Monday, March 26, 2012

comfort

in the wake of my dreams i would realize that the greatest comfort comes from within.

the similarity between pseudoscience and me

there are times i can't escape acknowledging the described traits of scorpio and the things i unknowingly do.
imposing the stuffs i thought would make her feel better, but it made her annoyed and me getting disheartened in the process.
i even made a conscious effort to tell myself that i shouldn't, but it didn't really materialize.
do many scorpios like their other half to do things the way they prefer?
or is it a general phenomenon?

i guessed i'm a bit jumpy as the deadline draws closer.
especially when i'm left with quite a few things to do and i'm left with a little more than 48 hours.

things will change, with time, situation, etc.

but...


the world may change my whole life through,
but nothing's gonna change my love for you...


Thursday, March 22, 2012

10k limit

it's official.
i am now over the 10k words limit for my graduation essay.
damn you writings!
still have quite a bit of stuffs to write in order to finish off.
but am going at good pace even with all the breaks i give myself on facebook and shadowera which i started all over again. probably ditched the game once this essay is done because would be trying swordgirls, another card game.

search around the web about rocd too.
turns out it has another name called relationship-substantiated.
i guess it's a long-term forever kinda thing, but at the very least i would like to find ways to cope
in my mind and through the readings i got, there are two completely conflicting trajectories of cognitive reform treatment.
could it be each cater to certain circumstances or situations? even individual differences?

she mentioned that it's pretty cool that both of us were doing the same thing.
it's like we have telepathy or we're just so similar to one another.
i believed it's both.
and i believed in us.

Monday, March 19, 2012

my inner frustrations

it's been one month and my bloody fyp is still unfinished. i'm currently over the 9k minimal limit but there're still lots of incomplete things to write. mainly the training part. a bit messy, but i'll go tidy up the mess later on.

been sick recently with throat infection again. went to the polyclinic last tue morn and still made it to school for malay class at 10am. my throat is quite well since, but the morning dryness still irritate.

the main health issue that is bugging me is my gum infection -_-
yes, illness surrounds me when i'm perpetually stressed by my graduation essay.
and also mostly because i didn't clean my teeth properly.
it is kinda bad, till when i gargle water in my mouth, the wound hurts.
it seemed to have eaten away part of the gum, yet the dentist said it would heal naturally.
i have my doubts on that, but we'll see.
and a freaking tiny x-ray of my teeth costs me 20 bucks. wthell.

currently feeling a bit worried and frustrated over what yn is facing right now.
i would have scolded the person concerned in the issue if i was her, but then again it wouldn't solve the issue.
it puzzles me to see people like that who is oblivious to rudeness, hierarchy, authority, and basic courtesy and politeness.
or is the society heavily contaminated with this sort of people?
perhaps it just happen that my life encounters are quite lucky and i never have to deal with this kind of idiot.

although i wouldnt advise anyone to leave when holding that kind of position, but seeing the pain and hurt she has to go through, my support goes towards quitting.
but if anyone has to quit, i actually prefer to get those idiotic ass fired.
if that's not viable, then leave.
there is no need to stay to get stressed and hurt throughout the whole period.
enough is enough.

it's time like this i hope i'm physically beside her to give comfort and support.