aching on the right

you know... when you haven't play badminton for a long time...
you better don't play like you usually do years back.
becuz when you do that, you might end up like me
achings in my right arm, right leg, right shoulder
unless you're a left-handed.

had a 2-hr badminton session with the sgforums, avid shuttlers. 1st time.
hmm.. it was a... something not like me.
it's not like me to want to go out with strangers i have never met before.
it's not like me to want to socialise with other ppl.
hmm... let's put it another way, i don't really know how to socialise.
couldn't really talk much with them, maybe becuz it was the first time, and they were already friends long ago.
another reason may be becuz i'm the youngest one ard. all of them seemed to be in their 30s. i'm... 20, 21 this year. -_-"

the session was good. although i didn't really catch all of their names.
the tallest guy played quite well. hmm.. i think he's better than me. haha...
my shots were going everywhere that i don't want them to go to.. -_- it's been some time since i've hit the shuttles. realised a lot of bad habits on court again. as the game progressed, it got harder for me to hold back my smashes, becuz there were ladies in court. afraid of coming too hard on them, but towards the end, i just whacked. haha.. must learn how to hold back and play with wits rather than just pure brawl.

one of my old friends just came to irritate me with her dream of having a baby. -_-" i seriously wonder why is she so keen on having a baby so early? you're both not financially stable, young, not even engaged... although i would very much like to play with the baby when it's borned, and having the first friend becomes a mother. but NO, alamak... hmm... but babies are fun. like the one in my house. he just learned how to roll over by himself recently. a scorpio too, so he's ard...3-4 months. and he's making ALL sorts of stupid noises. you're not even sure he's happy or whining.

over the weekends i started on a game called cabal for SEA. hmm.. let's just say a lot of players miragated from maplestory. hopefully we don't see another game being dominated by stupid players. sis and her bf playing too. it's good in a sense, you know you have company online. and we 'ran' into one another sometimes. since she's always not at home. haha..

i'm losing interest in work. or should i say, the work just isn't for me. hopefully this month i will complete the project and leave this job.

i was thinking of watching the movie, leap years. it's about a love story of someone whose bday is on 29th feb, and met her love on that day also. both agreed to meet at the same place, same time, everytime the date comes. which is every 4 years. now.. everytime when i want to watch this kind of movie, i can't think of anyone to go with. the guys ain't interested, asking the girls doesn't seem okay. so i thought of asking someone who's somewhere in between. (NIK, ARE YOU LOOKING AT THIS?)

the plus point is i no need to travel all the way to yishun to watch, just becuz most of them live in yishun.

lynn reminded me of watching a movie alone. hmm.. possible, but unless you're really alone and bored, like you're over there in taiwan by yourself, then perhaps i would just don't bother and don't watch. got other things to do, projects to do and start, games to play, sports to sweat.

the first movie i watched by myself was LOSER. hmm.. i thought it was a nice movie to start out. the second one was... i forgot the title, or the plot. basically i only know i watched 2 movies by myself, the second one i have no remembrance of. haha.. i kinda like the feeling of watching a movie alone. but of cuz, don't watch it when it just came out and you have to sit with 2 strangers beside you. i rather watch it with 2 empty seats beside me.

and somehow i missed the feeling of someone beside me during the movies... when romance wasn't only on the big screen.

i'm getting accustomed to the timely pinches of life to tell me again what i can't experience. it's painful nevertheless, but humans all live in pain, don't we?

every paths that we walk, we will have regrets.
becuz i believe in every path, there are pros and cons.
regret over the pros you didn't take,
but rejoice over the cons, you didn't suffer.

oh ya, for any reason that i'm being dragged to church, i will only be focuzing on finding chio bus.

我又心动了

nice song to recommend.
写一首歌 by 顺子
hmm.. i kinda like soothing songs.
full of feelings, smooth, nice melody.
i know it's old. but it's classic.
i've been listening to it whole day, repeat mode.

completed 5 volumes of manga related to badminton.
hmmm.. i think it's time.

i missed the time when all my mind thinks abt is 求胜 and girls.
haha.. 求胜之心, 来之自己.
everyone knows that. but are you doing it?
i used to dream abt having a life like that.
hmm.. have the rackets and shuttles accompany my life through.
i kinda stop dreaming at secondary school. haha..
hey, i actually consider sports school. -_-"
just like my little cousin. haha... although his results are so much alamak. haiz

seriously, i don't like to study much.

have you ever been on the court before?

1-on-1 with your opponent. you only have supporters outside of the zone.
you asked yourself, what's victory to you?
can you feel the wind? your wind.
what does it feels like to be controlling the court? having the shuttles going your way? deep thoughts analysing your opponent while sprinting cross the court? when's the best time to strike? will he see through my fake actions?

"oh shitz... next up with the 1st seed"
"i need to win this deciding match for the team to move up"
"this guy's dead meat!!!"

pressure, anger, happiness, and how to handle all the emotions.

my rackets and shuttles have found me my foundation in life.

my deep love for it.

such a feeling coming over me...

and it's coming true especially for me...
stupid influenza, making me feel... weird for the past 2 days.
haiz... i just recieved a stack of infomation to read through, analyse, extract, summarise, process and produce. it's like 10 times the amount of projectwork, or worse. kaoz. why did i say i wanna stay on to complete something i'm not interested in? haiz... sometimes being too responsible isn't all that.. good. haha..

on the way back home, was listening to radio..
a familiar song suddenly just came up. hmm.. what a nice description of my situation.

i kinda wanted to prove that there's always something interesting in our daily lives. no matter how minute, or how huge it is.

my interesting thing today:
the bus back home wasn't packed. in fact, i found a seat alone when i board it. it's usually full. but the thing is, the usually 2 ladies that i saw, were absent today.

i think it's more towards bo liao than interesting. hahaha..

somehow, it feels better

i'm feeling better.
not sure whether is it the music that's bringing my spirit up,
or just the realization that even though i'm missed, it's still alright.
haha.. a really wonderful and peaceful serenity..

they said,
why love someone even though they don't love you
i asked,
why love someone else, when you love her now

True Love - SENS

Today's Bonus Joke

I was riding to work yesterday when I observed a female driver cut right in front of a pickup truck causing him to have to drive on to the shoulder to avoid hitting her. This evidently angered the driver enough that he hung his arm out his window and flipped the woman off. "Man, that guy is stupid" I thought to myself.

I ALWAYS smile nicely and wave in a sheepish manner whenever a female does anything to me in traffic and here's why:

I drive 48 miles each way every day to work, that's 96 miles each day. Of these, 16 miles each way is bumper-to-bumper. Most of the bumper-to-bumper is on an 8 lane highway so if you just look at the 7 lanes I am not in, that means I pass something like a new car every 40 feet per lane.

That's 7 cars every 40 feet for 32 miles. That works out to be 982 cars ever mile, or 31424 cars. Even though the rest of the 32 miles is not bumper to bumper, I figure I pass at least another 400 cars. That brings the number to something like 36,000 cars I pass every day.

Statistically, half of these are driven by females, that's 18,000. In any given group of females, 1 in 28 has PMS. That's 642. According to Cosmopolitan, 70% describe their love llife as dissatisfying or unrewarding. That's 449. According to National Institute of Health, 22% of all females have seriously considered suicide or homicide. That's 98. And 34% describe men as their biggest problem. That's 33.


According to the National Rifle Association 5% of all females carry weapons and this number is increasing. That means that EVERY SINGLE DAY, I drive past at least one female that has a lousy love life, thinks men are her biggest problem, has seriously considered suicide or homicide, has PMS and is armed.

Flip one off?

I think not.

--written by a very smart man

=)

i must run

i must run away from this side of me
ugly, disgust, whatever you can think of
i shouldn't be permitted to be like that
so wrong, not right, illegal

why can't i shake off this feeling
pressurized, squeezed, getting harder to breathe
why is looking away doesn't means it's non-existant
denying, bluffing, faking, me and the surroundings

will reminding myself of another torture, reduce this torment
it feels more like an add-on than a diversion
time fades even the strongest emotion
words well said by the one who didn't sense the presence

am i too naive for this sophisticated intertwine
or is this naiveness its truest form
nobody can really define the word
yet everyone has their own definition

i must run away from all my doubts
let them remain dissolved in my spirit
till my heart is with the sea and breeze again
then i shall face them with a true smile

weekend is here again

hmm.. so i just spent my sat like a lazy guy.
woke up late, even though i keep waking up from 0700 - 1100hrs.
just feel that i should catch the sleep i didn't have from all the late nights this week. play games... eat lunch...

spent some time on the slope of the hill doing my stuff and relaxing.
saw some boys playing around. they got to fighting though. it was kinda stupid. all they did was just use their hands and swing it around. that is not a punch. then there was tag team too. boys.. should fight more fierce lah.. fight until like gu niang like that.

at some point of time, the little ants swarmed my legs one by one. got kinda irritated so quickly finished up my stuff and headed home for dinner.

watched tv with dad until now. hmm.. i think we're two lazy guys.

some words are better left unspoken.
i felt sinister in the face of naive.
manipulation, is that what i'm after?
is that horoscopic, or just characteristic?
perhaps it's just me.
beware.
i'm thinking of a good way to kill you.

the terrorist is on the loose.
seriously speaking, i saw someone similar that day at the bus stop along the route back on bus.
well, hopefully he will be arrested soon. i don't like the feeling of having the possibility of spotting him near my workplace.
if i really see him, i don't even know if i will bother to do anything.
what i know is, the retention centre is crap to let such a person on the loose.
somebodies going to get screwed.

there's a need to escape from my feelings.
if not, it will mess up my spirit again.
since i've decided on the path of future,
i shall walk on and leave the past.

let the energy flows and gather around my palms..
sometimes i wished i was an esper. haha..

there's a new chinese song. not very sure abt the title.
the words Amour caught my attention straight away.
italian for love.
there's a puzzle on named Amour.
and i still rmbed the way to it.

nothing to crap more abt.
it's time to do something else.