Sunday, October 28, 2007
My Treat
yesterday night went out with the 4 of them. haha..
went to chijmes for dinner, bobby's. hmm.. quite exp, 263 in total.
and it was my treat. -_- haha.. it's by far my most exp treat lah.
but the food is nice, the company is excellent, and the meaning of the dinner is worth every cent.
i rmbed i once went there with her in the late night, hmm.. i think that time we have nothing much to do ard the area. haha... the same cosplay cafe, but different company. doesn't matter.
after that went for desserts at monilta, ate some ice cream before we went home. well.. good night well spent.
late morning went to Bugis to see godma. it's some celebration.. don't really know what is it also. prayed to her, hmm... it seemed weird to have her as my gan ma. like.. i don't know anyone else who have her as gan ma. my mum kinda say it's my dad's idea lah. since i was borned, i was brought to the temple already.
went out, by pass a fortune teller, mum say aunt recommended it. so i said... "go loh". and it ate up my 90 bucks as i paid for mum and me. both of us did a computerised test of our palms and year in which we're borned, then we both did palm reading, which was 20 bucks each. the computerised test was 5 bucks. i bought a small.. thingy of my gan ma, 50 bucks.
Palm or Signature Picture
You are objective to and have a clear picture of things existing in this world. You are very perseverant in pursuing your dream. you are good at expressing yourself and albe to make both parties happy. You are going to make fortune if you invest. You have a lot of friends and they are helpful to your career. You are very fiar when making judgments. You are very strict with your childrean and hope them to take over your career. You are a lot more stubborn when it comes to your loving career. (ya, so when did love becomes a career? -_-)
You hold a peaceful attitude toward your future and have good relations with people around you. You seek for freedom and try to get the most from life using little money. You are afraid of being alone and have a group of hearty friends.
---symbol of rabbit---
People with the symbol of rabbit are very smart and foxy. They know how to protect themselves in danger. They very politic and have lots of friends. As you grow older, you will become more mature and outgoing. You are likely to succeed in literature. You are talented, which makes you have more desire than others and always follow others. But when you are pursuing your dream, you drive ahead without any hesitate. But you lack practical experience, therefore likely to give up halfway. You are cautious with things around you. You are always following the trend and are not frugal. You are act before you think thoroughly, which leads to many problems. You have a strong sense of justice and sometimes sacrifice yourself to it. You like to help the disadvantaged and fight with the advantaged. This may cause some slanders for you. You have your own idea towards everything and are strong minded and sensitive. You will act as soon as you get any idea, otherwise you don't feel comfortable. You are diligent with your work and hate wandering around. You are quite critical towards food and clothes. You love every member of your family, but sometimes lose sense to sexual attraction. (wthell does that means? -_-") As far as finance is concerned, you use every coin in your career. In the later half of your life, you will meet some authority, who will help you to be promoted and gain your fame. In your middle ages, you are able to be a leader and have a lot of opportunities.
That's all.
And i spent 2.5 hours wandering around sim lim sq and finally settling down on a 2k ASUS laptop. hmm.. and then it rained. -_-
oh ya... about the palm reading, it was quite accurate i think. but i kept wondering during the reading whether is it all that questions and my gesture that gave my character and personality away. let's see what i can remember...
i am someone who zhong gan qing. that means i'm loyal to my friends, helping them even at the expense of myself. then she advise me not to help too much, to a certain extent is enough. i view money as nothing, just spend what i earn. not that i anyhow spend, but i just don't really save up. quite true, but spending the 2k kinda break my heart liao. gambling is a no. small gambling is okay, but if i gamble big, i will really aim for the biggest jackpot. which will eventually.. lose everything. my career is so-so only. but at the later stage of my life, even if i start a business, i will still be able to succeed. my marriage life should start after the age of 26. any age below that will cause a divorce. that immediately make me think of her. haha.. how coincidence, she want to get marry before 26. so erm... ? haha.. 6 years isn't that far, not that near also. hmm.. let's not think abt it first. it didn't even start, how do we even end? hmm.. oh ya, she mentioned i have high iq, quite smart. but becuz i mentioned before i was going to university, so.. maybe she's just inferring. can't rmb her mentioning abt my health. oh ya, she knows i hate nagging from my mum a lot. haha.. wthell, it's like every son's nightmare ba. and i am very stubborn in my way also.
that's abt all ba.
so i have a shopping spree of ard 2.4k in 2 days. coolz
went to chijmes for dinner, bobby's. hmm.. quite exp, 263 in total.
and it was my treat. -_- haha.. it's by far my most exp treat lah.
but the food is nice, the company is excellent, and the meaning of the dinner is worth every cent.
i rmbed i once went there with her in the late night, hmm.. i think that time we have nothing much to do ard the area. haha... the same cosplay cafe, but different company. doesn't matter.
after that went for desserts at monilta, ate some ice cream before we went home. well.. good night well spent.
late morning went to Bugis to see godma. it's some celebration.. don't really know what is it also. prayed to her, hmm... it seemed weird to have her as my gan ma. like.. i don't know anyone else who have her as gan ma. my mum kinda say it's my dad's idea lah. since i was borned, i was brought to the temple already.
went out, by pass a fortune teller, mum say aunt recommended it. so i said... "go loh". and it ate up my 90 bucks as i paid for mum and me. both of us did a computerised test of our palms and year in which we're borned, then we both did palm reading, which was 20 bucks each. the computerised test was 5 bucks. i bought a small.. thingy of my gan ma, 50 bucks.
Palm or Signature Picture
You are objective to and have a clear picture of things existing in this world. You are very perseverant in pursuing your dream. you are good at expressing yourself and albe to make both parties happy. You are going to make fortune if you invest. You have a lot of friends and they are helpful to your career. You are very fiar when making judgments. You are very strict with your childrean and hope them to take over your career. You are a lot more stubborn when it comes to your loving career. (ya, so when did love becomes a career? -_-)
You hold a peaceful attitude toward your future and have good relations with people around you. You seek for freedom and try to get the most from life using little money. You are afraid of being alone and have a group of hearty friends.
---symbol of rabbit---
People with the symbol of rabbit are very smart and foxy. They know how to protect themselves in danger. They very politic and have lots of friends. As you grow older, you will become more mature and outgoing. You are likely to succeed in literature. You are talented, which makes you have more desire than others and always follow others. But when you are pursuing your dream, you drive ahead without any hesitate. But you lack practical experience, therefore likely to give up halfway. You are cautious with things around you. You are always following the trend and are not frugal. You are act before you think thoroughly, which leads to many problems. You have a strong sense of justice and sometimes sacrifice yourself to it. You like to help the disadvantaged and fight with the advantaged. This may cause some slanders for you. You have your own idea towards everything and are strong minded and sensitive. You will act as soon as you get any idea, otherwise you don't feel comfortable. You are diligent with your work and hate wandering around. You are quite critical towards food and clothes. You love every member of your family, but sometimes lose sense to sexual attraction. (wthell does that means? -_-") As far as finance is concerned, you use every coin in your career. In the later half of your life, you will meet some authority, who will help you to be promoted and gain your fame. In your middle ages, you are able to be a leader and have a lot of opportunities.
That's all.
And i spent 2.5 hours wandering around sim lim sq and finally settling down on a 2k ASUS laptop. hmm.. and then it rained. -_-
oh ya... about the palm reading, it was quite accurate i think. but i kept wondering during the reading whether is it all that questions and my gesture that gave my character and personality away. let's see what i can remember...
i am someone who zhong gan qing. that means i'm loyal to my friends, helping them even at the expense of myself. then she advise me not to help too much, to a certain extent is enough. i view money as nothing, just spend what i earn. not that i anyhow spend, but i just don't really save up. quite true, but spending the 2k kinda break my heart liao. gambling is a no. small gambling is okay, but if i gamble big, i will really aim for the biggest jackpot. which will eventually.. lose everything. my career is so-so only. but at the later stage of my life, even if i start a business, i will still be able to succeed. my marriage life should start after the age of 26. any age below that will cause a divorce. that immediately make me think of her. haha.. how coincidence, she want to get marry before 26. so erm... ? haha.. 6 years isn't that far, not that near also. hmm.. let's not think abt it first. it didn't even start, how do we even end? hmm.. oh ya, she mentioned i have high iq, quite smart. but becuz i mentioned before i was going to university, so.. maybe she's just inferring. can't rmb her mentioning abt my health. oh ya, she knows i hate nagging from my mum a lot. haha.. wthell, it's like every son's nightmare ba. and i am very stubborn in my way also.
that's abt all ba.
so i have a shopping spree of ard 2.4k in 2 days. coolz
Saturday, October 27, 2007
it hurts
jsut came back from ICA in the early morning to collect my new passport. reached there at ard 8.20am.. and i'm like 300 ppl behind Q. wthell? the building only opens at 8am? waited for 1 hour. better than those who came at 9 plus. haha..
on the way home, suddenly it just feels sad. it hurts when you know she wouldn't ask you to stay when you tell her you're leaving. not as in overseas, those kinda things. it just feels, sad.
well, moving on.
the golf yesterday was okay. we went to the sembawang golf course there, beside Sem. air base. we only played at the driving range cuz we're all noobs. 50 balls each, only a few of mine hit near 100m. -_- the other were within 50m. haha.. it's hard lah.
on the way home, suddenly it just feels sad. it hurts when you know she wouldn't ask you to stay when you tell her you're leaving. not as in overseas, those kinda things. it just feels, sad.
well, moving on.
the golf yesterday was okay. we went to the sembawang golf course there, beside Sem. air base. we only played at the driving range cuz we're all noobs. 50 balls each, only a few of mine hit near 100m. -_- the other were within 50m. haha.. it's hard lah.
Friday, October 26, 2007
when i leave
there's recently a new chinese drama on channel 8, 9pm, showing every weekdays. it's about a guy trying to get accepted by his future father-in-law. a lovely girlfriend, a career still budding. his father-in-law is seriously a very irritating fellow. haha.. soon, the girlfriend is going to leave for America as requested by her company to attend a course for one year. they wanted to register for marriage before going but the her father was able to coax the guy into getting married after the one year. he still look down on the guy as he has no stable career. wthell. but as you can see from the couple, it's very hurting to part away from someone you love deeply. however, following the storyline, the guy will probably be falling in love with her younger sister within the year. now that's the bigger problem than the dad. obviously the girlfriend may go mad, blame her dad, kill her sis or something. haha... love, it comes and goes. but it exists, really. but for those who want to hold on to it, be true, loyal, devoted, faithful... love's challenge is to last, and not to hold for that moment. one of the famous chinese quote says that one doesn't care about forever, but only cherish those moments that happened before. i believed it's more for those in the past liao lah. it can't be you're in love, and you're saying this kind of shitz. doesn't make sense to me, does it make sense to you? however, when love comes, it comes. there's no stopping. even if you don't feel it now, you will slowly, but steadily, get in contact with the feeling. now... how to hold on to the love, and be true, is a very big big question in every one's head. they may be confident initially, "how can i ever fall in love with someone else other than her?", "my heart is with her, i can't take in another one". but perhaps they will realise, like the guy in the chinese drama, our hearts, can take more than one. or rather... as the person is slowly diminishing from your life, becuz she's busy, overseas, somewhere you can't see, contact and touch, you may just slowly push bits and pieces of her out of your heart, and have another one filling up the spaces. then out of a sudden, you realise you're loving two ppl. your heart is having two different blood, beating for two. that's when the decision is made. best, the first person suddenly appears out of nowhere, then big drama shall follows. many circumstances, many questions. yet answers, are few. right or wrong, is decided, and felt by the 3 parties. what are we, the outsiders, to condone, comment, or condemn. but let's say... just maybe, you're in one of the 3 of them, in one of the many circumstances that you thought of, what will you do? perhaps, you might just face this scenario when the sun shines on your face again. =)
Tuesday, October 23, 2007
Meaning of love
So her nick changed to meaning of love. and i'm quite sure it's her own definition.
"a subjective feeling towards one.. but not expecting tt someone to feel the same as u.."
and i'm quite sure most will agree to this statement, if they're thinking abt the greatness of love, how should one behave when they love someone. but being someone trying to catch another heart, read her mind, and grab her hand, this statement seemed to be lacking in something.
love is not about giving only, but recieving. a love that is all about giving to the other party, is not love. it takes two hands to clap, two bodies for a hug, and two lips, for a kiss. love is 2, not 1. yes it's a subjective feeling, you can also not expect that person to feel the same as you, but i'm sure deep down inside, you really wish that that person feel the same way as you. from the brightest star in the night sky, you will wish upon it that that person desire those words from you, a hug, a kiss, basically, that person want to be with you.
but if you don't convey the msg across, or get a reply from the other party, you're putting yourself up for the maximum hurt you can endure before you finally break down in tears. if you don't confess, you will never know how the other party feels, unless they confess. but isn't it silly to wait for the other to tell you first? but everyone's silly. becuz we all want to protect our heart, prevent it from harm. so we will get closer, and closer to the person. getting to know them more and more, understand, examine. as time goes by, you find yourself just couldn't get out of this love well, and in a dilemma of revealing your well-kept feelings and exposing your fragile piece of muscle, or just get tortured by the question, "she loves me? she loves me not? she loves me? she loves me not? ..." while plucking the stupid petals. maybe that was in the past, now i think it's staring at the monitor, just doing what i'm doing now, typing. but i have an answer in my heart already, just refused to believe it. it's like a source-based question, i'm just comparing the facts more biased towards what i wish to have.
what if you have expressed your in-depth emotions, and constantly just waiting for a reply. in the meanwhile you're just doing what you can, let the other party know that you will stay strong in your feelings, hoping that the other party can give you a favourable reply, soon. some will be delighted, some will get a shock, some will be disgusted, some will be confused, some. how long will you wait? how long can you take the heat? what reply can you take? a no? a please hold? a yes is definitely good. but can you take a yes, but we can't get together reply? lots of answers the other party can give, can you take it?
what is love? i rmb one movie, with a really beautiful meaning of love. forgot what's the title.
just thrash it all out with her... felt much better.
believe in her, and myself. =)
you're my only question, that i can't answer myself.
"a subjective feeling towards one.. but not expecting tt someone to feel the same as u.."
and i'm quite sure most will agree to this statement, if they're thinking abt the greatness of love, how should one behave when they love someone. but being someone trying to catch another heart, read her mind, and grab her hand, this statement seemed to be lacking in something.
love is not about giving only, but recieving. a love that is all about giving to the other party, is not love. it takes two hands to clap, two bodies for a hug, and two lips, for a kiss. love is 2, not 1. yes it's a subjective feeling, you can also not expect that person to feel the same as you, but i'm sure deep down inside, you really wish that that person feel the same way as you. from the brightest star in the night sky, you will wish upon it that that person desire those words from you, a hug, a kiss, basically, that person want to be with you.
but if you don't convey the msg across, or get a reply from the other party, you're putting yourself up for the maximum hurt you can endure before you finally break down in tears. if you don't confess, you will never know how the other party feels, unless they confess. but isn't it silly to wait for the other to tell you first? but everyone's silly. becuz we all want to protect our heart, prevent it from harm. so we will get closer, and closer to the person. getting to know them more and more, understand, examine. as time goes by, you find yourself just couldn't get out of this love well, and in a dilemma of revealing your well-kept feelings and exposing your fragile piece of muscle, or just get tortured by the question, "she loves me? she loves me not? she loves me? she loves me not? ..." while plucking the stupid petals. maybe that was in the past, now i think it's staring at the monitor, just doing what i'm doing now, typing. but i have an answer in my heart already, just refused to believe it. it's like a source-based question, i'm just comparing the facts more biased towards what i wish to have.
what if you have expressed your in-depth emotions, and constantly just waiting for a reply. in the meanwhile you're just doing what you can, let the other party know that you will stay strong in your feelings, hoping that the other party can give you a favourable reply, soon. some will be delighted, some will get a shock, some will be disgusted, some will be confused, some. how long will you wait? how long can you take the heat? what reply can you take? a no? a please hold? a yes is definitely good. but can you take a yes, but we can't get together reply? lots of answers the other party can give, can you take it?
what is love? i rmb one movie, with a really beautiful meaning of love. forgot what's the title.
just thrash it all out with her... felt much better.
believe in her, and myself. =)
you're my only question, that i can't answer myself.
Monday, October 22, 2007
paranoid
am i getting too paranoid over small matters? even msn nicks affect me. but of cuz i should get paranoid! there's always a hope that she will actually think abt me.
these two weeks will be frequent visits to toa payoh. met ah tan in the morning at the bus 90 Q. he told me at this time, we will be late when we reach the camp. haha... in the end both of us just slept throughout the journey. hoping to see someone. but normally, when i think of seeing someone, the person will never appear. it's like.. demand and no supply.
should i buy a laptop? hmm.. seriously, or am i just gonna stay in the 1-man rm in australia and mug, or sleep, or just lie on the bed reading books, writing? or just "the wall is my only friend".
it's beginning to dawn on me that the things i wish for btw me and her ain't gonna happen. i have one idiot who's telling me to walk on, when i know she herself shouldn't give up so easily on her own. FOR THE SAKE OF SOMETHING, COMMUNICATE LAH. although i don't really perform well in that sector, but at least i know it's crucial. haha...
first day in Air Force School. lots of new things, adapting. i'm really afraid of having my feelings shaken at this point of time. becuz i know, if i do, and when i'm back, i will be stronger. and when that happened, even comedies i can't laugh.
tired.... being the course IC is quite troublesome. too bad, i'm the only one having the bar.
these two weeks will be frequent visits to toa payoh. met ah tan in the morning at the bus 90 Q. he told me at this time, we will be late when we reach the camp. haha... in the end both of us just slept throughout the journey. hoping to see someone. but normally, when i think of seeing someone, the person will never appear. it's like.. demand and no supply.
should i buy a laptop? hmm.. seriously, or am i just gonna stay in the 1-man rm in australia and mug, or sleep, or just lie on the bed reading books, writing? or just "the wall is my only friend".
it's beginning to dawn on me that the things i wish for btw me and her ain't gonna happen. i have one idiot who's telling me to walk on, when i know she herself shouldn't give up so easily on her own. FOR THE SAKE OF SOMETHING, COMMUNICATE LAH. although i don't really perform well in that sector, but at least i know it's crucial. haha...
first day in Air Force School. lots of new things, adapting. i'm really afraid of having my feelings shaken at this point of time. becuz i know, if i do, and when i'm back, i will be stronger. and when that happened, even comedies i can't laugh.
tired.... being the course IC is quite troublesome. too bad, i'm the only one having the bar.
Sunday, October 21, 2007
My Birthday
Well, 20 lunar years ago, i was borned. haha... and yeah, nobody really rmb this kind of things. hmmm.. actually get interested when my grandma gave me a hong bao some years ago for my chinese bday. i spent my birthday staying at home lvling my pikeman. at least someone wished me happy birthday when i told her. hahaha...
having the same birthdate for both lunar and solar is very hard to come by. it's rare. but is it special?
since young, i have always held on to the image of myself being special, the unique one. but also, have also view everyone else, as special. i often found myself wanting to be outstanding, to be able to make the teacher take note of me, even if i appeared like an idiot. however, it's not something done deliberately, i somehow... just like to do weird stuffs when i was young. as i grew, i began to know more of my weakness, and also my strengths. i may run fast, but not as fast as some. i may sux in science, but not as bad as some. i learned. i grew.
i think she's attached. felt better. got me thinking about what's worth holding on to in life. let's take an example. hmm... badminton and soccer. for the later, it's just a sport which i took up when the whole class was playing it. badminton, the sport that i grew up with. wasn't a group game, more towards solo and duo. to have your teammates cheering you on, it's another feeling of your teammates beside you. victories and losses were more impt in the rectangular court, than the field. not only the skills, but life values too. it's something i will carry on for life, but as for soccer, it's just another sports. so.. which do you want? something to hold on for life, or something that is just another passing cloud?
haha.. the above really sounds like crap.
oh well, happy birthday to me.
and nik's birthday is having lunar and solar together.
i'm promoting on that day also. but the pay increase isn't a lot.
going to australia in 2 weeks.
ankle still recovering. i feel fat. everytime when i saw her, she never failed to say my tummy is growing bigger. haven't been excerising much. hope i can get silver for ippt next week.
i'm lvl 63 pikeman. Normalguy, holding to STYX Sxythe, trying to get Spike Armor. currently low on Gold becuz of the fast experience and relatively slow money gaining.
tml's the first day in air force school, and i forgot how to get there. oh shitz, i forgot to photocopy my education transcripts. now that's something to worry abt.
cut my hair today.
thinking of getting a laptop to bring over to australia, from anyone. anyone? hmm... don't feel like buying. later i fail, then the laptop is deemed useless. sianz.
ah... better prepare for tml.
having the same birthdate for both lunar and solar is very hard to come by. it's rare. but is it special?
since young, i have always held on to the image of myself being special, the unique one. but also, have also view everyone else, as special. i often found myself wanting to be outstanding, to be able to make the teacher take note of me, even if i appeared like an idiot. however, it's not something done deliberately, i somehow... just like to do weird stuffs when i was young. as i grew, i began to know more of my weakness, and also my strengths. i may run fast, but not as fast as some. i may sux in science, but not as bad as some. i learned. i grew.
i think she's attached. felt better. got me thinking about what's worth holding on to in life. let's take an example. hmm... badminton and soccer. for the later, it's just a sport which i took up when the whole class was playing it. badminton, the sport that i grew up with. wasn't a group game, more towards solo and duo. to have your teammates cheering you on, it's another feeling of your teammates beside you. victories and losses were more impt in the rectangular court, than the field. not only the skills, but life values too. it's something i will carry on for life, but as for soccer, it's just another sports. so.. which do you want? something to hold on for life, or something that is just another passing cloud?
haha.. the above really sounds like crap.
oh well, happy birthday to me.
and nik's birthday is having lunar and solar together.
i'm promoting on that day also. but the pay increase isn't a lot.
going to australia in 2 weeks.
ankle still recovering. i feel fat. everytime when i saw her, she never failed to say my tummy is growing bigger. haven't been excerising much. hope i can get silver for ippt next week.
i'm lvl 63 pikeman. Normalguy, holding to STYX Sxythe, trying to get Spike Armor. currently low on Gold becuz of the fast experience and relatively slow money gaining.
tml's the first day in air force school, and i forgot how to get there. oh shitz, i forgot to photocopy my education transcripts. now that's something to worry abt.
cut my hair today.
thinking of getting a laptop to bring over to australia, from anyone. anyone? hmm... don't feel like buying. later i fail, then the laptop is deemed useless. sianz.
ah... better prepare for tml.
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