i thought of this in the shower

他们说爱情不能强求，但感情更不能自由

it becomes a habit to think of lyrics while singing with some random melody, in the shower.

i can't help it if i thought of her while generating these words. it helps. haha.

the real challenge of the weekend is to complete the 8 reports for accop, and have spare time to play BoI.

anyway, i asked for comments from a friend. she said she was fine with the first part, but was rather skeptical about the second. feelings can be controlled. i don't really know about that. i always get this funny feeling when someone i fancy comes along. it's the 'wantingness' to get closer, to know more, to explore the uncharted. i refuse to use 'desire', it seemed too strong a word. or maybe it is, i just refused to admit it. it's instinct, it's adaptation, or is it just me who seemed to fancy any pleasant-looking girl the comes along my way? haha..

情歌
可以让一个人感觉到以往的甜蜜
也能让他内心遭到已忘记的苦涩
他的悲伤
她的苦衷
我习惯让自己融入在他和她的故事里
不管是好的结局
还是悲剧收场
或是永远得延续
总好过活在自己一定的过去

how i hope what i have just written is even a bit relevant to what i'm gonna rush for the next 24 hours. still i asked myself, 'why me? why? i don't want to write for exams and now i'm writing from being a volunteer. why?'

sometimes the challenges are not hard, but they are challenges becuz i procrastinate so much. then again, some of my greatest achievements are done thru a rush.