expecting a powerpoint presentation next mon -_-"
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
vesak
happy vesak day~!
last night was out with some psych friends.
never really see it coming though, thought i would always stick around with the pat, karen and kx. but this sem got me closer to this group.
it was fun, but somehow the sense of tiredness just brought my spirits down a little. didn't sleep on sunday night before going off for my first working day yesterday. i kinda gave up on the stats report, the whole thing wasn't very coherent. perhaps we were more focused on how to actually do the statistics, than actually the focus of the study. moreover, sp's english wasn't that good. so i was editing and redoing more of her parts. but i gave up on editing her stats section, too much to change. haha.. oh well, at least it's over.
first day of intern was nice, but torturing. met a lot of ppl, mainly the defense psychologist. all of them seemed rather nice, empathsize with me when i relate my current condition of having no sleep and thus look like shit. my supervisor gave me a treat during lunch, nice.
however, i'm wondering if i can actually do the work they require me of. all those creating of survey questions etc, i never really touch these topics before. borrowed books from xf to read up more.
oh right, last night was a celebration for xf's bday.
gotta need to spend some time on deciding on my fyp topic fast too. haiz.. tempted to just submit a proposal to qu li regarding the field of developmental psych, and just ignore my real interests in other fields. i don't foresee the time to actually go down to sch and chat with the profs when i'm having my intern. damn it.
no holidays, just work.
last night was out with some psych friends.
never really see it coming though, thought i would always stick around with the pat, karen and kx. but this sem got me closer to this group.
it was fun, but somehow the sense of tiredness just brought my spirits down a little. didn't sleep on sunday night before going off for my first working day yesterday. i kinda gave up on the stats report, the whole thing wasn't very coherent. perhaps we were more focused on how to actually do the statistics, than actually the focus of the study. moreover, sp's english wasn't that good. so i was editing and redoing more of her parts. but i gave up on editing her stats section, too much to change. haha.. oh well, at least it's over.
first day of intern was nice, but torturing. met a lot of ppl, mainly the defense psychologist. all of them seemed rather nice, empathsize with me when i relate my current condition of having no sleep and thus look like shit. my supervisor gave me a treat during lunch, nice.
however, i'm wondering if i can actually do the work they require me of. all those creating of survey questions etc, i never really touch these topics before. borrowed books from xf to read up more.
oh right, last night was a celebration for xf's bday.
gotta need to spend some time on deciding on my fyp topic fast too. haiz.. tempted to just submit a proposal to qu li regarding the field of developmental psych, and just ignore my real interests in other fields. i don't foresee the time to actually go down to sch and chat with the profs when i'm having my intern. damn it.
no holidays, just work.
Saturday, May 14, 2011
exams summary
it became a habit to postulate my exams results.
and here it is again.
hp321 drugs - had the most fun in this paper, A
mb102 biz finance - struggle with some parts, B+
hp318 health psych - total trashed by essays, B
he191 prin of econs - no idea what to calculate, B
wah, looks pretty bad there. haha..
hopefully i'm underestimating.
but in any case, the gpa would drop much.
and if does, i'll just need to work harder in my finaly year.
internship starting on mon.
which means no iphone use for the next 3 months.
damn it.
no holidays too in fact.
well, at least i'm definitely doing something productive this semester break.
feel a bit nua to finish up my stats report which is due on mon.
~
and here it is again.
hp321 drugs - had the most fun in this paper, A
mb102 biz finance - struggle with some parts, B+
hp318 health psych - total trashed by essays, B
he191 prin of econs - no idea what to calculate, B
wah, looks pretty bad there. haha..
hopefully i'm underestimating.
but in any case, the gpa would drop much.
and if does, i'll just need to work harder in my finaly year.
internship starting on mon.
which means no iphone use for the next 3 months.
damn it.
no holidays too in fact.
well, at least i'm definitely doing something productive this semester break.
feel a bit nua to finish up my stats report which is due on mon.
~
Sunday, May 8, 2011
is singapore democratic, yet?
political war has just ended with our main party getting most of the seats again. many were quite depressed over the loss of our dear foreign minister.
seriously, politics to me is just news. it would be better if i'm more concerned over the future of singapore, but it just ain't in me to do something or even bother to find out more about the opposition parties, the pap, etc.. although i'm not really for pap with the large ministerial pay and the bias towards those areas that are governed by the opposition teams, i have no grounds to stand by becuz i know if i want to make a stand between the two, i have to, in order to justify my mind, dig out all the dirt while looking at the benefits, analyze and judge for myself, which to vote.
so instead of doing that, i just went along with my emotions. ha. voting, done in 5 mins. first time voting, and it seemed like a huge war has broken out in singapore with so many seats being contested. yet, the results were quite -_-. woke up and felt nothing have changed.
is there democracy in singapore? the correct answer to this, even secondary kids know it, is to some extent, yes. haha..
lagging behind for revision of my econs and biz finance elective, and my health psych. drugs paper was rather smooth, every questions were expected, as there are only so many things douglas can ask with us being able to write something about it. i'm getting less and less anxious about exams as i approached the coming final year. it's like since my grades is stagnant, i might as well be too.
it's been hot lately, i was getting baked last evening when my body was heating up with the lack of sleep and the warm weather. always hot this time of the year. we don't have 4 seasons, but we still have warmer months.
seriously, politics to me is just news. it would be better if i'm more concerned over the future of singapore, but it just ain't in me to do something or even bother to find out more about the opposition parties, the pap, etc.. although i'm not really for pap with the large ministerial pay and the bias towards those areas that are governed by the opposition teams, i have no grounds to stand by becuz i know if i want to make a stand between the two, i have to, in order to justify my mind, dig out all the dirt while looking at the benefits, analyze and judge for myself, which to vote.
so instead of doing that, i just went along with my emotions. ha. voting, done in 5 mins. first time voting, and it seemed like a huge war has broken out in singapore with so many seats being contested. yet, the results were quite -_-. woke up and felt nothing have changed.
is there democracy in singapore? the correct answer to this, even secondary kids know it, is to some extent, yes. haha..
lagging behind for revision of my econs and biz finance elective, and my health psych. drugs paper was rather smooth, every questions were expected, as there are only so many things douglas can ask with us being able to write something about it. i'm getting less and less anxious about exams as i approached the coming final year. it's like since my grades is stagnant, i might as well be too.
it's been hot lately, i was getting baked last evening when my body was heating up with the lack of sleep and the warm weather. always hot this time of the year. we don't have 4 seasons, but we still have warmer months.
Saturday, May 7, 2011
On my way to my first paper
Feeling quite good while I was walking to the station. Not sure why, maybe it's the withdrawal effect of waking up early every morning to study. Haha.. Drugs paper later. Maybe ive been reading up on cocaine, opium, etc..
Anyway, I always like to stare at the morning or evening sun, not too bright and glaring enough for me to fix my sight on it to see it's fullness. I kinda believe it's giving me energy, life energy. It's those no-sense belief that somehow creeps into your daily life, like staying off the cracks on the road pavements. Well, I thought of a stupid line...
You're like the sun.
Once I set my eyes on you, I can't see anyone else.
If this doesn't makes sense to anyone, try looking at the sun, then look at someone.
Back to revising on the train.
Anyway, I always like to stare at the morning or evening sun, not too bright and glaring enough for me to fix my sight on it to see it's fullness. I kinda believe it's giving me energy, life energy. It's those no-sense belief that somehow creeps into your daily life, like staying off the cracks on the road pavements. Well, I thought of a stupid line...
You're like the sun.
Once I set my eyes on you, I can't see anyone else.
If this doesn't makes sense to anyone, try looking at the sun, then look at someone.
Back to revising on the train.
Thursday, May 5, 2011
strange finding
was dozing off in the morn while trying to read my health psych on management of chronic illness, so i stood while reading. was getting bored and restless so i began to move my hips around. surpisingly, in a particular circular motion of the hips, i could hear some air shuffling sound. tried a few times more and my body hurts. it seemed the motion kinda twist my stomach or lungs in a way that it pushes air out of my mouth, which i could feel, though slight. scary finding, like something's wrong with me.
Wednesday, May 4, 2011
lucky day?
picked up a 10 cents coin along the school corridor.
when i ate kfc just now the person who served me gave me a medium whipped potato instead of a small/regular one.
i saw pretty girls in school (as usual).
i got another '8' on my stats quiz.
but it's not 88 anymore, it's 78.
i can actually predict my score for stats quiz that i just handed in today.
assg 1 - nearly 100%; assg 2 - nearly 90%; assg 3 - nearly 80%
with the linear relationship that i found between my score and subsequent assignment, i can predict my assg quiz to be nearly 70%. hahaha.. this is bad.
only managed to read 3 chapters of health psyh. so dead.
12 chpts in total. damn it.
i blame my stats lab. haha..
and i kept dozing off while reading.
when i ate kfc just now the person who served me gave me a medium whipped potato instead of a small/regular one.
i saw pretty girls in school (as usual).
i got another '8' on my stats quiz.
but it's not 88 anymore, it's 78.
i can actually predict my score for stats quiz that i just handed in today.
assg 1 - nearly 100%; assg 2 - nearly 90%; assg 3 - nearly 80%
with the linear relationship that i found between my score and subsequent assignment, i can predict my assg quiz to be nearly 70%. hahaha.. this is bad.
only managed to read 3 chapters of health psyh. so dead.
12 chpts in total. damn it.
i blame my stats lab. haha..
and i kept dozing off while reading.
Tuesday, May 3, 2011
the difference between worlds
over dinner just now, i sparked a heated discussion with my sis on her first working day. she was rather frustrated becuz her boss, my former boss, wasn't around the whole day to settle the legal papers for employment. initially i thought, what's the big deal? you work a few days, and then get legally employed after maybe 3 days, and yet you still get paid for all the days that you worked. apparently, i'm missing a few things that my sis eventually brought up.
bonus? MC? insurance? medical claims? over-time? etc etc etc... things i won't be too lazy to care for. probably i'll just take whatever they throw at me. perhaps i never really did find a permanent job before, that's why i couldn't really grasp what's the scenario was like for her. i've only worked for short periods of time. for her, it might be a few years. and for that, the benefits entitlement would actually make a difference.
she mentioned her previous job kinda cheated her of 5 days of pay. that's why she was scared of getting cheated by other companies. to me, a case of cheating would be them not paying me when i went to work, on a working day. for her, it's a case of the company having holidays off and causing her 5 days of no paid leave. seriously, i would be more than happy to take the days off without pay during the probation period and relax. perhaps, that's where the difference btw me and my sis lies.
or is it that she felt cheated that the company didn't tell her beforehand that they were having thsoe 5 days of no paid leave for her, and that's why she became this defensive against trusting corporate organizations? or am i too heck-cared to even be bothered about this kind of stuffs and worry more on either the work, or my personal life?
in life, it's not always possible to remain happy all the time. things may fall on you, you get bruised, cut, crushed. sometimes, you don't even have the strength or power to fight back what you think is right. however, it's always possible to be optimistic about everything. it could be stupid and foolish, but the result is that you're moving yourself forward, keeping yourself on the move. i'm kinda like this, except i'm more of i-don't-really-care. haha..
吃一点亏，无所谓
it's a bit off the tracks, but...
my sis's attitude towards this matter, kinda remind me of my ex.
i could imagine her worrying and talking about the same thing if it happened to her. haha..
seriously, i hate having one ex. it's like everything that has gotta do with love, i relate it to her, or any memories of her. but it's not like i want another ex. that could go either way.
today's happy news of stats deadline delayed really throw my attention off. my whole self became relaxed. not a good thing when my procrastination sets in and here i am, and watched a few scenes from random movies that i downloaded. oh, i watched "just go with it." adam sandler, one of my favourite comedic actor, and jennifer aniston, one of my favourite comedic actress. normally i wouldn't bother to find out the names of the celebrities, but them... the names just stuck. especially when you watched the whole series of friends more than twice. it's like watching wong fei hong and you'll know lee lian jie.
found a nice friend today online. still don't know much about this person, but i'll soon find out after i'm done with my finals.
bonus? MC? insurance? medical claims? over-time? etc etc etc... things i won't be too lazy to care for. probably i'll just take whatever they throw at me. perhaps i never really did find a permanent job before, that's why i couldn't really grasp what's the scenario was like for her. i've only worked for short periods of time. for her, it might be a few years. and for that, the benefits entitlement would actually make a difference.
she mentioned her previous job kinda cheated her of 5 days of pay. that's why she was scared of getting cheated by other companies. to me, a case of cheating would be them not paying me when i went to work, on a working day. for her, it's a case of the company having holidays off and causing her 5 days of no paid leave. seriously, i would be more than happy to take the days off without pay during the probation period and relax. perhaps, that's where the difference btw me and my sis lies.
or is it that she felt cheated that the company didn't tell her beforehand that they were having thsoe 5 days of no paid leave for her, and that's why she became this defensive against trusting corporate organizations? or am i too heck-cared to even be bothered about this kind of stuffs and worry more on either the work, or my personal life?
in life, it's not always possible to remain happy all the time. things may fall on you, you get bruised, cut, crushed. sometimes, you don't even have the strength or power to fight back what you think is right. however, it's always possible to be optimistic about everything. it could be stupid and foolish, but the result is that you're moving yourself forward, keeping yourself on the move. i'm kinda like this, except i'm more of i-don't-really-care. haha..
吃一点亏，无所谓
it's a bit off the tracks, but...
my sis's attitude towards this matter, kinda remind me of my ex.
i could imagine her worrying and talking about the same thing if it happened to her. haha..
seriously, i hate having one ex. it's like everything that has gotta do with love, i relate it to her, or any memories of her. but it's not like i want another ex. that could go either way.
today's happy news of stats deadline delayed really throw my attention off. my whole self became relaxed. not a good thing when my procrastination sets in and here i am, and watched a few scenes from random movies that i downloaded. oh, i watched "just go with it." adam sandler, one of my favourite comedic actor, and jennifer aniston, one of my favourite comedic actress. normally i wouldn't bother to find out the names of the celebrities, but them... the names just stuck. especially when you watched the whole series of friends more than twice. it's like watching wong fei hong and you'll know lee lian jie.
found a nice friend today online. still don't know much about this person, but i'll soon find out after i'm done with my finals.
something a friend reminded me
a friend who just got into a relationship told me they just kissed.
it came as quite a shock, not to me, but to the person, that things are already moving so fast.
is 4 days a right time to kiss?
probably the same answer as is daytime or nighttime a better time to kiss?
it seemed to me in relationship, there isn't a proper timeline to follow.
when you're willing to put yourself out there, suffer any thorns that may come your way, but at the same time, bathe yourself in the happiness of it all if the other party is doing the same.
should you hold hands before you kiss? should you kiss first before you have sex? but of cuz, sometimes it's a given since having sex mostly requires kissing as foreplay, or maybe midplay? haha..
no rules to follow in love, for the only rules are set up by yourself, and your self-perceived rules of the other party.
who to pay for the meal? can i hold her hands? can i hug her? can i kiss her?
if there's anyone to decide that, it's the person themselves. or at least, they gotta initiate the actions before the other party could take the hint and grant him the permission or kick him away when guy touch her breasts.
in the passion that you drown in during the honeymoon period, or perhaps the occasionally in the heat of the passion as you gaze into each other eyes, the desire and urge to be with that someone just throws you off the moral issues, or whatever things you have in mind, and just let you put all your attention on this pair of eyes that you're so in love with... basically you just don't think rationally anymore.
love is blind.
for those in love, they are fools to the outsiders.
yet for those outsides, they are fools to the lovers.
it is a fool to see your loved as the perfect person, overlooking any flaws, even major, just becuz loving her, is all that matters.
yet, it is also a fool, to think that love is rational, analyzing and calculating the benefits and costs, goods and the bads.
for love is when you throw yourself into the sea, and then float with that special someone by your side.
okay, enough of talking about stuffs.
stat's project has been pushed back. HURRAY! can do the paper after all my finals are done.
internship is in process. HURRAY! although doing heavy research-based work isn't on my initial list. still, I GOT A JOB~ and i just realized i have no holidays to begin with. 12th end, do project till 16th (deadline), and 16th the starting date of my intern.
at least i have 1 month free in july.
finally, I CAN STUDY.
it came as quite a shock, not to me, but to the person, that things are already moving so fast.
is 4 days a right time to kiss?
probably the same answer as is daytime or nighttime a better time to kiss?
it seemed to me in relationship, there isn't a proper timeline to follow.
when you're willing to put yourself out there, suffer any thorns that may come your way, but at the same time, bathe yourself in the happiness of it all if the other party is doing the same.
should you hold hands before you kiss? should you kiss first before you have sex? but of cuz, sometimes it's a given since having sex mostly requires kissing as foreplay, or maybe midplay? haha..
no rules to follow in love, for the only rules are set up by yourself, and your self-perceived rules of the other party.
who to pay for the meal? can i hold her hands? can i hug her? can i kiss her?
if there's anyone to decide that, it's the person themselves. or at least, they gotta initiate the actions before the other party could take the hint and grant him the permission or kick him away when guy touch her breasts.
in the passion that you drown in during the honeymoon period, or perhaps the occasionally in the heat of the passion as you gaze into each other eyes, the desire and urge to be with that someone just throws you off the moral issues, or whatever things you have in mind, and just let you put all your attention on this pair of eyes that you're so in love with... basically you just don't think rationally anymore.
love is blind.
for those in love, they are fools to the outsiders.
yet for those outsides, they are fools to the lovers.
it is a fool to see your loved as the perfect person, overlooking any flaws, even major, just becuz loving her, is all that matters.
yet, it is also a fool, to think that love is rational, analyzing and calculating the benefits and costs, goods and the bads.
for love is when you throw yourself into the sea, and then float with that special someone by your side.
okay, enough of talking about stuffs.
stat's project has been pushed back. HURRAY! can do the paper after all my finals are done.
internship is in process. HURRAY! although doing heavy research-based work isn't on my initial list. still, I GOT A JOB~ and i just realized i have no holidays to begin with. 12th end, do project till 16th (deadline), and 16th the starting date of my intern.
at least i have 1 month free in july.
finally, I CAN STUDY.
Monday, May 2, 2011
feeling tensed gradually
as the exam period draws nearer, i get more and more tensed up because i know that i don't have much time to prepare for my papers.
still doing my stupid stats project, and the quiz assignment. damn it.
still doing my stupid stats project, and the quiz assignment. damn it.
Sunday, May 1, 2011
things happening soon
in 2 weeks time, i'll be done with exams.
in 2 weeks time, i'll be going for my internship.
in 2 weeks time, i'll be attending my cousin's wedding.
in 2 weeks time, i hope i will get some idea about my fyp.
had a family bbq over at my aunt's place in sengkang.
it was rather plain, but was still great to have everyone gathered.
mothers' day.
and even though our dear ah ma has been gone for over a year now, we still like to keep the tradition of coming together, as a family.
i think i overheard that my small aunt dreamt about ah ma.
perhaps it could be hypothesized that paranormal activities are actually in existence. the spirits mainly just hang around the house. but then, it's a biased inference given that the residents of the house probably have more contacts than anyone else with the deceased.
sometimes i hope i would dream about my ah ma.
but then i thought, what do i say when i saw her?
we usually converse in such a way that i could hardly comprehend what she was saying due to my handicap in dialect.
i would probably just go straight up and hug her.
there's nobody else in my dream.
only me, and her, will know.
happy mothers' day, mami.
happy mothers' day, ahma.
in 2 weeks time, i'll be going for my internship.
in 2 weeks time, i'll be attending my cousin's wedding.
in 2 weeks time, i hope i will get some idea about my fyp.
had a family bbq over at my aunt's place in sengkang.
it was rather plain, but was still great to have everyone gathered.
mothers' day.
and even though our dear ah ma has been gone for over a year now, we still like to keep the tradition of coming together, as a family.
i think i overheard that my small aunt dreamt about ah ma.
perhaps it could be hypothesized that paranormal activities are actually in existence. the spirits mainly just hang around the house. but then, it's a biased inference given that the residents of the house probably have more contacts than anyone else with the deceased.
sometimes i hope i would dream about my ah ma.
but then i thought, what do i say when i saw her?
we usually converse in such a way that i could hardly comprehend what she was saying due to my handicap in dialect.
i would probably just go straight up and hug her.
there's nobody else in my dream.
only me, and her, will know.
happy mothers' day, mami.
happy mothers' day, ahma.
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