a rare occurence

usually i don't remember my dreams.
but yet the previous night, i can still remember some of the images.

i dreamt of her.
maybe becuz i thought i saw her in sch.
she didn't notice me, i noticed her.
close and far.

i knew i was dreaming when the dream occured.
somehow it came naturally to me, "it's not gonna happen dumbass"
but still i found comfort and sweetness in them.

sometimes, i thought to myself.
i lead a rather sad life.
hahaha...
that's so true when it comes to this.

some ppl prefers to love once than never love before.
i'm not those ppl.
if each heart breaks give so much misery,
why is ppl searching for them?

taking the risk for what it's worth.
but is it worth that much to risk for?
just read an article on something to do with metacognitive abilities.
ppl favours difficult things in attaining certain goals under some conditions.
applies to relationship?
heart breaks after another, to get what you finally deemed the life partner?

if so, why is the divorce rate so high?
have human tolerance thinned along with revolution? evolution? technological advances?
or, our abilities to identify a suitable partner has somehow decreased from our ancestors?
perhaps in the fast-paced society today, we just let ourselves get much blinded in love when searching for the special one.

individuals are hard to study.
same goes for interactions between us all.
me for example, behaved differently with current moods, recent happenings, and more imptly, group of friends.
especially, in front of that her.
identity identifying, i'm still on that stage.

maybe i yearn too much to belong to someone, and vice versa.
this blog has too much of too many.