just some quotes

Even the fear of death is nothing compared to the fear of not having lived authentically and fully.
- Frances Moore Lappe, O Magazine, May 2004

"Isn't it ironic? We ignore those who adore us, Adore those who ignore us, hurt those who love us and love those who hurt us."

The only thing that lasts longer than a friend's love is the stupidity that keeps us from knowing any better.
- Randy K. Milholland, Something Positive Comic, 09-07-06

All animals are equal but some animals are more equal than others.
- George Orwell (1903 - 1950), "Animal Farm"

Stress is an ignorant state. It believes that everything is an emergency. Nothing is that important.
- Natalie Goldberg

You may delay, but time will not.
- Benjamin Franklin (1706 - 1790)

Me, I'm dishonest. And a dishonest man you can always trust to be dishonest. Honestly. It's the honest ones you want to watch out for. Because you can never predict when they're going to do something incredibly…stupid."
- Jack Sparrow

In a nation run by swine, all pigs are upward-mobile and the rest of us are fucked until we can put our acts together: Not necessarily to Win, but mainly to keep from Losing Completely.
- Dr Gonzo

"Artificial Intelligence can never beat Natural Stupidity"

“Just because she comes off strong doesn’t mean she didn’t fall asleep crying and even though she acts like nothing is wrong, maybe, just maybe…. she’s really good at lying.”
-> this was what i was afraid of when i was deserted. apparently my worries were redundant.

“Don’t make me wait for you, because you know I will.”
-> i'm so used to sitting around and wait.

something sparks me during lunch.
normally ppl will put this case to you.
if your lover, and your mother dropped into the lake and both of them are drowning, who will you save first?
for me, definitely my mum. of cuz i will afterwards go on a superhumane swim and save my love.

on another case...
let's say in this scenario, it's either you die, or your love die.
now, of cuz any hard lovers will stand true to the "i will die for her!".
i'm not much of a hard lover. never been one, maybe in future when i met another one.
but if you consider the sadness that brings along each death...
maybe you have a lot of closed friends, and a family full of warmth and they will shed countless tears upon your departure to the top or bottom floor..
and your love, is just someone solo, alone in life. no family, no friends.
putting it to the extreme, when she die, nobody will care but you.
when you die, everyone cares.
can you still stand true to your oath of love?

i'm not sure if this is a similar dilemma to the lover and mother case.
but for me in this case, i will be a bit selfish.
save my love, make my family cries.
hopefully my love will live happy though and not get hatred from my family. haha..

now... i'm wondering if i can do well at my night job tonight. then i'm wondering if i can do work tml morn with only 2 hours of sleep...

recently been craving letters on my hands whenever the itch comes.
it works a bit to keep me from scratching.
and revived a little bit of memories.
and then the itch intensifies. -_- and i scratch it altogether.