Rappoteur

went back to old police academy at thomson.
hmm.. reminiscene over the shooting range.. the forever footdrills.. the trying to look at pretty girls from other schools... the scoldings... the pumpings... the "march faster so we can quickly get out of here before the others do"... the collection of no.1 uniforms...
well, almost 10 years already.

briefing on the accop.
kinda shocked i'm appointed the rapporteur for the conference, part of the editorial group.
didn't they see my summary that i sent in? it was not good at all.
why choose me to write reports? ah, i want my logistics posting.
well, bo bian. can't change.
at least i'll get my name on a published journal regarding the conference.
if any of my summary reports do get approved.

slacked yesterday and today away. 5 more days to final paper.
gotta start preparing again.

oh ya, gotta buy a tie for the conf.

The Pacific

just watched the first episode. rather similar to the band of brothers, but gave itself another point of view for the audience.

happy birthday to you
happy birthday to you
happy birthday dear philips
happy birthday to you

how fucked are you now?
how fucked are you now?
how fucked are you now?
you're surely fucked now.

3 down.

mon - engin psych.

paper was fine until it asked me to explain the success of iPhone and facebook using concepts from emotional design and also why it's hard for interaction between humans and smart systems. can't think of anything to write.

given my midterms of average in class, a rather well presentation but perhaps mediocre report, with this paper... B+.

tues - Sci or Fic.

50 mcqs, almost every one of them a killer especially the last 20 questions; each have at least 2 correct options. you need to give the exact number of options that are correct inorder to get 2 marks. don't feel too good about it... another B+.

today - bio psy.

didn't sleep before the morn paper cuz i wanted to read the txtbk and the tues paper was in the late evening. mcq, fill-in-the-blanks, and the bloody essays. it seemed that essays ain't gonna be easy if i just rmb the facts, not the points. drawings' not my forte. haha... 92% for midterms and 70% for presentation, hopefully can push for a... A-.

2 more papers, the harder 2 i think.
just slept for 2 hrs or so.
time to get cracking again.

funny quote

You're so sweet, i'm getting diabetes.

ear blocked

my right ear has been blocked for around 3 days.
doesn't seem to be getting better, nor worse.
kinda irritated by the constant ringing in the ear, plus it hurts some times.
maybe i'll visit the doc after the next week's papers are done.

失去他

拥有的时候，
会觉得一切变好。
多一点笑容，
少一点苦愁。

过了一段时候，
会不知不觉对感情有着理所当然的态度。
这是残酷及懒散的自己，
没能好好的守护。
只怨自己，
无关他人。

等待分手的时候，
会心跳加速地接近结果。
盼着自己的直觉是错的，
无视以前多少的对。
明知故问地求多一个机会，
还没说就已知答复。
他们说问了才不会后悔，
我却后悔问了这无需后悔的问题。

分道扬镳之后，
一个人突然时间多了出来。
本应自由的身份，
怎么感觉更像被捆绑似的。
放了手，
但还是握着记忆的残迹。
这，
算什么。

was reading up on my positve psych notes when i suddenly felt like writing about the past. for chronic happiness, psychologists derive 3 determinants that may help in having long terms of happiness; set point, life circumstances and intentional activity.

set point is most genetically, and life circumstances are rather resistant to changes. what's left is the intention to engage in activity in bringing yourself happiness. it goes along the line of something like this...

~If you don't smile, no one's gonna smile for you

wow

i'm quite surprised.
that i actually finished 50 episodes of She Diao Ying Xiong.
hahaha.. damn fast. neglecting all my readings.
i'm so dead for the coming papers.
3 more days to first paper.
i'm not prepared.

preparing now...

well at least i won't have to resist the temptation of watchig the drama again. becuz i finished it. ha.

BS803

finished revision for sci or fic within a day. -_-
like nothing much to memorise. it's mcq exam, recognition test mostly. hopefully.
hmm.. there must be something about the lecture notes that i have not thought about.

well, moving on to the next module.. study study study.
...

Jewel of the Palace

i just watched maybe 1 hour of Jewel of the Palace, or more commonly known in chinese as Da Chang Jin; the girl who was in the royal kitchen, then after being exiled becuz of conviction towards poisoning the King, went back into the palace to be a medical doctor who diagnose the King original's illness and helped her friend who was the concubine of the King to safely give birth to the King's child.

seriously i don't really find much connection from this drama series to my module of science or fiction. it's based on a true story. everything's rather correct in terms of Traditional Chinese Medicine. but the take home message the lecturer gives is that TCM's strength comes in taking in account the various symptoms that the patients are giving. more than what they are complaining of, for example the colour of their skin, toes, fingers, pulse, palpation which is pressing and touching of various parts of the body. in other words, a more holistic interpretation for a more accurate diagnosis.

medicine, can be good and bad, depending on the circumstances in which the patients consume them.

i miss the times when i hum the song when my mum was so much indulged in the series...
wutala wutala lalilula - that's how i interpret the starting of the song. haha..

youtube's giving me problems nowadays. destiny destined me to study instead of watching too much videos to keep me on the books. haha.. so just a link to the video of the theme song. quite a strong feeling presented by the song. brings out such a deep strongness that i believe it's worth a learn. even if only sometimes we can be that strong, and even if that only some times that we're required to be strong, those times are the most significant in the living memories and for the leading future.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TVIR-yOx3bA&feature=related

wah, another one.

now got 4 followers. -_-. is this some kind of trend on blogspot that i'm not really aware of?

when you fall asleep and wake up with the same thoughts, it felt like you've never went to dreamland before.

忍

i've just watched 21 episodes of 射雕英雄传. that equals roughly to 20 hours spent on drama. hmm.. another 29 to go. think i'll watch them after my last paper. can't keep watching them and not care about the exams next week, coming in less than 6 days.

noticed i've got 3 followers. hmm.. that's strange. suddenly this blog got 3 followers in a short period of time.

thinking of travelling. it's kinda fun being alone, don't you think?
all the stupid experience awaits.

feel like...

felt like emoing tonight.
but my maturity doesn't allow.
it's always something that brings her into the present when i thought abt the past.
can't be helped.
this association is deeply conditioned.
classically, instrumentally.
i ever hope time can help to extinct this aversive feeling.
it did not.
still, i have taken whatever's left of us into the goodwill of reminiscence.

isn't all that bad when old memories revive themselves without permissive authorization.
it's like something inside you has decided it would be good for you to remember these things and forget the others.

well, it's gonna be a long night with biopsych.
don't really have much time to complete all my readings as seen from my current schedule.
heck, just read.

一生所爱

曾经有一份真诚的爱情放在我面前
我没有珍惜
等我失去的时候
我才后悔莫及
人世间最痛苦的事莫过于此

如果上天能够给我一个
再来一次的机会
我会对那个女孩说三个字
我爱你

如果非要在这份爱上面加上个期限
我希望是一万年

when love passed you by just like that
the regrets stay for as long as you're breathing

hope

i've ran these thoughts over and over again so many times in my life i've lost count of them. those times i would wake up, think about all these stuffs while my dad drove me to school, as i held back any emotions.

it's really scary to think that something bad might happen to your family. it really is.

especially with the recent passing of grandma.

many a times i worried my parents are not telling me the truth.

awake for more than 36hrs

that was from sun morn till mon night.
didn't really feel tired, just that pain in my eyes.
slept maybe around 4 times, each not over 20 minutes.

i have gotta stop procrastinating next sem, otherwise all the deadlines gonna be like this.

but it's weird i don't really feel tired.
perhaps due to all the pills i've been feeding myself for flu.

still writing 1st page

it's a wonder why after a century of psychology, there's no actual format to follow for a critique paper.

woke up with a headache worse than last night, runny nose, terrible throat.
drank more than 3 litres of water, downed a couple of pills.
i'm not sure if the pills are causing my brain to playdown my thinking skills or is it just my brains. i guessing the latter.

there's still assignment 2 to complete. i have gotta get this badass 10-12 page critique done before midnight!

not much time left to study for exams too.
i wonder why i took 4 psych modules this sem.

brain's hurting.

darn critique

i'm going crazy after trying to start my critique paper for hours.
no idea how to start writing, much worse than that time with positive psych.

having a slight flu and an irritating throat doesn't help.

i'm just staring at the paper and the screen.
something must be done.

pervert

forgot to mention something which i saw on thurs night when i took the train home.
it was rather late, maybe the last few trains from jurong to marina.
there was an indian guy, middle-age, who came in asking one chinese girl, around uni age, who was sitting down where the train was going to.
he then sat down. but his next movement caught my attention.
both were sitting with maybe 5-6 seats apart on the row, the indian uncle suddenly shifted to just beside the girl.
she was supposingly sleeping with her eyes closed and two hands supporting her chin.
the indian uncle, then placed his arm behind on the seat.
i was on high alert now. wtf was he doing?
after that he closed in somemore, physically touching the girl's body with his.
plus he was staring at her face, breasts, legs, practically scanning up and down while she's sat there with her eyes closed -_-
for sure she knew he was beside and indirectly touching her and she did nothing and sat there quietly.
then the indian uncle asked her where she's alighting, which is the next stop.
i supposed she understood what was going on and stood up and waited at the door long before her stop arrived.
the indian guy then shifted towards the side with the glass panel.
and if i didn't interpret his actions wrongly, he kissed the damn glass panel as if kissing the girl.
still looking at the girl till she alighted.

this kind of people, smlj.
i will probably try take him down if he actually molest the girl.
and he really bhb, he knew i was staring the whole time and still doing all those stuffs.

perverts these days...

studying

by studying what i study, i hope to achieve either one of the two things, or both.

in terms of set point,
i wish to specialize in bringing the negative back to zero, or from zero to positive.
for justice, or for promoting.

being a teacher

perhaps one of the aims of being a teacher is to guide the student to accomplish more than the teacher.

the continuous guide.

another 10-12 page of writing

wtheck, i thought positive psych was horror.
turns out human motivation is even worse.
10-12 page of critique.
i'm left with 3 days to do it.
plus i got assignment 2 of human motivation to complete.

looks like i can't complete my engin psych report and ppt this weekend. -_-

why. exams come, deadlines of assignments also come. why.

i'm getting too old

got a headache just after few days of rushing assignments and projects.
i'm getting too old for this kind of cramping.
exams in 3 weeks time, haven't really started studying.
still busy on projects and assignment.

hmm.. i think i might be irritating my project mates too much with all my critics.
i don't really know i became like this, i just do.
everything has to be justified, reasoned.
nitty gritty stuffs.
i'm a micro manager it seemed.

headache getting too hard to ignore. better for me to sleep early.

slow writer

i just spend the last few days pondering over what to write for my 2-page positive psych essay. then after deciding the topic, i spent more than 20 hours finding and reading articles, trying to figure what to write abt the topic. and then when i finally start typing, i have to think again how to organize all the things i wanna write abt the topic. and sometimes, i get stuck on how to express an idea and spend 30 min trying to paraphrase, failing which, i just directly copy and change one word of the original sentence. it's a chore doing essay especially when there are so many articles i'm taking note of mentally and when it gets mixed up, i have to recall which articles have what ideas becuz i'm too freaking lazy to note them down somewhere.

well, at least i finished it.
positive psych assignments down, 2 presentations, 1 report, 1 scientific critique and 1 more assg to go for the sem before the finals.

it's always now that i regret not studying regularly.
i can foresee myself be making that same old promise to myself for the past 3 sems.