Tuesday, October 30, 2012

Little Things

A nice song~

Day 1 of Unemployment, Again

yesterday was the last day of the 3 months contract employment.
it was a tiring day with the rushing of the presentation and getting my staff clearance form signed before going off.
i admit, i was half-hearted in doing the technical analysis plan for them because i didn't feel like i belong there and don't really like the work involved.
can't really imagine myself continuing the work over there.
it would be like slaving my life away.

for now, i have two agencies that have the second interview scheduled; MCYS and DSO.
MCYS is this friday, which is also my bday.
DSO next wed.

I was wondering if MCYS was to offer me before DSO, should I just accept the offer, or wait it out for DSO?
I could probably stall them for a while till DSO gives me an answer after the 2nd interview.

today is the first day of rest after working for 3 months of working.
felt nua because i haven't rested much the past few days.
and also because i stayed up quite late last night
suddenly, i'm free to do things i feel like doing when i have the time.
like wiping my closet because i can literally see dust clouds forming.
organizing my table which gets messy whenever i do work.
i'm not sure what i want to do first, i guess i just decide whichever when i get up in the morn tml.

this period of time, after graduation, felt rather surreal to me.
for such a long time, life has been rather fixed until i hit graduation.
suddenly, i see lots of possibilities, along with a huge stack of obstacles to overcome

perhaps i'm the stable and secure type who doesn't like to take the risk
as much as i prefer the image of a risk-taker, i have to regrettably admit that i'm not.
when things get a bit uncertain and shaky like the situation i'm in now, i feel largely uncomfortable.
fortunately, i have honed the skills of just taking it in and then letting it all out again.
basically, sitting back and just watch things come at me.
if they're meant to be, they will be.
if they're not, i'm glad they didn't.

bday coming in another 3 days.
is it a natural thing to feel less and less anticipation for one's birthday each year?
i'm only looking forward to it, because my dear gf is planning some surprises for me.
other than that, maybe a good meal with my family, and a nice delicious cake. haha.. chocolate preferred.

shall just relax and do nothing for today.



Saturday, October 27, 2012

a famous comedian


I first heard this in a live setting with yn during one of the comedy nights.
It was a very fun night indeed.

For You


For the one I called, The Last.



Who, What, When, Where, Why

I do not have enough to conclusively say that I have been fully shaped by my past to become what I have become.
Because I feel that along the way of being together, I have been shaped more by you than anyone else.

My past is a story, so is yours.
And these stories remain as memories to be told.
Not that we should be ever nostalgic on the feelings we have before.
But to see them as a build-up to what we have in the present.

You're the one now, beside me, because you gave my life, a meaning.

For YN.

Sunday, October 21, 2012

Job Searching so far

The previous post i wanted to talk about my job searching spree so far since i graduated. but after typing most of what i wanted to say, the post was somehow lost due to the iphone app. now that i have some time on my hand, i shall perhaps type it out again, 1 by 1, chronologically, as accurate as i can recall.

the learning lab - had the interview in school for the teaching position. didn't go through. pay is good, at 3.7 and then 4k after probation period of 3 months (i think). career progression might not be that good since experience is in the centre itself. oh well~

forbes research - the interview was done in the same day as the learning lab in school. the second interview followed soon after at the forbes research itself. the director sort of offered, the pay wasn't high, maybe 3k or less. but i rejected because i was waiting for....

senior police officer - yup, i was waiting for this. didnt get through the manpower interview. thought i would have gotten this position without much difficulties. too bad, i'm meant for something else i suppose.

PSD - they want to recruit people in mid careers, not fresh grads. -_- but now they're giving me another chance to prove i'm justified in staying as perm instead of temp.

SPS - what shocked me most is the venue, it's just beside the airport. i can see planes on the ground from beyond the fence of the HQ. interview and written test done. but i think the written test wasnt done very well. interview was okok only.

some market research company - went to do some tests and interview and not shortlisted for second round. sighz, but not that interested also lah.

brain development centre - offered me 2k, too  low. but the interview consisted of cognitive skills test which i found it quite interesting and fun to do.

HTBSC - it's was a lucky opportunity for me. interview has passed last week, hoping for results soon!

MND - interview was shit. hahaha...

MCYS - first round of interview was okay. group setting. pretty fun to discuss about the questions raised. waiting to be shortlisted for second round.

DOS - interview this coming tues. got referred in by a friend known in ACCOP 2010

there're other positions that i applied that didnt give me any replies or have rejected me. like CPIB, other MCYS positions, etc.

it's been a rather long journey for me in the road of finding jobs. and like the enlightenment my god-ma has shown me, the job offer will come when it comes, naturally, and surely. i will just have to wait.

these interviews have taught me a lot. to promote or sell yourself to others, to show others that you're worthy of the position, is something that doesnt come naturally sometimes. and sometimes, your true feelings cannot be expressed, nor your true intentions. you should only uphold the honesty in interviews on a legal and moral basis. but moral is a bit subjective, but i guess anything that doesnt harm anyone, it's kinda moral lah. haha.. it's hard to explain why you apply for this company instead of that company first. are you more interested in the previous position? and when you fail then you go look for this less favoured company? naturally so. but nobody is going to answer it that way. but it's the way things are. recruitment is based on impression; good impression, good chance. bad impression, no chance.

i'm getting to the end of my causal employment period of my current job in psd. at the same time, there're quite a few of results to be waited on. my RT IPPT is coming. my birthday is also coming. and i seriously can't feel excitement for my bday with all the other things going on in my life. then again, i dont feel very excited about my bday for quite a few years. last year was different. because yn was with me =) this year, the thought about her celebrating bday with me is something to look forward to. not because it's my bday in particular. but because it's her.

this bday, my wish is to get a good job.
that's it.

Tuesday, October 16, 2012

Pissed

I'm pissed because the contents I've been typing over the past maybe 20min was gone cause I exit the iPhone application for blogging -_-

Basically I was updated on my job applications from the start till now when it's kinda busy. Suddenly the agencies start seeing me as a suitable candidate! I'm lazy to type those again, so I'll leave it as that.

Just some interesting sightings that I saw on train recently about girls make up. The other day in the morn train, I saw a lady, possibly late 20s or early 30s, with make up. Nothing's wrong with that. But the problem is her eyeshadow. Or something that you write on top of the eyes. It's supposed to make your eyes look bigger right? the illusion that I saw was right there for me to compare. She missed out the eyeshadow on one of her eyes. It scared me a little when I first saw it. You know there's nothing physically wrong, but it still scare me a little. One big eye, and one small eye, for everyone on the train to see. The morn rush for ladies to put on makeup~