what is it like to love and be loved by the same person?

hmm.. i think i only felt this once before.
it was sweet, happy.
just thinking abt it makes me giggle and smile.

well, now it's gone. nvm then.

at least i felt it before.
used to envy couples in real life and also in comics or animations.
now... still feeling green abt it. becuz at the moment don't have what. haha..
but don't really care much now. many things i wanna accomplish other than relationships at the moment.

i just passed the uni scholarship application. hmm.. just too lazy to start writing the essay, getting it vetted by teachers... referrals... etc etc. heck, let's just start school now!

as a guy, it feels super gu niang to feel.. hmm.. so much abt love.
despair, happiness, jealously, sorrows, sweetness, and many different variations of emotions.
i don't know why, it's just too... gu niang. i have no better word to replace this.

I'M PROCRASTINATING MY PROJECTS!!! AND IT'S APRIL ALREADY. oh, HAPPY APRIL FOOL DAY!
may i clear my table, do up the latest project, and quickly continue to my next one. i don't want to reach the deadline and then i say to myself, "aiya.. nvm.."
7 more months to deadline. hurry dumbass.