A-Lin《等你》

just as i was studying my malay while listening to the radio...
(yes, it's not really conducive to study malay with chinese songs playing in the background, but nvm)
this song came into play and it sounded really nice.

so here it is~

and the blogspot has changed its editing interface again.

the spirit of the lift

this struck me as something that i've always come to believe.

there exists a spirit of the lift.

not that a spirit is residing in the lift, but the lift itself has a spirit.

why? haha... because i live in a world that is so normal by itself in the everyday passing that i decided some stuffs are deemed supernatural whether or not they are true (but of course, empirical science always say the same stuff; evidence?)

and also because there are times when i reached the my estate block and saw the lift opened itself for me without me pressing the button for it.

just like tonight, when i walked infront of it, it suddenly opened.

it wasn't the case whereby the lift came from above, came to a stop and opened.

it was stationary there, for a while, and gladly opened up its door to me automatically.

sometimes when i get in the lift with this belief and the gratitude that the lift opened up for me to enter, i say thank you to the lift. haha.. of course this is done in the absence of others.

yes, i'm weird like that.

there are a few other weird stuffs that i do.

sometimes i would imagine myself being able to churn out a fiery ball of energy in my palms by channeling energy across my body to my fingertips.

the weirder part of it is i usually do it when i'm walking back from the mrt station along the pathway beside the buildings and road.

i think i kinda got the idea to do this when i browsed through this book on aura in a bookstore which i don't know the name to, and saw this part about mediating to improve/increase one's aura through imagining a ball of energy above your head and entering the body or something along this line.

or maybe i just idolize dragon ball. hahaha...

just some notes to self to remind myself..

1. game < life.

and therefore when the love of my life came knocking on my virtual door, whatever game can stop. haha..

2. if i ever find a job that i enjoy 30 years down to road, this is to remind myself that i have troubles finding one now.

i'm even considering clinical masters at NUS.

3. realize when i'm troubled.

many a times, i would be troubled and behaved in a way that is distanced from my closed ones. and unfortunately, the one who is most sensitive to this change and thus get the greatest impact is no other than yn. i'm getting jittery thinking about getting a job soon after the inevitable graduation. can i find a job that i like? get the job? stay on the job? fyp was better than finding a job. it's because i know i have the capability to finish it. finding a job? not so clear in its path. my confidence often diminish in the face of uncertainty. like how i started out psychology with my lack in english proficiency, i survived these 4 years purely based on things other than english. in fact, i got burned in the aspects of these 4 years that deal with mainly english. self-realization, and self-salvation.

4. be patient with teaching, if i'm still doing it when i happen to read this again

recent tuition sessions with my cousin have made me realized that there are times i would use a rather stern tone of voice even when with attempted control. when i heard what i said, i would realize but it's probably too late -_-" but luckily, it wasn't enough to make my cousin frightened, more of adding on to his frustration in dealing with mathematics. seeing him struggled in factorization, and then improving in it, and then struggling again the next session, made me rather disheartened sometimes. i seriously wonder how i learn all those when i'm his age. cause now, it's all ABC. even when i break it down to him, he has troubles. but i think i'm getting close to a better method to teaching him and making sure he learns. it's hard for him to absorb when he's that tired from school when i tutor him. still, gotta make the best of it.

that's almost all that i thought of for now.

a new shopping centre called Jcube just opened up recently, with a ice skating rink!

i'm looking forward to visiting it with yn on the coming thurs after she is done with her quiz and has some time to relax for a while.

it's always a refreshing experience to walk around new places, even if it's in singapore.

it's like you're walking around in a shopping centre, overseas~

the guys don't really seemed too keen when i told them about the ice skating rink and they asked whether i knew how to skate.

of course it would be enjoying to know how to skate and go to skate, but i think it would also be a very fun experience falling down to the ice, bruising my butt, and move more on the ice with my butt than the skates. haha..

it seemed that after fyp, i don't feel like facing the issue of what-to-do-after-graduation.

and that's why i'm more focused on getting the tv set for other half of my house which is for rental, and also to replace the big and audio-less tv in the living room.

however, when i looked at the prices of the displays, i got reminded i need to get a job to have a more abundant supply of cash to buy those tv.

which is why i feel extremely lucky when i got that 1.5k $ lucky draw last year.

and i'm also very grateful to my ah ma, who left more than 1k for me.

both enabled me to tide over the months leading up to graduation to free me from excessive worry on my finance.

time to find a job.

and final note to self, don't sign on just because you can.

my sunday~

just a little update.

i have already submitted my graduation essay on 28th mar~!

ever since then i'm nuaing my time away by not studying...

and now i kinda feel like i'm nuaing too much.

anyway, it was quite an eventful weekend.

started out on good friday. or rather the night before with soccer.

then praying on friday morn, lunch with army dudes, dinner with psych.

sat was spent at home until evening whereby i accompanied mum to national library for some opera performance and i went to suntec alone for the electronics fair.

this morn, i tried to queue up at the megatex over at expo but failed to get the tv set that i wanted -_- lots of foreign workers~

then i got the news that gong gong got warded in the morn so i rushed to ttsh to meet up with the rest of the relatives and went to visit gong gong. i still don't like the 4-visitors limitation. sux.

got quite a couple of things to do but i'm just lazing my time away.

not good.

the most important thing i'm more concerned about now is getting a job, or rather what should i do after graduation?

haven't given it much thoughts or planning.

things thought out in the mind is nothing when it's not executed.

now that fyp is over, i need to switch my main focus to getting a job.

hmm.. recently a friend came up with some business idea.

dad and me came up with an business idea today also based on my experience this morning with the Q-ing thingy.

hmmm... business...? haha..