A little lost

Today's the first day of my temp job as an assistant data analyst over at the public service division under pm's office. Waited around most of the time for the admin stuff, tried to understand the procedures of the ongoing project. At the moment, the things to settle are mostly administrative and logistics stuff pertaining to the collection of data, i.e. giving out surveys to be filled. So not really analysing work in that sense. Feel okay, saw 3 familiar faces, all 3 in the same cluster group as me working closely on the project.

The office has a special working environment. There are many clusters in the office, but there are no permanent seats for us except the room for directors or their pa. So basically, every morning we just go into office and sit whenever we want as long as it is unoccupied. Quite a pretty cool concept, but maybe I'll just stay in one place. Haha..

Felt a little lost in the morning. Not because of the new working environment, but because I received the rejection letter from spf. I was rejected to be a senior officer. The reason immediately went to the things I said during the manpower interview. Perhaps because I talked about the bond, perhaps it was my appendix surgery, perhaps they just don't like me. Tried to shake off these feelings with the feelings of novelty being in a whole new environment. Worked somehow, but still kinda down when I think about it. Well, at least now I don't have to worry about shift hours.

Yn was rather sad when she heard the news too. But she kept her tears till at night when we were talking over the phone. It felt better to have someone sharing the sadness. But we kinda have different views when her mum asked me to go visit a fortune teller . I was reluctant to because I don't really believe and even if it helps, I hope that I can do it on my own accord instead of borrowing help. Her mum was pretty insistent too, let's see how after the Beijing trip.

My recent happenings

Alright, i admit, I've been lazy in updating this blog and giving my life a review. But after filling up my g50 form for my police interview, I realized that a blog is a useful tool to keep track of my happenings, and when I need, I can go to the archive and refer. Haha..

So, as for the most exciting thing that happened recently..

Last week wed morn at around 3.30am, I woke up feeling pain in my stomach. It was to the extent of not being able to fall back asleep. I got up, drank some water, contemplated on taking some of my constipation medicine which I got on my last hospitalization, walked around with my arms around my stomach as I groaned in pain from time to time. I felt that the pain wasn't really like the last time, so most probably it wasnt constipation. Then what is it? I then have thoughts about going down to the nearest hospital to check it out. After one hour of awaken torment, I decided I couldn't tolerate any longer. Here's the part I made the biggest mistake in this incident. I wrote on the white board to tell my family I went to the hospital because my stomach hurts. I got all kinds of reprimand from my family and relatives, especially my parents, on going down to the hospital on my on and not telling them immediately. I have a funny way of asserting independence. Haha.. Msged yn on the cab there to tell her about it also. It was a short and long trip down to ktp hospital a&e. Short cause it's near, long because for every traffic light we stop at, im in pain. Acute pain. When I finally arrived, I was kinda glad the place was almost a ghost town. I thought I could see the doc almost immediately. Still, following the procedures and waiting, it took me maybe 30 minutes to receive two injections of what I think are pain killers to ease my pain. First diagnosis, abdominal cramps. First thought, I'm not a woman, is this possible? Well, I went back out to the waiting area to sit and groaned from time to time looking like I'm really in pain. Eventually the nurse came over and offered me to go to a temp ward to lie down. I agreed and then went into the single room and groaned further as the pain aggravated to a new level. Super pain. Thereafter, the doctor suspect it's probably something more serious. Oh, not to forget my mum called me immediately, shocked my dad about me in the hospital, brought my sis down too, my dear yn calling and msging frantically once she saw the MSG. Haha.. They came and scolded me not telling. Inlay there in pain, rolling from side to side as my family and yn watched. Haha.. Went for a ct scan, invasive procedure with the tracker running through me. Kinda weird feeling, sort of warm and fuzzy. They determined it was acute appendicitis, then told me I need a surgery which can only happen at 2pm. So yup, I hung in there till around that time. Surgery was around 3 hours, I rmbed breathing in the stupid gas mask again and feeling anxious lying there, almost naked, with a bunch of ppl going to open my stomach up. For a few good seconds, I thought, why the hell am I no sedated yet? Next moment, I'm bein wheeled into my ward and saw my family standing there. Woke up, and felt like shit. Stomach felt seriously weird and pain, no strength to sit up, just enough to keep myself awake as my relatives came one after another. At night i couldn't really sleep well. I need to pee but the general anesthesia kept my muscles from peeing smoothly. I couldn't pee at first lying down. Until the nurse told me to sit up by the bed and pee, other wise the doctor is gonna stick a tube up. That's a great motivation I thought. I sat there for as long as 30 minutes and was kinda proud to be able to pee out a substantial amount. Pretty relieved about not having a tube up, and found it easier to sleep. The following day got a visit from yn and we were quite worried about the Beijing trip we had planned the following Friday.

Well, as of now, we managed to shift the beijing trip to 4 aug, settled the accommodation too. Resting well at home, able to move around on the morning after my operation, but am more mobile now. Cuts seemed to heal pretty well. Glad that all these are over~

And here are some updates on my jobs seeking. Kinda gave up my chance at Forbes research. Went to police selection assessment 2 weeks before on the wed, finally got a email to say I'm selected for the interview with acting director of manpower just a few days back. The interview is tml. Applied for a temp job at the public service division under pm's office to keep me busy. Seemed like I might have a good chance because I realized a former senior colleague from
Mindef is working there now and I made known to him I applied. We talked a bit over Facebook and now settling on the hourly salary. Hope I can get it! And at a good rate! Police psych also made an offer and I applied again. I was thinking, if both police and police psych offer me, which one should I take? The 3.8k salary does attracts me quite a bit. Hahaha...

Oh ya, was having grad trip at Phuket and Thailand some weeks back with the guys. Quite an enjoyable 7-8 days. Phuket was more fun, with the atv and river rafting. The sea canoe sucked. Shopping at bkk wasn't really my thing, but still okay. It was nice just going overseas and relaxing. But it's not that fun being overseas and quarreling with her over whatsapp. Haha.. It's always better to call. And the fact that we're not in the same country doesn't help also.

That's about all for now as I sit on the train going to meet my army dudes. QM is back~!