break up

i have seen them break up several times.
but everytime i still go "no..."

i still find this reply heartbreaking no matter how many times i've seen it.

"this can't be it..."
"then how come it is..."

i'm watching too much friends.
nearly 4 weeks have passed and i would say 95% of it is wasted away.
i've got a 20 page science paper to read and i chose to watch friends season 3 after tv. i'm going to so quiet during tutorial discussion tml. although i'm usually quiet already, but it's normally just that i was too lazy to give my thoughts away. now, i have no thoughts at all.

this week's pondering thought...

can we get a little more realistic but not turn pessimistic?
is optimistism always diverging from reality?
is it possible to hold on to that slight ray of hope while being defensively pessimistic?

something i got out of positive psychology.
sometimes i just think psychology is just a bunch of crap.
i really wonder how valid are the results of experiments, research...

we are borned with a brain that is so complex, that it can't comprehend itelf.