what's wrong with pronouncing wikipedia as 'weekee'pedia?
not much difference what.
happy bday to dad (29th Apr) and mum (23rd Apr).
dad got a wallet from me who apparently haven't use it yet.
mum got earrings and necklace from sis who apparently also haven't got a chance to use it too, i think.
last day at day job.
doubting my chances of getting any tuition jobs as it's already this time of the year and i'm not really confirm putting in any commitments due to the start of school in august. hmmm... maybe i just skip living in hostel for 4 years in uni. haha.. save money, bring in more income from tuition.
tonight i guess it's going to get real busy at zouk.
i hope the rain will creates havoc for the crowd. haha..
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
Tuesday, April 22, 2008
the approaching fear
who is she that makes me so afraid
why does it feels like yesterday that she left
when i know it's nearly been a year
where did i spend all these time
i rmbed my tears in the wee hours of the morning
i rmbed keeping the frame underneath the bed which i sleep on every night
i rmbed myself as a pathetic fool who lost all dignity in exchange for a denied second
humans wish to live a blissful life
but i tend to indulge in this bottomless well of anguish
it's the only way to keep the memories close
why does it feels like yesterday that she left
when i know it's nearly been a year
where did i spend all these time
i rmbed my tears in the wee hours of the morning
i rmbed keeping the frame underneath the bed which i sleep on every night
i rmbed myself as a pathetic fool who lost all dignity in exchange for a denied second
humans wish to live a blissful life
but i tend to indulge in this bottomless well of anguish
it's the only way to keep the memories close
Monday, April 21, 2008
meaning
i detest myself.
for being too indulged in senseless activities which i can't pull myself out from.
missed my university admission medical checkup.
looks like i don't really give much a damn abt my uni.
wondering if i can find a job after quitting this.
but surely enough, i want to quit this job.
watching too much manga nowadays.
eyes get too tired while gaming at night.
must plan the trip round taiwan soon.
so we can book the stupid rooms and not risk sleeping elsewhere.
feel like my tummy is getting bigger without any workouts.
but also feel lik my whole body getting thinner, without any workouts.
the shorts don't fit as they did, getting looser.
shitz, i don't wanna waste the money i spent on buying the shorts.
the independent and dependent me.
infusion, or just pretence?
for being too indulged in senseless activities which i can't pull myself out from.
missed my university admission medical checkup.
looks like i don't really give much a damn abt my uni.
wondering if i can find a job after quitting this.
but surely enough, i want to quit this job.
watching too much manga nowadays.
eyes get too tired while gaming at night.
must plan the trip round taiwan soon.
so we can book the stupid rooms and not risk sleeping elsewhere.
feel like my tummy is getting bigger without any workouts.
but also feel lik my whole body getting thinner, without any workouts.
the shorts don't fit as they did, getting looser.
shitz, i don't wanna waste the money i spent on buying the shorts.
the independent and dependent me.
infusion, or just pretence?
Saturday, April 19, 2008
boring sick week
been sick, bored, and tired from work.
hopefully i can get out next week.
starting to think of how well is your memory.
being able to memorise things seem to have a few factors.
one of them is how well do you know the things you're suppose to remember?
for example if i ask a pri 1 kid to rmb a series of 10 numbers, most probably he can memorise and read it backwards by the end of 5 min.
but if i'm asking him now to rmb just 5 mathematical formulas on cosine, sine, tangent, at the end of 5 min, can he do it?
this idea sparked in my mind when i was doing my waitering work.
basically there're a lot of drinks in the bar, and i know most probably... less than 10% of them. so when i take orders from a group, i definitely have to get my notepad out to write down their orders.
unless, they're ordering common things like apple shooters, lychee martini, tiger, flaming lambo, etc. these are like 1 2 3 to me.
but those malibu, johnny walker blue/black/green, bacardi, blah blah blah... and those liquers which i've never heard of -_- these are like... smlj?
worse still, half the time when i don't know the drinks they order, i can't get their pronunciation right. -_-
some weird drinks.
-snow white and the 7 dwarfs
with 7 different liquors and beer, hardly anyone is able to tahan throughout
-vodka tom yan
suppose to be spicy -_-, pure vodka with sweetener of tom yan i guess
-?
forgot the name, but it's champange with orange juice, looks and sound nice.
stupid thing happened yesterday night, maybe was too tired.
left my locker key at my locker. and i didn't even close the locker. -_-
hopefully later able to find back the locker key and nothing is lost inside the locker. anyway the things inside all tan's. haha..
having a routine of visiting borders just before going to zouk.
read up on some comics and psychology stuffs.
one particular title drew my attention.
"the boy who was raised as a girl"
it's a true case-study.
brought out a lot of things to debate on for both science and social science.
nurture or nature? biology or environment? etc etc.
basically his penis got burned at 7 months old during circumcision and his parents decided to raise him up as a girl. the other fact is, he has an identical twin bro.
lots of homosexuality-related books on the shelves, together with the depression section all that.
read for free at borders~
hopefully i can get out next week.
starting to think of how well is your memory.
being able to memorise things seem to have a few factors.
one of them is how well do you know the things you're suppose to remember?
for example if i ask a pri 1 kid to rmb a series of 10 numbers, most probably he can memorise and read it backwards by the end of 5 min.
but if i'm asking him now to rmb just 5 mathematical formulas on cosine, sine, tangent, at the end of 5 min, can he do it?
this idea sparked in my mind when i was doing my waitering work.
basically there're a lot of drinks in the bar, and i know most probably... less than 10% of them. so when i take orders from a group, i definitely have to get my notepad out to write down their orders.
unless, they're ordering common things like apple shooters, lychee martini, tiger, flaming lambo, etc. these are like 1 2 3 to me.
but those malibu, johnny walker blue/black/green, bacardi, blah blah blah... and those liquers which i've never heard of -_- these are like... smlj?
worse still, half the time when i don't know the drinks they order, i can't get their pronunciation right. -_-
some weird drinks.
-snow white and the 7 dwarfs
with 7 different liquors and beer, hardly anyone is able to tahan throughout
-vodka tom yan
suppose to be spicy -_-, pure vodka with sweetener of tom yan i guess
-?
forgot the name, but it's champange with orange juice, looks and sound nice.
stupid thing happened yesterday night, maybe was too tired.
left my locker key at my locker. and i didn't even close the locker. -_-
hopefully later able to find back the locker key and nothing is lost inside the locker. anyway the things inside all tan's. haha..
having a routine of visiting borders just before going to zouk.
read up on some comics and psychology stuffs.
one particular title drew my attention.
"the boy who was raised as a girl"
it's a true case-study.
brought out a lot of things to debate on for both science and social science.
nurture or nature? biology or environment? etc etc.
basically his penis got burned at 7 months old during circumcision and his parents decided to raise him up as a girl. the other fact is, he has an identical twin bro.
lots of homosexuality-related books on the shelves, together with the depression section all that.
read for free at borders~
Thursday, April 10, 2008
sighz
心情不知为何, 这么都好不起来.
最近生活忙碌, 没时间去想别的事.
是不是太累了, 还是又被记忆纠缠?
会不会一停止, 心又会不知觉的感到失落.
i wanna lose myself in the seduction of speed...
最近生活忙碌, 没时间去想别的事.
是不是太累了, 还是又被记忆纠缠?
会不会一停止, 心又会不知觉的感到失落.
i wanna lose myself in the seduction of speed...
holding on to what i believe in
somehow, the bad memories return to haunt for a while.
but no matter the case, it's the past.
doubts and questions, let's leave them in the past.
there's no answers now too.
even though it may brings back the sadness, the helplessness that i once felt, the times i wasn't given a choice, but force to accept what's decided, and many more.
right now
i just want to hold on to what i believe in.
i imagine myself holding on tightly, so strong a bond, that it will never abandon me.
the empowerment that it bestows upon my very spirit, my ever burning fighting strength and courage to stand lone against the odds.
i am but, an insignificant self to majority.
but forever, i am to myself, the greatest warrior ever lived.
and becuz i believe in that, that i live.
i live to believe, and believe i have lived.
okay.. ain't making much sense... eyes getting painful from the overnight work.
but no matter the case, it's the past.
doubts and questions, let's leave them in the past.
there's no answers now too.
even though it may brings back the sadness, the helplessness that i once felt, the times i wasn't given a choice, but force to accept what's decided, and many more.
right now
i just want to hold on to what i believe in.
i imagine myself holding on tightly, so strong a bond, that it will never abandon me.
the empowerment that it bestows upon my very spirit, my ever burning fighting strength and courage to stand lone against the odds.
i am but, an insignificant self to majority.
but forever, i am to myself, the greatest warrior ever lived.
and becuz i believe in that, that i live.
i live to believe, and believe i have lived.
okay.. ain't making much sense... eyes getting painful from the overnight work.
... tired ...
having slept 2.5 hours... this morning is getting quite hard to get by...
got a headache while working last night, must be the late nights again...
finished 1 series of manga, total 17 volumes online over tue and wed in office.. haha... not really concentrating on work.
anyway it's about another love story, but pretty good in my view.
it's getting hard to keep my eyes off beautiful girls sitting around while i have nothing to do and just walk around the bar.
tuesday pool was bad. couldn't really score...
was kinda entangled with the past that day.
going to taiwan... june june. come quick...
i wanna get away, rest a while, and be myself.
got a headache while working last night, must be the late nights again...
finished 1 series of manga, total 17 volumes online over tue and wed in office.. haha... not really concentrating on work.
anyway it's about another love story, but pretty good in my view.
it's getting hard to keep my eyes off beautiful girls sitting around while i have nothing to do and just walk around the bar.
tuesday pool was bad. couldn't really score...
was kinda entangled with the past that day.
going to taiwan... june june. come quick...
i wanna get away, rest a while, and be myself.
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