feel like...

felt like emoing tonight.
but my maturity doesn't allow.
it's always something that brings her into the present when i thought abt the past.
can't be helped.
this association is deeply conditioned.
classically, instrumentally.
i ever hope time can help to extinct this aversive feeling.
it did not.
still, i have taken whatever's left of us into the goodwill of reminiscence.

isn't all that bad when old memories revive themselves without permissive authorization.
it's like something inside you has decided it would be good for you to remember these things and forget the others.

well, it's gonna be a long night with biopsych.
don't really have much time to complete all my readings as seen from my current schedule.
heck, just read.