what do you do...?

what do you do when you know you're hungry, but you just don't have the feeling to eat?
because that's what i'm feeling now.
tonight's turn of event got me to the point that maslow's hierarchy of needs theory is rendered completely useless.
i find it hard to think.
i find it hard to breathe.

i can't shed a tear.
i just can't.
as i entered my room, my eyes suddenly teared up in an instance.
it was as if my defense went vulnerable as i stepped into my personal space.
it was as though i subconsiously felt it was safe to indulge myself in the sadness.
but i stopped it.
i let the shower substitute the tears.

for tonight, let me drown in my own emotions.
becuz if i don't, i don't know what else to do.