belong

talking abt belonging...

during the starting of army life, i was practically alone. wandered away from the guys somehow becuz of stupid dispute.

i didn't have much other than my army buddies. when i'm out of camp, i'm just one person. the guys played soccer, i didn't. the cadet's training just gave me sufficient excuse to sleep a little longer and rest a little more over the weekends.

i stayed at home. i played stupid games. i went out alone.
not many to talk to, not many to confide.

soon, i was feeling out of the group totally. just on my own.
there wasn't a her in sight either.

but somehow i got back. i forgot how, maybe naturally we're still as before.
i got closer. suddenly, i belonged. perhaps becuz i have more free time after commission.

there are social groups which i don't feel belonged to. especially in hall. sometimes it's hard to change an image after the first.

but whatever the case, this group has been built upon years of soccer and idiotic acts. coupled with the recent emoness. somehow, it felt safe, like a homebase to return to.