when everything just doesn't flow

there are days when you just feel that every thing that you do, is not going well.
i remember there was once during bmt, when the plt sgt took away my bayonet becuz it wasn't secured properly. hours later, my finger got stung by an unknown flying insect which i tried to swept away when it landed on the back of my neck. it was so pain, i couldn't call for help for a few secs while i was kneeling there, squeezing my finger as tightly as i could to numb the pain of the sting. hurts for hours without medical application before it finally subsided.

a few other similar days in army, and perhaps every parts of life that we experienced.
things just keep rolling and rolling.
the chinese saying of, 福无双至 祸不单行。
happiness doesn't come in pairs, and trouble doesn't come alone.
sometimes, it might just be that one turning incident and you suddenly turns into this 'haiz..' mood.
which implicates further events, or influence the outcome of events.
but even knowing that, it's hard to turn the table over.
you're trapped within this deep spiral, or a better analogy may be the spiral dive of the plane. up till a certain point of time, the plane will not be able to get out of this descending spiral. as in us, it's not within our full control to switch our emotions, attitudes and feelings in a way. instinct and reflex kicks in.

i'm finding less and less meaning in living the holidays without any significant events.
mj has been like a game to lose money instead of gambling.