...

fcuk the recess.
i rather i'm feeling fine.

not in the mood

cancelled the steamboat.
the pain lingers.

pain away~

after 2-3 days of agony, it's not that serious now.
if it goes on, i might have cancel the steamboat.

some joke that came by my mail today... cracked me up.

The SAS, the Army and the Police decide to g on a survival weekend together, to see who comes out on top. After some basic exercises, the trainer tells them their next objective is to go down to the woods and come back with rabbit for tea..

First up are the SAS. They don their infra-red goggles, drop to the groud, and crawl into the woods in formation. Absolute silence for five minutes, followed by a single muffled shot. They emerge with a rabbit, shot cleanly through the forehead.

"Excellent" says the trainer.

Next, the army. They finish their cans of lager and cover themselves with camouflage cream, fix bayonets and charge down to the woods, screaming at the top of their voices. For the next half hour the woods ring with sound of machine guns, mortar bombs, hand grenades and blood- curdling war cries. They emerge with the charred remains of a rabbit.

"A bit messy, but you got a result. Well done!" said the trainer.

Lastly, in go the Police. Walking slowly, hands behind their backs, whistling Dixon of Dock Green. For the next few hours, the silence is only broken by the crackle of walkie talkies. "Sierra oscar lima, suspect heading straight for you," etc. After what seems like an eternity, they emerge with a squirrel in handcuffs.

"What the hell do you think you are doing?" asks the trainer.

"Take this squirrel back and get me a rabbit, like I asked you to five hours ago".

So back they went.

Minutes pass.

Minutes turn to hours.

Day turns to night.

The next morning the trainer and the rest of the crew are awakened by the Police holding the squirrel, now covered in bruises.

"Are you taking the piss?" asked the seriously irate trainer.

The Police team leader shoots a glance at the squirrel who speaks,

"Alright, alright I'm a fucking rabbit!"


i feel like playing mahjong. meow~

this pain...

this pain is not going away.
the same but slightly less severe pain than few nights before...
what the hell is wrong?
i can't have this abdomen pain all day.
it's irritating, and the pain is enduring.
i don't wanna see doc.

who to call?

decided on a sat steamboat.
then i wondered abt who to call on.
too big a group, hard to manage.
the table is only that big.

freaking headache from soccer.
we should play in the evening.
sunblock lotion seemed to be too white.
and the headache doesn't go away for the whole day.

山鸡的故事

just watched finished this movie.
hmm.. sad story.

the background of one of the 古惑仔。
my favourite is actually not the leader, but 山鸡.

movie?

was thinking of watching the proposal and the ugly truth yesterday.
someone popped by in the morn and asked if i'm to free to catch a movie.
nice coincidence.

can't help it.
i clicked on 'a walk to rmb' on youtube, and ended watching the later half of the movie. and damn it, why that scene always make me tear up.
got a 20% weightage assignment due tml. done 0% of it. HAHAHA.
so dead.

something calms me down when i stand before my grandpa, my ancestors.

today's quote

If you love something, set it free.
If it comes back, it will always be yours.
If it doesn't come back, it was never yours to begin with.

But, if it just sits in your living room, messes up your stuff, eats your food, uses your telephone, takes your money, and doesn't appear to realize that you had set it free....... You either married it or gave birth to it

not concentrated

i'm still not totally in the mood of studying.
everytime this comes around, i wonder where all my acquired self-discipline disappear to.

face my fears.

recognising faces

in cognition, it's said that people will usually find it hard to recognise faces which are not in the upright orientation, even if they are familiar ones. it's like looking at a photo which is upside down, you will find it pretty hard to identify people faces (disregard hairstyles and clothes)

today, by chance i tested this out with a familiar face which is oriented 90degree anti-clockwise, appearing for perhaps 1-2 secs. just the face only, and i thought it was some boliao little girl. it's true.

familiar

some scenes from the drama strikes my mind, activitating those memory scenes to resurface. haha.. is it my imagination, or it's just kinda similar. 好久以前的感觉啊。。我都忘了什么味道。哈哈。。

有些事情如果不能忘记，那就不要忘。
把它变成你人生的一部分。

i kinda hyped up now.
perhaps due to having finished the 24 episodes of drama.
or becuz i'm listening some really upbeat songs.

recently, my laptop is acting as my ipod. and i don't even have an ipod.
i carried my laptop and travelled to sch, and back.

命中注定我爱你

i just finished this drama series on youtube.
think i started just last week.
haha... of all episodes, i have to watch the abortion part in sch library.
made me tear up.

used the whole day to finish it, nice drama.
today no sch~
presentation finished yesterday~
time to do other things~

someone's

sad
depressed.
depressed.sadden.
i shldnt be so depress
purple-brown
i shldnt be so depress.
i shldnt be so depress. tired of all.
i shldnt be so depress
cant focus
too brought down
ineedstrength
shattered
what shld i do?
i need food. hungry.

what best note i think this person posted?
the last one.

it dawns on me sadness lingers, but diminish at the same time.
so just accept the sadness, and embrace the disappearing of it too.
in the cycle of sadness, there comes a time when you reach terminal velocity and decide to break free of this stupid cycle and fly off somewhere where you're more carefree.
you might envy the gravitational force btw other pairs of matter, but perhaps one day you might hit another matter along your way and gravitate towards each other.

just like the other time. just like the last time. just like everytime.

if you believe in destiny, you don't just wait around for some miracle to happen.
even people who believe in god do something like praying. me, i burn joss sticks. so, do something. it's not like the miracle will happen by itself.

i'm getting too involved in doing nothing.
i can't do everything that interests me. face it, i'm not so free to do everthing.

i can't forget everything that's in the past. can't rmb either. haha..

どちらが かなしい。

have you ever wonder, which is more sad?

a guy who gave away his love to another person, becuz he knows she needs someone by her side and he can't be him...

or

a girl who married a man she doesn't love, just becuz the love of her life told her his wish is for her to marry a good man, and suffering in silence for the unavoidable death of him...

what a sad love story.

more than blue.

more than blue

i just cried.

that's it.

someone kill me!

shouldn't look back

it's not really healthy to look back at my blog posts.
i get all shook up when i saw those emotions i have back then.

i can really see a childish self. haha..

friday night

i like lying on bed with 2 pillows cushioning my back, while i watched movies on my laptop past midnight.

movies that have happy endings, especially those relating to love relationships, usually leaves me satisfied, but yet wanting for more.

life's not perfect. i understand this. but amidst those lingering displeasantness, i still strive to get more out of it.

i know i'm not doing it now, but the desire of this wish is building up so strong. at the end of the day, the excuses can only boil down to just me.

i want to do something big, something exciting, something interesting. i wished to accomplish.

my dream, my desire, my destiny, if i believe it.

i no longer wants a solo night.

thursday

hotmail should put a limit to the number of unread mails in your inbox.
that will certainly motivate me to clear up mine.
reaching 3k unread mails.

i hate flu. go die ba.

can't fall asleep

a little insomnia.
a little frustrated.
a little tired.
a little blank.
a little afraid.
a little sick.
a little frown.

i missed talking.
i missed talking to you.
i missed talking to you on my daily happenings.
i missed talking to you on my past.
i missed talking to you about my future.
i missed talking to you about my worries.
i missed talking, to you.

but i haven't found you.
i haven't found such a you.
i haven't found a you to listen to.
i haven't found a you to talk to.
i haven't found a you to be with.
i haven't found a you to share.
i haven't found a you to be you.

sometimes i tend to forget what i want to forget.
which by the time i realised, i have remembered what i wanted to forget.

inside terrible feeling

it's the throat again. wonder if it's the rain.
went to see doc this morn, the medicine is the same as before.
but i don't rmb feeling so terrible after consuming the medicine.
i felt like it's killing me inside.
as if my feelings were in a turmoil, but in this case it's my body.

i don't like to feel weak.