empty

it's been like this for quite a while.
the hollowness i feel within.
nothing seems to fill the gap.
adrenaline is only a temporary substitute,
i need something more.
something created this void,
or was it someone.
it exists before she came.,
it was bigger when she left.
i doubt it was her that fills that hole,
her job was to make it wider.
now that i'm stuck with this black hole,
i let everything get suck inside.
my thoughts, feelings, emotions and truth.
even my lies, secrets, fantasies and lust.
in the face of nothing,
what is this thing that i can make it into something.

i want a life.