your aspiration

from young we have our own aspiration.
i believed mine still stand.
i aspire to retire.

some friends mentioned their future paths.
working at this company, moving up the ladder, then perhaps move on to another company, rising up to the management level at other fields which are promised high salary, high prospects.
others mentioned about maybe finding someone with fame, status, and well, loaded with money. talking about migrating to other countries, relax and live life.

ambitious? i am perhaps not in this field of view. i always favour interest, not how big is the paycheck. i do want to do something big, but not in the line of that. earning big bucks, living in condo, driving a million-dollar car... it's fine to have, but not a must, nor an aim.

i've always wonder how humans evolve to live the life we live now. widening the gap btw what's poor and what's rich; driving in things that kill people; inventing stuffs that are capable of destroying sg in split second.. so much things we have came up with that became double-edged.

and what's living life?
what is it to self-actualize? although maslow and roger believed self-actualizers have a number of attributes, i believed we can cut down that number to just a few. subjective perhaps.
to live life, is it to just live a laid-back lifestyle, doing what you like everyday?
something seemed to be amiss there.