Feeling quite good while I was walking to the station. Not sure why, maybe it's the withdrawal effect of waking up early every morning to study. Haha.. Drugs paper later. Maybe ive been reading up on cocaine, opium, etc..
Anyway, I always like to stare at the morning or evening sun, not too bright and glaring enough for me to fix my sight on it to see it's fullness. I kinda believe it's giving me energy, life energy. It's those no-sense belief that somehow creeps into your daily life, like staying off the cracks on the road pavements. Well, I thought of a stupid line...
You're like the sun.
Once I set my eyes on you, I can't see anyone else.
If this doesn't makes sense to anyone, try looking at the sun, then look at someone.
Back to revising on the train.
Saturday, May 7, 2011
Thursday, May 5, 2011
strange finding
was dozing off in the morn while trying to read my health psych on management of chronic illness, so i stood while reading. was getting bored and restless so i began to move my hips around. surpisingly, in a particular circular motion of the hips, i could hear some air shuffling sound. tried a few times more and my body hurts. it seemed the motion kinda twist my stomach or lungs in a way that it pushes air out of my mouth, which i could feel, though slight. scary finding, like something's wrong with me.
Wednesday, May 4, 2011
lucky day?
picked up a 10 cents coin along the school corridor.
when i ate kfc just now the person who served me gave me a medium whipped potato instead of a small/regular one.
i saw pretty girls in school (as usual).
i got another '8' on my stats quiz.
but it's not 88 anymore, it's 78.
i can actually predict my score for stats quiz that i just handed in today.
assg 1 - nearly 100%; assg 2 - nearly 90%; assg 3 - nearly 80%
with the linear relationship that i found between my score and subsequent assignment, i can predict my assg quiz to be nearly 70%. hahaha.. this is bad.
only managed to read 3 chapters of health psyh. so dead.
12 chpts in total. damn it.
i blame my stats lab. haha..
and i kept dozing off while reading.
when i ate kfc just now the person who served me gave me a medium whipped potato instead of a small/regular one.
i saw pretty girls in school (as usual).
i got another '8' on my stats quiz.
but it's not 88 anymore, it's 78.
i can actually predict my score for stats quiz that i just handed in today.
assg 1 - nearly 100%; assg 2 - nearly 90%; assg 3 - nearly 80%
with the linear relationship that i found between my score and subsequent assignment, i can predict my assg quiz to be nearly 70%. hahaha.. this is bad.
only managed to read 3 chapters of health psyh. so dead.
12 chpts in total. damn it.
i blame my stats lab. haha..
and i kept dozing off while reading.
Tuesday, May 3, 2011
the difference between worlds
over dinner just now, i sparked a heated discussion with my sis on her first working day. she was rather frustrated becuz her boss, my former boss, wasn't around the whole day to settle the legal papers for employment. initially i thought, what's the big deal? you work a few days, and then get legally employed after maybe 3 days, and yet you still get paid for all the days that you worked. apparently, i'm missing a few things that my sis eventually brought up.
bonus? MC? insurance? medical claims? over-time? etc etc etc... things i won't be too lazy to care for. probably i'll just take whatever they throw at me. perhaps i never really did find a permanent job before, that's why i couldn't really grasp what's the scenario was like for her. i've only worked for short periods of time. for her, it might be a few years. and for that, the benefits entitlement would actually make a difference.
she mentioned her previous job kinda cheated her of 5 days of pay. that's why she was scared of getting cheated by other companies. to me, a case of cheating would be them not paying me when i went to work, on a working day. for her, it's a case of the company having holidays off and causing her 5 days of no paid leave. seriously, i would be more than happy to take the days off without pay during the probation period and relax. perhaps, that's where the difference btw me and my sis lies.
or is it that she felt cheated that the company didn't tell her beforehand that they were having thsoe 5 days of no paid leave for her, and that's why she became this defensive against trusting corporate organizations? or am i too heck-cared to even be bothered about this kind of stuffs and worry more on either the work, or my personal life?
in life, it's not always possible to remain happy all the time. things may fall on you, you get bruised, cut, crushed. sometimes, you don't even have the strength or power to fight back what you think is right. however, it's always possible to be optimistic about everything. it could be stupid and foolish, but the result is that you're moving yourself forward, keeping yourself on the move. i'm kinda like this, except i'm more of i-don't-really-care. haha..
吃一点亏，无所谓
it's a bit off the tracks, but...
my sis's attitude towards this matter, kinda remind me of my ex.
i could imagine her worrying and talking about the same thing if it happened to her. haha..
seriously, i hate having one ex. it's like everything that has gotta do with love, i relate it to her, or any memories of her. but it's not like i want another ex. that could go either way.
today's happy news of stats deadline delayed really throw my attention off. my whole self became relaxed. not a good thing when my procrastination sets in and here i am, and watched a few scenes from random movies that i downloaded. oh, i watched "just go with it." adam sandler, one of my favourite comedic actor, and jennifer aniston, one of my favourite comedic actress. normally i wouldn't bother to find out the names of the celebrities, but them... the names just stuck. especially when you watched the whole series of friends more than twice. it's like watching wong fei hong and you'll know lee lian jie.
found a nice friend today online. still don't know much about this person, but i'll soon find out after i'm done with my finals.
bonus? MC? insurance? medical claims? over-time? etc etc etc... things i won't be too lazy to care for. probably i'll just take whatever they throw at me. perhaps i never really did find a permanent job before, that's why i couldn't really grasp what's the scenario was like for her. i've only worked for short periods of time. for her, it might be a few years. and for that, the benefits entitlement would actually make a difference.
she mentioned her previous job kinda cheated her of 5 days of pay. that's why she was scared of getting cheated by other companies. to me, a case of cheating would be them not paying me when i went to work, on a working day. for her, it's a case of the company having holidays off and causing her 5 days of no paid leave. seriously, i would be more than happy to take the days off without pay during the probation period and relax. perhaps, that's where the difference btw me and my sis lies.
or is it that she felt cheated that the company didn't tell her beforehand that they were having thsoe 5 days of no paid leave for her, and that's why she became this defensive against trusting corporate organizations? or am i too heck-cared to even be bothered about this kind of stuffs and worry more on either the work, or my personal life?
in life, it's not always possible to remain happy all the time. things may fall on you, you get bruised, cut, crushed. sometimes, you don't even have the strength or power to fight back what you think is right. however, it's always possible to be optimistic about everything. it could be stupid and foolish, but the result is that you're moving yourself forward, keeping yourself on the move. i'm kinda like this, except i'm more of i-don't-really-care. haha..
吃一点亏，无所谓
it's a bit off the tracks, but...
my sis's attitude towards this matter, kinda remind me of my ex.
i could imagine her worrying and talking about the same thing if it happened to her. haha..
seriously, i hate having one ex. it's like everything that has gotta do with love, i relate it to her, or any memories of her. but it's not like i want another ex. that could go either way.
today's happy news of stats deadline delayed really throw my attention off. my whole self became relaxed. not a good thing when my procrastination sets in and here i am, and watched a few scenes from random movies that i downloaded. oh, i watched "just go with it." adam sandler, one of my favourite comedic actor, and jennifer aniston, one of my favourite comedic actress. normally i wouldn't bother to find out the names of the celebrities, but them... the names just stuck. especially when you watched the whole series of friends more than twice. it's like watching wong fei hong and you'll know lee lian jie.
found a nice friend today online. still don't know much about this person, but i'll soon find out after i'm done with my finals.
something a friend reminded me
a friend who just got into a relationship told me they just kissed.
it came as quite a shock, not to me, but to the person, that things are already moving so fast.
is 4 days a right time to kiss?
probably the same answer as is daytime or nighttime a better time to kiss?
it seemed to me in relationship, there isn't a proper timeline to follow.
when you're willing to put yourself out there, suffer any thorns that may come your way, but at the same time, bathe yourself in the happiness of it all if the other party is doing the same.
should you hold hands before you kiss? should you kiss first before you have sex? but of cuz, sometimes it's a given since having sex mostly requires kissing as foreplay, or maybe midplay? haha..
no rules to follow in love, for the only rules are set up by yourself, and your self-perceived rules of the other party.
who to pay for the meal? can i hold her hands? can i hug her? can i kiss her?
if there's anyone to decide that, it's the person themselves. or at least, they gotta initiate the actions before the other party could take the hint and grant him the permission or kick him away when guy touch her breasts.
in the passion that you drown in during the honeymoon period, or perhaps the occasionally in the heat of the passion as you gaze into each other eyes, the desire and urge to be with that someone just throws you off the moral issues, or whatever things you have in mind, and just let you put all your attention on this pair of eyes that you're so in love with... basically you just don't think rationally anymore.
love is blind.
for those in love, they are fools to the outsiders.
yet for those outsides, they are fools to the lovers.
it is a fool to see your loved as the perfect person, overlooking any flaws, even major, just becuz loving her, is all that matters.
yet, it is also a fool, to think that love is rational, analyzing and calculating the benefits and costs, goods and the bads.
for love is when you throw yourself into the sea, and then float with that special someone by your side.
okay, enough of talking about stuffs.
stat's project has been pushed back. HURRAY! can do the paper after all my finals are done.
internship is in process. HURRAY! although doing heavy research-based work isn't on my initial list. still, I GOT A JOB~ and i just realized i have no holidays to begin with. 12th end, do project till 16th (deadline), and 16th the starting date of my intern.
at least i have 1 month free in july.
finally, I CAN STUDY.
it came as quite a shock, not to me, but to the person, that things are already moving so fast.
is 4 days a right time to kiss?
probably the same answer as is daytime or nighttime a better time to kiss?
it seemed to me in relationship, there isn't a proper timeline to follow.
when you're willing to put yourself out there, suffer any thorns that may come your way, but at the same time, bathe yourself in the happiness of it all if the other party is doing the same.
should you hold hands before you kiss? should you kiss first before you have sex? but of cuz, sometimes it's a given since having sex mostly requires kissing as foreplay, or maybe midplay? haha..
no rules to follow in love, for the only rules are set up by yourself, and your self-perceived rules of the other party.
who to pay for the meal? can i hold her hands? can i hug her? can i kiss her?
if there's anyone to decide that, it's the person themselves. or at least, they gotta initiate the actions before the other party could take the hint and grant him the permission or kick him away when guy touch her breasts.
in the passion that you drown in during the honeymoon period, or perhaps the occasionally in the heat of the passion as you gaze into each other eyes, the desire and urge to be with that someone just throws you off the moral issues, or whatever things you have in mind, and just let you put all your attention on this pair of eyes that you're so in love with... basically you just don't think rationally anymore.
love is blind.
for those in love, they are fools to the outsiders.
yet for those outsides, they are fools to the lovers.
it is a fool to see your loved as the perfect person, overlooking any flaws, even major, just becuz loving her, is all that matters.
yet, it is also a fool, to think that love is rational, analyzing and calculating the benefits and costs, goods and the bads.
for love is when you throw yourself into the sea, and then float with that special someone by your side.
okay, enough of talking about stuffs.
stat's project has been pushed back. HURRAY! can do the paper after all my finals are done.
internship is in process. HURRAY! although doing heavy research-based work isn't on my initial list. still, I GOT A JOB~ and i just realized i have no holidays to begin with. 12th end, do project till 16th (deadline), and 16th the starting date of my intern.
at least i have 1 month free in july.
finally, I CAN STUDY.
Monday, May 2, 2011
feeling tensed gradually
as the exam period draws nearer, i get more and more tensed up because i know that i don't have much time to prepare for my papers.
still doing my stupid stats project, and the quiz assignment. damn it.
still doing my stupid stats project, and the quiz assignment. damn it.
Sunday, May 1, 2011
things happening soon
in 2 weeks time, i'll be done with exams.
in 2 weeks time, i'll be going for my internship.
in 2 weeks time, i'll be attending my cousin's wedding.
in 2 weeks time, i hope i will get some idea about my fyp.
had a family bbq over at my aunt's place in sengkang.
it was rather plain, but was still great to have everyone gathered.
mothers' day.
and even though our dear ah ma has been gone for over a year now, we still like to keep the tradition of coming together, as a family.
i think i overheard that my small aunt dreamt about ah ma.
perhaps it could be hypothesized that paranormal activities are actually in existence. the spirits mainly just hang around the house. but then, it's a biased inference given that the residents of the house probably have more contacts than anyone else with the deceased.
sometimes i hope i would dream about my ah ma.
but then i thought, what do i say when i saw her?
we usually converse in such a way that i could hardly comprehend what she was saying due to my handicap in dialect.
i would probably just go straight up and hug her.
there's nobody else in my dream.
only me, and her, will know.
happy mothers' day, mami.
happy mothers' day, ahma.
in 2 weeks time, i'll be going for my internship.
in 2 weeks time, i'll be attending my cousin's wedding.
in 2 weeks time, i hope i will get some idea about my fyp.
had a family bbq over at my aunt's place in sengkang.
it was rather plain, but was still great to have everyone gathered.
mothers' day.
and even though our dear ah ma has been gone for over a year now, we still like to keep the tradition of coming together, as a family.
i think i overheard that my small aunt dreamt about ah ma.
perhaps it could be hypothesized that paranormal activities are actually in existence. the spirits mainly just hang around the house. but then, it's a biased inference given that the residents of the house probably have more contacts than anyone else with the deceased.
sometimes i hope i would dream about my ah ma.
but then i thought, what do i say when i saw her?
we usually converse in such a way that i could hardly comprehend what she was saying due to my handicap in dialect.
i would probably just go straight up and hug her.
there's nobody else in my dream.
only me, and her, will know.
happy mothers' day, mami.
happy mothers' day, ahma.
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