sianz... my entry gone becuz blog got prob...
to cut things short.
3rd blood donation, quick, nice.
everyone please donate blood.
you're saving someone's life, just not seeing the process now.
Sunday, March 30, 2008
Friday, March 28, 2008
i don't feel like working
i only feel like enjoying life.
-playing badminton
-chionging games online
-reading on books on my bed that are bought but haven't read for don't know how many years
-indulge in some good food (steaks, basically meat)
-go out with friends for meet-ups
-sports (running, basketball, badminton, soccer)
-sleeping at home in the cool afternoon
-playing with baby zx which i now know how to make him cry (just make him feel like freefalling, i think he will come to enjoy the rush of adrenaline when he grows up)
-do some relax jobs like tutoring (high-paying job with min. working hours)
-read up on psychology, and plan on how to proceed further
-ride on a bicycle and visit the sembawang beach, or some other places which are cooling, relaxing, lots of breeze... or maybe just ride to familiar places
-finish up the project for her becuz it's on my table for freaking long
-start on my own project, i'm left with...7 months to complete. with school and procastination setting in, i think i have a big chance of not being able to complete it by then
-writing up an essay of "The World without Money". it may seem insignificant and ridculous, but it was, and still is, my ideal evolution of this world. or is it, de-evolution.
-tune up my guitar which is abandoned, and hopefully learn some guitar on myself (so i can charm those xmm, haha... kidding) mostly to enjoy music.
-check out some paranormal and psychic stuffs. bending the spoon with willpower is something not only fun, but somehow i feels it brings you to a higher level of mind. imagine, with enough mind power, from a simple piece of rectangular acrylic, i can turn it into a photoframe in just minutes.
-learn martial arts of some form. sparring is fun. basically i like anything that brings competition and excitement. that includes academic side. the adrenaline comes when i recieved the test paper and i know nuts about it. (e.g. Fmaths)
-currently i have 3 health problems. maybe it's the busy life, didn't really care much about them. so i should if i want to enjoy life.
-go on a holiday! alone! or group! i dont care! cruise! the beach! BIKINIS - jking.
but now i'm stuck in office and i'm wasting every mornings surfing the net, just to get me settled down to do work after lunch. i don't like to do projects, especially not yours and you dont really know what to do. there's not really a specific deadline. i don't feel stress. i'm only stressed over me being not stressed.
i just wanna go home, on my computer, sit infront of monitor and chiong cabal until i wanna sleep.
today's friday. weekend nothing much on. bday party, facial maybe, or soccer.
ppl have been commenting on me.
no life, no style.
i admit to having no style. wearing shorts and slippers seem like a big taboo to the others but not me. simple and comfortable.
having no life... weekdays ba. weekends i ususally live in the virtual reality. that's a lot of life to me. hahaha...
oh, lunch time again before i actually get down to finishing up this stupid project.
-playing badminton
-chionging games online
-reading on books on my bed that are bought but haven't read for don't know how many years
-indulge in some good food (steaks, basically meat)
-go out with friends for meet-ups
-sports (running, basketball, badminton, soccer)
-sleeping at home in the cool afternoon
-playing with baby zx which i now know how to make him cry (just make him feel like freefalling, i think he will come to enjoy the rush of adrenaline when he grows up)
-do some relax jobs like tutoring (high-paying job with min. working hours)
-read up on psychology, and plan on how to proceed further
-ride on a bicycle and visit the sembawang beach, or some other places which are cooling, relaxing, lots of breeze... or maybe just ride to familiar places
-finish up the project for her becuz it's on my table for freaking long
-start on my own project, i'm left with...7 months to complete. with school and procastination setting in, i think i have a big chance of not being able to complete it by then
-writing up an essay of "The World without Money". it may seem insignificant and ridculous, but it was, and still is, my ideal evolution of this world. or is it, de-evolution.
-tune up my guitar which is abandoned, and hopefully learn some guitar on myself (so i can charm those xmm, haha... kidding) mostly to enjoy music.
-check out some paranormal and psychic stuffs. bending the spoon with willpower is something not only fun, but somehow i feels it brings you to a higher level of mind. imagine, with enough mind power, from a simple piece of rectangular acrylic, i can turn it into a photoframe in just minutes.
-learn martial arts of some form. sparring is fun. basically i like anything that brings competition and excitement. that includes academic side. the adrenaline comes when i recieved the test paper and i know nuts about it. (e.g. Fmaths)
-currently i have 3 health problems. maybe it's the busy life, didn't really care much about them. so i should if i want to enjoy life.
-go on a holiday! alone! or group! i dont care! cruise! the beach! BIKINIS - jking.
but now i'm stuck in office and i'm wasting every mornings surfing the net, just to get me settled down to do work after lunch. i don't like to do projects, especially not yours and you dont really know what to do. there's not really a specific deadline. i don't feel stress. i'm only stressed over me being not stressed.
i just wanna go home, on my computer, sit infront of monitor and chiong cabal until i wanna sleep.
today's friday. weekend nothing much on. bday party, facial maybe, or soccer.
ppl have been commenting on me.
no life, no style.
i admit to having no style. wearing shorts and slippers seem like a big taboo to the others but not me. simple and comfortable.
having no life... weekdays ba. weekends i ususally live in the virtual reality. that's a lot of life to me. hahaha...
oh, lunch time again before i actually get down to finishing up this stupid project.
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
eating steak and chocolate ice cream
went to jack's place for dinner with the army guys.
small gathering as usual.
black pepper steak again~!
chocolate ice cream at some jap place.
eugene gave us some photos. nice.
talked crap, hell lot of it.
most of the time i'm just listening though.
got some assurance from them that most probably it will be just a fine.
half of the day i felt so restless, can't settle down to do any work.
moreover, i'm alone in office.
just told boss i'll stay till april, becuz she asked.
haiz. i was thinking of a pay raise, but don't even want to be in the office doing any work now. thinking of night job, may need some planning to get it through.
having thoughts of changing my future.
small gathering as usual.
black pepper steak again~!
chocolate ice cream at some jap place.
eugene gave us some photos. nice.
talked crap, hell lot of it.
most of the time i'm just listening though.
got some assurance from them that most probably it will be just a fine.
half of the day i felt so restless, can't settle down to do any work.
moreover, i'm alone in office.
just told boss i'll stay till april, becuz she asked.
haiz. i was thinking of a pay raise, but don't even want to be in the office doing any work now. thinking of night job, may need some planning to get it through.
having thoughts of changing my future.
this doesn't really help in choosing my major.
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AH! WTHELL?
so now they decided to take actions against me.
after 1 year.
maybe they should have just settle it last year.
i felt like i'm getting screwed this time round.
it's these kind of things when i thought... how nice it would be if someone is around to comfort. it sounds super gu niang, but it would be good if someone would just give me a tight hug, and say everything will be just fine... really. although i might cry. but i don't care. i want to cry. i want to cry my heart out. the agony i felt, the fear that torments, all my worries, all my troubles... i'm weak to this extent.
but there's no one.
to be strong and stand alone against the odds.
tired, i may have been too exhausted...
that's why i felt a need for company.
hope everything will be alright.
i told myself that every time.
after 1 year.
maybe they should have just settle it last year.
i felt like i'm getting screwed this time round.
it's these kind of things when i thought... how nice it would be if someone is around to comfort. it sounds super gu niang, but it would be good if someone would just give me a tight hug, and say everything will be just fine... really. although i might cry. but i don't care. i want to cry. i want to cry my heart out. the agony i felt, the fear that torments, all my worries, all my troubles... i'm weak to this extent.
but there's no one.
to be strong and stand alone against the odds.
tired, i may have been too exhausted...
that's why i felt a need for company.
hope everything will be alright.
i told myself that every time.
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
love, a wonderful feeling in its most cruel form
such a mood is coming over me
there is moodiness in everything i see.
that's life for me for the past few days.
anyway, on the topic of love.
before that, yesterday was one of the days i used an umbrella. the rain was too heavy for me to run 200 metres to an overhead bridge, crossed it, then run another 200 metres to reach the bus stop. lucky the office has one.
okay, yesterday i guessed was the finale of one of the chinese shows. hmm.. those short storys one, not the 7-8, 9-10 drama serials. i would say a nice love story with a not-so-happy, happy ending.
it started out 7 years ago, the guy and the girl were childhood friends. grew up, fell in love with each other. he had a date with the girl and planned to propose to her. she didn't show up. her family was missing. absolutely no news of her.
7 years later, he hired a PI to check her whereabouts. he told the guy, she met with a car accident and died. he was devastated. he didn't care about his restaurant and even planned to close it. one day on the streets, he saw a girl who looked exactly like her, rushed up to her, but she denied she was the girl. "you have found the wrong person".
his bro, in an attempt to encourage his bro, approached the girl and asked her to pretend to be the dead girl, and tell his bro to move on. the girl was already married to a neurologist and a mother of a 7-year-old. she agreed.
she visited his restuarant. he was delighted. he commented that she still wears the same perfume as before, and still like egg fried rice, kinda like his specialty. the girl kept asking him to move on, saying she's married, a mother, and all is in the past now. he wasn't ready to give up just yet. nevertheless, the girl left with her daughter when the husband came. he was again, confused. "why?" he asked.
his bro finally revealed that the girl isnt really his love. it's just someone who looked like her. he couldn't believe it. the same perfume, the same egg fried rice preference, the same face, the same voice. he went to approach the husband.
the confront btw the guys end up in an sort of angry way. he said "i won't give up", the husband said "don't kajiao her", or something like that, can't remember. "she's not your old love."
out of a sudden, husband decided to cut short his family stay in singapore and move back to US. the girl found it weird while the daughter was whining away about staying in singapore. just as they were about to leave the hotel, the guy confronted them again.
"please don't fake it" he pleaded the girl. the husband was getting pretty upset and anxious. that's when the girl told the husband she's not leaving sg till the whole thing clears up. he, being in a rush to go back to us and upset abt the guy, and he being all so certain about his old love. the husband finally comply and had a solo chat with the guy.
the truth came out. the girl was his love, but she doesn't rmb him. she had a car accident 7 years ago, probably on the way to meeting him during the date when he wanted to propose. she was in coma, and treated by her current husband. miracously, she woke up at the 56th day, but didn't rmb a single thing. even her name. he told her he was her boyfriend, got together, and married after one year.
the husband told the truth on one condition, that the guy will keep it a secret, and not ruined the current happiness. be it selfish and cruel to both him and her.
after knowing the truth, the guy was ~ (a representation of feeling becuz i have no word for it). he apologized to the girl who still know nothing abt the truth, saying he got the wrong person. then he left.
having the things settled, the husband decided to let the family stay one more day. and in request to her daughter's crave for the guy's egg fried rice, they planned to have dinner at his restaurant.
dinner came, the husband deliberately didn't show up to let the guy spent some time with the girl. (i was kinda touched by this selfish bastard's actions)
during the dinner conversation, the daughter told him that she was 7 years old. now if you put it in chronological order, it was just nice 7 years ago that she had that car accident. she got married only 1 year after that. so now, it turned out to be more than just a reunion of old love. then came the stupid background music and showing the guy with teary eyes, and the husband smiling outside the restaurant, having a big enough heart to let the actual family have a final dinner together.
the end.
love. don't you feel the wonder in it? and yet can't deny that sometimes, it brings out the most cruel side of destiny. you have to let go when things have turn out this way, to not break the current state of happiness.
快乐的一刻, 胜过永恒的难过
how true is this phrase to you?
a moment of happiness overwhelms even the eternity of sadness.
every story has its ending.
my story has just ended.
there is moodiness in everything i see.
that's life for me for the past few days.
anyway, on the topic of love.
before that, yesterday was one of the days i used an umbrella. the rain was too heavy for me to run 200 metres to an overhead bridge, crossed it, then run another 200 metres to reach the bus stop. lucky the office has one.
okay, yesterday i guessed was the finale of one of the chinese shows. hmm.. those short storys one, not the 7-8, 9-10 drama serials. i would say a nice love story with a not-so-happy, happy ending.
it started out 7 years ago, the guy and the girl were childhood friends. grew up, fell in love with each other. he had a date with the girl and planned to propose to her. she didn't show up. her family was missing. absolutely no news of her.
7 years later, he hired a PI to check her whereabouts. he told the guy, she met with a car accident and died. he was devastated. he didn't care about his restaurant and even planned to close it. one day on the streets, he saw a girl who looked exactly like her, rushed up to her, but she denied she was the girl. "you have found the wrong person".
his bro, in an attempt to encourage his bro, approached the girl and asked her to pretend to be the dead girl, and tell his bro to move on. the girl was already married to a neurologist and a mother of a 7-year-old. she agreed.
she visited his restuarant. he was delighted. he commented that she still wears the same perfume as before, and still like egg fried rice, kinda like his specialty. the girl kept asking him to move on, saying she's married, a mother, and all is in the past now. he wasn't ready to give up just yet. nevertheless, the girl left with her daughter when the husband came. he was again, confused. "why?" he asked.
his bro finally revealed that the girl isnt really his love. it's just someone who looked like her. he couldn't believe it. the same perfume, the same egg fried rice preference, the same face, the same voice. he went to approach the husband.
the confront btw the guys end up in an sort of angry way. he said "i won't give up", the husband said "don't kajiao her", or something like that, can't remember. "she's not your old love."
out of a sudden, husband decided to cut short his family stay in singapore and move back to US. the girl found it weird while the daughter was whining away about staying in singapore. just as they were about to leave the hotel, the guy confronted them again.
"please don't fake it" he pleaded the girl. the husband was getting pretty upset and anxious. that's when the girl told the husband she's not leaving sg till the whole thing clears up. he, being in a rush to go back to us and upset abt the guy, and he being all so certain about his old love. the husband finally comply and had a solo chat with the guy.
the truth came out. the girl was his love, but she doesn't rmb him. she had a car accident 7 years ago, probably on the way to meeting him during the date when he wanted to propose. she was in coma, and treated by her current husband. miracously, she woke up at the 56th day, but didn't rmb a single thing. even her name. he told her he was her boyfriend, got together, and married after one year.
the husband told the truth on one condition, that the guy will keep it a secret, and not ruined the current happiness. be it selfish and cruel to both him and her.
after knowing the truth, the guy was ~ (a representation of feeling becuz i have no word for it). he apologized to the girl who still know nothing abt the truth, saying he got the wrong person. then he left.
having the things settled, the husband decided to let the family stay one more day. and in request to her daughter's crave for the guy's egg fried rice, they planned to have dinner at his restaurant.
dinner came, the husband deliberately didn't show up to let the guy spent some time with the girl. (i was kinda touched by this selfish bastard's actions)
during the dinner conversation, the daughter told him that she was 7 years old. now if you put it in chronological order, it was just nice 7 years ago that she had that car accident. she got married only 1 year after that. so now, it turned out to be more than just a reunion of old love. then came the stupid background music and showing the guy with teary eyes, and the husband smiling outside the restaurant, having a big enough heart to let the actual family have a final dinner together.
the end.
love. don't you feel the wonder in it? and yet can't deny that sometimes, it brings out the most cruel side of destiny. you have to let go when things have turn out this way, to not break the current state of happiness.
快乐的一刻, 胜过永恒的难过
how true is this phrase to you?
a moment of happiness overwhelms even the eternity of sadness.
every story has its ending.
my story has just ended.
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