nowadays when i look at the news, i feel like crying.
i'm getting too emotional.
hope my cousin sis and aunt are still alright.
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
my curse
there are times when i thought it was all just a coincidence.
there are times when i thought i was just down on luck recently.
there are times when i thought, the other 3 of them are just more lucky than me.
but NO.
IT'S NOT THE CASE.
my mahjong curse of having all the stupid tiles doesn't seem to go away
my hand trembled when the 3 of them kept looking in my direction, as if the tile they wanted will definitely come from me.
AND MOST OF THE TIME, IT DID.
shall we play 10/20 cents? haha...
oh ya, cycled home yesterday becuz i didn't want to take a midnight cab.
waste money after losing money is kinda stupid.
but i will still cycle home even if i didn't lose much of won.
tired after a day of a planned ktv which didn't happen, then pool, movie "made of honour" which was good becuz the guys kept saying whatever movies they watch with me is like shitz, and then mj.
i thought to myself, what a class.
we never really did got separated even when our lives are going in different directions.
there are times when i thought i was just down on luck recently.
there are times when i thought, the other 3 of them are just more lucky than me.
but NO.
IT'S NOT THE CASE.
my mahjong curse of having all the stupid tiles doesn't seem to go away
my hand trembled when the 3 of them kept looking in my direction, as if the tile they wanted will definitely come from me.
AND MOST OF THE TIME, IT DID.
shall we play 10/20 cents? haha...
oh ya, cycled home yesterday becuz i didn't want to take a midnight cab.
waste money after losing money is kinda stupid.
but i will still cycle home even if i didn't lose much of won.
tired after a day of a planned ktv which didn't happen, then pool, movie "made of honour" which was good becuz the guys kept saying whatever movies they watch with me is like shitz, and then mj.
i thought to myself, what a class.
we never really did got separated even when our lives are going in different directions.
Tuesday, May 13, 2008
disaster
earthquake in shen zhen, china.
mum just reminded me i got an aunt and cousin living there. AHHH!!!
but news came that they were fine and sleeping on the beach.
hmm.. hope they are alright. been years since i've seen them.
another country got hit by another kind of natural disaster.
myanmar got attacked by cyclone. haiz..
why do we have natural disasters?
some time ago i read a manga on the story of a japan's earthquake.
ppl dying, trapped under blocks of debris...
what's worse, are the robbery, outrage of violence, the despair of human kinds.
RAPES, MOLESTS, KILLINGS... i hate it all.
when bad things come along, ppl who are weak in the mind, break down under pressure.
so i told myself, i will be strong under any circumstances.
even if i can't find a solution at the moment, i will not cripple.
i shall stand strong, for others, and for myself.
it's been a year since.
that afternoon, that night, that picture.
it's enough.
mum just reminded me i got an aunt and cousin living there. AHHH!!!
but news came that they were fine and sleeping on the beach.
hmm.. hope they are alright. been years since i've seen them.
another country got hit by another kind of natural disaster.
myanmar got attacked by cyclone. haiz..
why do we have natural disasters?
some time ago i read a manga on the story of a japan's earthquake.
ppl dying, trapped under blocks of debris...
what's worse, are the robbery, outrage of violence, the despair of human kinds.
RAPES, MOLESTS, KILLINGS... i hate it all.
when bad things come along, ppl who are weak in the mind, break down under pressure.
so i told myself, i will be strong under any circumstances.
even if i can't find a solution at the moment, i will not cripple.
i shall stand strong, for others, and for myself.
it's been a year since.
that afternoon, that night, that picture.
it's enough.
Sunday, May 11, 2008
it's not over
this song brought enough tears to my eyes to let it flows down my left cheek.
i thought of her again.
that night.
i thought of her again.
that night.
Saturday, May 10, 2008
sick sick sick
shitz.
have been visiting the doc for a consecutive 3 months.
always the same reason.
flu, sorethroat, coughing... -_-
maybe have been working too hard.
spent some time fixing up the new air-con in my dad's room.
our window length seemed a bit too short for the stupid air con.
so we decided to do some drilling. haha..
feeling zZzZ becuz of the illness that's been bugging me over the past week+
have been visiting the doc for a consecutive 3 months.
always the same reason.
flu, sorethroat, coughing... -_-
maybe have been working too hard.
spent some time fixing up the new air-con in my dad's room.
our window length seemed a bit too short for the stupid air con.
so we decided to do some drilling. haha..
feeling zZzZ becuz of the illness that's been bugging me over the past week+
Thursday, May 1, 2008
hot hot hot
labour day is hot.
staying at home also no mood...
been troubled over work.
to stay or not to stay?
looking at the situation now, it's hard to get a job as relief teacher, kinda late liao.
tuition jobs... it's hard to find pri-sec2 maths and science, in north area.
looked through some A maths questions.
i'm completely lost. unless i looked at the solutions.
basically that means i need to revise the whole damn thing again, or at least the topic, before i teach. which i'm kinda lazy.
how i wish the some tuition centre will just call me up and say, "Hi, we need a maths tutor to teach on tuesday and thursday and sat becuz we know you're working at night on wed and fri."
kinda got frost bite while playing with the dry ice during my mum's bday.
sis bought the swensens ice cream cake, so i took a pail of water to put the dry ice in. it creates a... misty environment for the bday cake during the song.
i think it's healing fast.
talking about healing, one of the 3 wounds on my hand healed miraculously. it's been there for a year. now, the other 2 are getting worse. -_-
i'm losing weight, maybe too tired from work.
and i don't get 2k/mth. should have just passed the freaking agc and earn big bucks being a driver for the air force. but still, presenting those stupid air force discussions still put me off. i rather ord.
thinking about hostel and tuition.
if i live in hostel, hard to get tuition.
but if i don't live in hostel, it's an experience lost.
i'm wondering if this experience is worth the money i'm going to put in for the rent and daily amenities, or necessities.
then i'm thinking about getting better treatment for my darn face.
it ain't going anywhere, the stupid shop is conning me big time.
most shops just con small time.
i'm getting sick of life.
the only few things that is keeping me sane are badminton, going out.
even playing games is making me feel extremely sick and no-life.
tidy up my table today.
the 21st project which was laying there since i-don't-know-when is in an almost complete mess on the ending touches. think i might have to just redo the whole darn thing or just throw it away. i like my table to be neat before i make it messy again.
staying at home also no mood...
been troubled over work.
to stay or not to stay?
looking at the situation now, it's hard to get a job as relief teacher, kinda late liao.
tuition jobs... it's hard to find pri-sec2 maths and science, in north area.
looked through some A maths questions.
i'm completely lost. unless i looked at the solutions.
basically that means i need to revise the whole damn thing again, or at least the topic, before i teach. which i'm kinda lazy.
how i wish the some tuition centre will just call me up and say, "Hi, we need a maths tutor to teach on tuesday and thursday and sat becuz we know you're working at night on wed and fri."
kinda got frost bite while playing with the dry ice during my mum's bday.
sis bought the swensens ice cream cake, so i took a pail of water to put the dry ice in. it creates a... misty environment for the bday cake during the song.
i think it's healing fast.
talking about healing, one of the 3 wounds on my hand healed miraculously. it's been there for a year. now, the other 2 are getting worse. -_-
i'm losing weight, maybe too tired from work.
and i don't get 2k/mth. should have just passed the freaking agc and earn big bucks being a driver for the air force. but still, presenting those stupid air force discussions still put me off. i rather ord.
thinking about hostel and tuition.
if i live in hostel, hard to get tuition.
but if i don't live in hostel, it's an experience lost.
i'm wondering if this experience is worth the money i'm going to put in for the rent and daily amenities, or necessities.
then i'm thinking about getting better treatment for my darn face.
it ain't going anywhere, the stupid shop is conning me big time.
most shops just con small time.
i'm getting sick of life.
the only few things that is keeping me sane are badminton, going out.
even playing games is making me feel extremely sick and no-life.
tidy up my table today.
the 21st project which was laying there since i-don't-know-when is in an almost complete mess on the ending touches. think i might have to just redo the whole darn thing or just throw it away. i like my table to be neat before i make it messy again.
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