made me cry

deep inside, it still hurt that she's not around anymore.
and i realised, it's not that i can't stop my tears.
it's becuz, i want to cry for her.

so i let this sadness overwhelm me for tonight
more than regrets, more than memories
for my future, no longer holds true with her.

sometimes i really wish there's someone close to me,
close enough for me to hold
to let out, or to relieve, even a bit of the sadness that i repressed within

i still can't forget the shock of that night.
i still can't believe she's gone just like that.
i still can't forgive myself, becuz i have no reason to.

becuz of you, i realised one of the hardest thing in life, is not to cry.