yesterday was the last day of the 3 months contract employment.
it was a tiring day with the rushing of the presentation and getting my staff clearance form signed before going off.
i admit, i was half-hearted in doing the technical analysis plan for them because i didn't feel like i belong there and don't really like the work involved.
can't really imagine myself continuing the work over there.
it would be like slaving my life away.
for now, i have two agencies that have the second interview scheduled; MCYS and DSO.
MCYS is this friday, which is also my bday.
DSO next wed.
I was wondering if MCYS was to offer me before DSO, should I just accept the offer, or wait it out for DSO?
I could probably stall them for a while till DSO gives me an answer after the 2nd interview.
today is the first day of rest after working for 3 months of working.
felt nua because i haven't rested much the past few days.
and also because i stayed up quite late last night
suddenly, i'm free to do things i feel like doing when i have the time.
like wiping my closet because i can literally see dust clouds forming.
organizing my table which gets messy whenever i do work.
i'm not sure what i want to do first, i guess i just decide whichever when i get up in the morn tml.
this period of time, after graduation, felt rather surreal to me.
for such a long time, life has been rather fixed until i hit graduation.
suddenly, i see lots of possibilities, along with a huge stack of obstacles to overcome
perhaps i'm the stable and secure type who doesn't like to take the risk
as much as i prefer the image of a risk-taker, i have to regrettably admit that i'm not.
when things get a bit uncertain and shaky like the situation i'm in now, i feel largely uncomfortable.
fortunately, i have honed the skills of just taking it in and then letting it all out again.
basically, sitting back and just watch things come at me.
if they're meant to be, they will be.
if they're not, i'm glad they didn't.
bday coming in another 3 days.
is it a natural thing to feel less and less anticipation for one's birthday each year?
i'm only looking forward to it, because my dear gf is planning some surprises for me.
other than that, maybe a good meal with my family, and a nice delicious cake. haha.. chocolate preferred.
shall just relax and do nothing for today.
Tuesday, October 30, 2012
Saturday, October 27, 2012
a famous comedian
I first heard this in a live setting with yn during one of the comedy nights.
It was a very fun night indeed.
For You
For the one I called, The Last.
Who, What, When, Where, Why
I do not have enough to conclusively say that I have been fully shaped by my past to become what I have become.
Because I feel that along the way of being together, I have been shaped more by you than anyone else.
My past is a story, so is yours.
And these stories remain as memories to be told.
Not that we should be ever nostalgic on the feelings we have before.
But to see them as a build-up to what we have in the present.
You're the one now, beside me, because you gave my life, a meaning.
For YN.
Sunday, October 21, 2012
Job Searching so far
The previous post i wanted to talk about my job searching spree so far since i graduated. but after typing most of what i wanted to say, the post was somehow lost due to the iphone app. now that i have some time on my hand, i shall perhaps type it out again, 1 by 1, chronologically, as accurate as i can recall.
the learning lab - had the interview in school for the teaching position. didn't go through. pay is good, at 3.7 and then 4k after probation period of 3 months (i think). career progression might not be that good since experience is in the centre itself. oh well~
forbes research - the interview was done in the same day as the learning lab in school. the second interview followed soon after at the forbes research itself. the director sort of offered, the pay wasn't high, maybe 3k or less. but i rejected because i was waiting for....
senior police officer - yup, i was waiting for this. didnt get through the manpower interview. thought i would have gotten this position without much difficulties. too bad, i'm meant for something else i suppose.
PSD - they want to recruit people in mid careers, not fresh grads. -_- but now they're giving me another chance to prove i'm justified in staying as perm instead of temp.
SPS - what shocked me most is the venue, it's just beside the airport. i can see planes on the ground from beyond the fence of the HQ. interview and written test done. but i think the written test wasnt done very well. interview was okok only.
some market research company - went to do some tests and interview and not shortlisted for second round. sighz, but not that interested also lah.
brain development centre - offered me 2k, too low. but the interview consisted of cognitive skills test which i found it quite interesting and fun to do.
HTBSC - it's was a lucky opportunity for me. interview has passed last week, hoping for results soon!
MND - interview was shit. hahaha...
MCYS - first round of interview was okay. group setting. pretty fun to discuss about the questions raised. waiting to be shortlisted for second round.
DOS - interview this coming tues. got referred in by a friend known in ACCOP 2010
there're other positions that i applied that didnt give me any replies or have rejected me. like CPIB, other MCYS positions, etc.
it's been a rather long journey for me in the road of finding jobs. and like the enlightenment my god-ma has shown me, the job offer will come when it comes, naturally, and surely. i will just have to wait.
these interviews have taught me a lot. to promote or sell yourself to others, to show others that you're worthy of the position, is something that doesnt come naturally sometimes. and sometimes, your true feelings cannot be expressed, nor your true intentions. you should only uphold the honesty in interviews on a legal and moral basis. but moral is a bit subjective, but i guess anything that doesnt harm anyone, it's kinda moral lah. haha.. it's hard to explain why you apply for this company instead of that company first. are you more interested in the previous position? and when you fail then you go look for this less favoured company? naturally so. but nobody is going to answer it that way. but it's the way things are. recruitment is based on impression; good impression, good chance. bad impression, no chance.
i'm getting to the end of my causal employment period of my current job in psd. at the same time, there're quite a few of results to be waited on. my RT IPPT is coming. my birthday is also coming. and i seriously can't feel excitement for my bday with all the other things going on in my life. then again, i dont feel very excited about my bday for quite a few years. last year was different. because yn was with me =) this year, the thought about her celebrating bday with me is something to look forward to. not because it's my bday in particular. but because it's her.
this bday, my wish is to get a good job.
that's it.
the learning lab - had the interview in school for the teaching position. didn't go through. pay is good, at 3.7 and then 4k after probation period of 3 months (i think). career progression might not be that good since experience is in the centre itself. oh well~
forbes research - the interview was done in the same day as the learning lab in school. the second interview followed soon after at the forbes research itself. the director sort of offered, the pay wasn't high, maybe 3k or less. but i rejected because i was waiting for....
senior police officer - yup, i was waiting for this. didnt get through the manpower interview. thought i would have gotten this position without much difficulties. too bad, i'm meant for something else i suppose.
PSD - they want to recruit people in mid careers, not fresh grads. -_- but now they're giving me another chance to prove i'm justified in staying as perm instead of temp.
SPS - what shocked me most is the venue, it's just beside the airport. i can see planes on the ground from beyond the fence of the HQ. interview and written test done. but i think the written test wasnt done very well. interview was okok only.
some market research company - went to do some tests and interview and not shortlisted for second round. sighz, but not that interested also lah.
brain development centre - offered me 2k, too low. but the interview consisted of cognitive skills test which i found it quite interesting and fun to do.
HTBSC - it's was a lucky opportunity for me. interview has passed last week, hoping for results soon!
MND - interview was shit. hahaha...
MCYS - first round of interview was okay. group setting. pretty fun to discuss about the questions raised. waiting to be shortlisted for second round.
DOS - interview this coming tues. got referred in by a friend known in ACCOP 2010
there're other positions that i applied that didnt give me any replies or have rejected me. like CPIB, other MCYS positions, etc.
it's been a rather long journey for me in the road of finding jobs. and like the enlightenment my god-ma has shown me, the job offer will come when it comes, naturally, and surely. i will just have to wait.
these interviews have taught me a lot. to promote or sell yourself to others, to show others that you're worthy of the position, is something that doesnt come naturally sometimes. and sometimes, your true feelings cannot be expressed, nor your true intentions. you should only uphold the honesty in interviews on a legal and moral basis. but moral is a bit subjective, but i guess anything that doesnt harm anyone, it's kinda moral lah. haha.. it's hard to explain why you apply for this company instead of that company first. are you more interested in the previous position? and when you fail then you go look for this less favoured company? naturally so. but nobody is going to answer it that way. but it's the way things are. recruitment is based on impression; good impression, good chance. bad impression, no chance.
i'm getting to the end of my causal employment period of my current job in psd. at the same time, there're quite a few of results to be waited on. my RT IPPT is coming. my birthday is also coming. and i seriously can't feel excitement for my bday with all the other things going on in my life. then again, i dont feel very excited about my bday for quite a few years. last year was different. because yn was with me =) this year, the thought about her celebrating bday with me is something to look forward to. not because it's my bday in particular. but because it's her.
this bday, my wish is to get a good job.
that's it.
Tuesday, October 16, 2012
Pissed
I'm pissed because the contents I've been typing over the past maybe 20min was gone cause I exit the iPhone application for blogging -_-
Basically I was updated on my job applications from the start till now when it's kinda busy. Suddenly the agencies start seeing me as a suitable candidate! I'm lazy to type those again, so I'll leave it as that.
Just some interesting sightings that I saw on train recently about girls make up. The other day in the morn train, I saw a lady, possibly late 20s or early 30s, with make up. Nothing's wrong with that. But the problem is her eyeshadow. Or something that you write on top of the eyes. It's supposed to make your eyes look bigger right? the illusion that I saw was right there for me to compare. She missed out the eyeshadow on one of her eyes. It scared me a little when I first saw it. You know there's nothing physically wrong, but it still scare me a little. One big eye, and one small eye, for everyone on the train to see. The morn rush for ladies to put on makeup~
Basically I was updated on my job applications from the start till now when it's kinda busy. Suddenly the agencies start seeing me as a suitable candidate! I'm lazy to type those again, so I'll leave it as that.
Just some interesting sightings that I saw on train recently about girls make up. The other day in the morn train, I saw a lady, possibly late 20s or early 30s, with make up. Nothing's wrong with that. But the problem is her eyeshadow. Or something that you write on top of the eyes. It's supposed to make your eyes look bigger right? the illusion that I saw was right there for me to compare. She missed out the eyeshadow on one of her eyes. It scared me a little when I first saw it. You know there's nothing physically wrong, but it still scare me a little. One big eye, and one small eye, for everyone on the train to see. The morn rush for ladies to put on makeup~
Monday, July 30, 2012
A little lost
Today's the first day of my temp job as an assistant data analyst over at the public service division under pm's office. Waited around most of the time for the admin stuff, tried to understand the procedures of the ongoing project. At the moment, the things to settle are mostly administrative and logistics stuff pertaining to the collection of data, i.e. giving out surveys to be filled. So not really analysing work in that sense. Feel okay, saw 3 familiar faces, all 3 in the same cluster group as me working closely on the project.
The office has a special working environment. There are many clusters in the office, but there are no permanent seats for us except the room for directors or their pa. So basically, every morning we just go into office and sit whenever we want as long as it is unoccupied. Quite a pretty cool concept, but maybe I'll just stay in one place. Haha..
Felt a little lost in the morning. Not because of the new working environment, but because I received the rejection letter from spf. I was rejected to be a senior officer. The reason immediately went to the things I said during the manpower interview. Perhaps because I talked about the bond, perhaps it was my appendix surgery, perhaps they just don't like me. Tried to shake off these feelings with the feelings of novelty being in a whole new environment. Worked somehow, but still kinda down when I think about it. Well, at least now I don't have to worry about shift hours.
Yn was rather sad when she heard the news too. But she kept her tears till at night when we were talking over the phone. It felt better to have someone sharing the sadness. But we kinda have different views when her mum asked me to go visit a fortune teller . I was reluctant to because I don't really believe and even if it helps, I hope that I can do it on my own accord instead of borrowing help. Her mum was pretty insistent too, let's see how after the Beijing trip.
The office has a special working environment. There are many clusters in the office, but there are no permanent seats for us except the room for directors or their pa. So basically, every morning we just go into office and sit whenever we want as long as it is unoccupied. Quite a pretty cool concept, but maybe I'll just stay in one place. Haha..
Felt a little lost in the morning. Not because of the new working environment, but because I received the rejection letter from spf. I was rejected to be a senior officer. The reason immediately went to the things I said during the manpower interview. Perhaps because I talked about the bond, perhaps it was my appendix surgery, perhaps they just don't like me. Tried to shake off these feelings with the feelings of novelty being in a whole new environment. Worked somehow, but still kinda down when I think about it. Well, at least now I don't have to worry about shift hours.
Yn was rather sad when she heard the news too. But she kept her tears till at night when we were talking over the phone. It felt better to have someone sharing the sadness. But we kinda have different views when her mum asked me to go visit a fortune teller . I was reluctant to because I don't really believe and even if it helps, I hope that I can do it on my own accord instead of borrowing help. Her mum was pretty insistent too, let's see how after the Beijing trip.
Thursday, July 19, 2012
My recent happenings
Alright, i admit, I've been lazy in updating this blog and giving my life a review. But after filling up my g50 form for my police interview, I realized that a blog is a useful tool to keep track of my happenings, and when I need, I can go to the archive and refer. Haha..
So, as for the most exciting thing that happened recently..
Last week wed morn at around 3.30am, I woke up feeling pain in my stomach. It was to the extent of not being able to fall back asleep. I got up, drank some water, contemplated on taking some of my constipation medicine which I got on my last hospitalization, walked around with my arms around my stomach as I groaned in pain from time to time. I felt that the pain wasn't really like the last time, so most probably it wasnt constipation. Then what is it? I then have thoughts about going down to the nearest hospital to check it out. After one hour of awaken torment, I decided I couldn't tolerate any longer. Here's the part I made the biggest mistake in this incident. I wrote on the white board to tell my family I went to the hospital because my stomach hurts. I got all kinds of reprimand from my family and relatives, especially my parents, on going down to the hospital on my on and not telling them immediately. I have a funny way of asserting independence. Haha.. Msged yn on the cab there to tell her about it also. It was a short and long trip down to ktp hospital a&e. Short cause it's near, long because for every traffic light we stop at, im in pain. Acute pain. When I finally arrived, I was kinda glad the place was almost a ghost town. I thought I could see the doc almost immediately. Still, following the procedures and waiting, it took me maybe 30 minutes to receive two injections of what I think are pain killers to ease my pain. First diagnosis, abdominal cramps. First thought, I'm not a woman, is this possible? Well, I went back out to the waiting area to sit and groaned from time to time looking like I'm really in pain. Eventually the nurse came over and offered me to go to a temp ward to lie down. I agreed and then went into the single room and groaned further as the pain aggravated to a new level. Super pain. Thereafter, the doctor suspect it's probably something more serious. Oh, not to forget my mum called me immediately, shocked my dad about me in the hospital, brought my sis down too, my dear yn calling and msging frantically once she saw the MSG. Haha.. They came and scolded me not telling. Inlay there in pain, rolling from side to side as my family and yn watched. Haha.. Went for a ct scan, invasive procedure with the tracker running through me. Kinda weird feeling, sort of warm and fuzzy. They determined it was acute appendicitis, then told me I need a surgery which can only happen at 2pm. So yup, I hung in there till around that time. Surgery was around 3 hours, I rmbed breathing in the stupid gas mask again and feeling anxious lying there, almost naked, with a bunch of ppl going to open my stomach up. For a few good seconds, I thought, why the hell am I no sedated yet? Next moment, I'm bein wheeled into my ward and saw my family standing there. Woke up, and felt like shit. Stomach felt seriously weird and pain, no strength to sit up, just enough to keep myself awake as my relatives came one after another. At night i couldn't really sleep well. I need to pee but the general anesthesia kept my muscles from peeing smoothly. I couldn't pee at first lying down. Until the nurse told me to sit up by the bed and pee, other wise the doctor is gonna stick a tube up. That's a great motivation I thought. I sat there for as long as 30 minutes and was kinda proud to be able to pee out a substantial amount. Pretty relieved about not having a tube up, and found it easier to sleep. The following day got a visit from yn and we were quite worried about the Beijing trip we had planned the following Friday.
Well, as of now, we managed to shift the beijing trip to 4 aug, settled the accommodation too. Resting well at home, able to move around on the morning after my operation, but am more mobile now. Cuts seemed to heal pretty well. Glad that all these are over~
And here are some updates on my jobs seeking. Kinda gave up my chance at Forbes research. Went to police selection assessment 2 weeks before on the wed, finally got a email to say I'm selected for the interview with acting director of manpower just a few days back. The interview is tml. Applied for a temp job at the public service division under pm's office to keep me busy. Seemed like I might have a good chance because I realized a former senior colleague from
Mindef is working there now and I made known to him I applied. We talked a bit over Facebook and now settling on the hourly salary. Hope I can get it! And at a good rate! Police psych also made an offer and I applied again. I was thinking, if both police and police psych offer me, which one should I take? The 3.8k salary does attracts me quite a bit. Hahaha...
Oh ya, was having grad trip at Phuket and Thailand some weeks back with the guys. Quite an enjoyable 7-8 days. Phuket was more fun, with the atv and river rafting. The sea canoe sucked. Shopping at bkk wasn't really my thing, but still okay. It was nice just going overseas and relaxing. But it's not that fun being overseas and quarreling with her over whatsapp. Haha.. It's always better to call. And the fact that we're not in the same country doesn't help also.
That's about all for now as I sit on the train going to meet my army dudes. QM is back~!
So, as for the most exciting thing that happened recently..
Last week wed morn at around 3.30am, I woke up feeling pain in my stomach. It was to the extent of not being able to fall back asleep. I got up, drank some water, contemplated on taking some of my constipation medicine which I got on my last hospitalization, walked around with my arms around my stomach as I groaned in pain from time to time. I felt that the pain wasn't really like the last time, so most probably it wasnt constipation. Then what is it? I then have thoughts about going down to the nearest hospital to check it out. After one hour of awaken torment, I decided I couldn't tolerate any longer. Here's the part I made the biggest mistake in this incident. I wrote on the white board to tell my family I went to the hospital because my stomach hurts. I got all kinds of reprimand from my family and relatives, especially my parents, on going down to the hospital on my on and not telling them immediately. I have a funny way of asserting independence. Haha.. Msged yn on the cab there to tell her about it also. It was a short and long trip down to ktp hospital a&e. Short cause it's near, long because for every traffic light we stop at, im in pain. Acute pain. When I finally arrived, I was kinda glad the place was almost a ghost town. I thought I could see the doc almost immediately. Still, following the procedures and waiting, it took me maybe 30 minutes to receive two injections of what I think are pain killers to ease my pain. First diagnosis, abdominal cramps. First thought, I'm not a woman, is this possible? Well, I went back out to the waiting area to sit and groaned from time to time looking like I'm really in pain. Eventually the nurse came over and offered me to go to a temp ward to lie down. I agreed and then went into the single room and groaned further as the pain aggravated to a new level. Super pain. Thereafter, the doctor suspect it's probably something more serious. Oh, not to forget my mum called me immediately, shocked my dad about me in the hospital, brought my sis down too, my dear yn calling and msging frantically once she saw the MSG. Haha.. They came and scolded me not telling. Inlay there in pain, rolling from side to side as my family and yn watched. Haha.. Went for a ct scan, invasive procedure with the tracker running through me. Kinda weird feeling, sort of warm and fuzzy. They determined it was acute appendicitis, then told me I need a surgery which can only happen at 2pm. So yup, I hung in there till around that time. Surgery was around 3 hours, I rmbed breathing in the stupid gas mask again and feeling anxious lying there, almost naked, with a bunch of ppl going to open my stomach up. For a few good seconds, I thought, why the hell am I no sedated yet? Next moment, I'm bein wheeled into my ward and saw my family standing there. Woke up, and felt like shit. Stomach felt seriously weird and pain, no strength to sit up, just enough to keep myself awake as my relatives came one after another. At night i couldn't really sleep well. I need to pee but the general anesthesia kept my muscles from peeing smoothly. I couldn't pee at first lying down. Until the nurse told me to sit up by the bed and pee, other wise the doctor is gonna stick a tube up. That's a great motivation I thought. I sat there for as long as 30 minutes and was kinda proud to be able to pee out a substantial amount. Pretty relieved about not having a tube up, and found it easier to sleep. The following day got a visit from yn and we were quite worried about the Beijing trip we had planned the following Friday.
Well, as of now, we managed to shift the beijing trip to 4 aug, settled the accommodation too. Resting well at home, able to move around on the morning after my operation, but am more mobile now. Cuts seemed to heal pretty well. Glad that all these are over~
And here are some updates on my jobs seeking. Kinda gave up my chance at Forbes research. Went to police selection assessment 2 weeks before on the wed, finally got a email to say I'm selected for the interview with acting director of manpower just a few days back. The interview is tml. Applied for a temp job at the public service division under pm's office to keep me busy. Seemed like I might have a good chance because I realized a former senior colleague from
Mindef is working there now and I made known to him I applied. We talked a bit over Facebook and now settling on the hourly salary. Hope I can get it! And at a good rate! Police psych also made an offer and I applied again. I was thinking, if both police and police psych offer me, which one should I take? The 3.8k salary does attracts me quite a bit. Hahaha...
Oh ya, was having grad trip at Phuket and Thailand some weeks back with the guys. Quite an enjoyable 7-8 days. Phuket was more fun, with the atv and river rafting. The sea canoe sucked. Shopping at bkk wasn't really my thing, but still okay. It was nice just going overseas and relaxing. But it's not that fun being overseas and quarreling with her over whatsapp. Haha.. It's always better to call. And the fact that we're not in the same country doesn't help also.
That's about all for now as I sit on the train going to meet my army dudes. QM is back~!
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