Tuesday, March 31, 2009
dumb morning
went to sch. and then realised the lecture hall was empty. checked on the computer in the library, i forgot today's lect was cancelled. she told us long ago. -_-
Monday, March 30, 2009
出门遇贵人
there was some time before my jap class so i went to popular to get myself a new mouse. was browsing through the limited selections when i felt a tap on my shoulder. it was cor, and she said she kept calling out for me from the door and i didn't respond. then she advised me to tone down the volume for my earphones. haha... then after that she lent me her card for discount on the mouse. thanks~
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
Favourite Movie
I've always wonder what my favourites are. especially in music, television shows, movies, etc. even my favourite drink can be debated over ice milo and coke.
but at this very moment, i deemed my favourite movie, A Walk to Remember.
i think it's the 4th time i watched this movie.
i'm touched.
Love is always patient and kind. It is never jealous.
Love is never boastful nor conceited. It is never rude nor selfish.
It does not take offence, and it is not resentful.
Love takes no pleasure in other people's sins, but delights in the truth
It is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope, and to endure, whatever comes.
but at this very moment, i deemed my favourite movie, A Walk to Remember.
i think it's the 4th time i watched this movie.
i'm touched.
Love is always patient and kind. It is never jealous.
Love is never boastful nor conceited. It is never rude nor selfish.
It does not take offence, and it is not resentful.
Love takes no pleasure in other people's sins, but delights in the truth
It is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope, and to endure, whatever comes.
对不起
男孩和女孩从小就认识，男孩经常约女孩一起去村外的池塘边捉小虾，每次男孩总是满载而归，女孩却是两手空空，女孩总是失落的含着眼泪，独自一个人回到家，然后闷闷不乐。晚饭前，男孩敲响女孩家的门，女孩一见是男孩，扭头就走，男孩追上前，对女孩说：“对不起，我把你的虾都捉走了，给，我把它们养在小鱼缸里，送给你。”女孩眉头一放，慧心的笑了，就这样反复着他们纯纯的童年，转眼，他们各自成长着。
——纯纯的“对不起”。
男孩总是喜欢戏弄女孩，经常会把女孩逗到哭，然后又去哄女孩到她笑为止，直到长大后，也是如此。
男孩经常偷偷的把女孩的自行车轮胎的气放到没有，然后躲在远处，看女孩着急的走投无路，等着女孩拨通他的手机，然后破口大骂他的小贼行为。可男孩，依旧那么喜欢这样的女孩。他窃窃的从远处走来，灰溜溜的为女孩推着那辆没了气的自行车，任由女孩在一旁发牢骚，男孩却暗自窃喜，然后委屈的对女孩说：“对不起，我知道错了。”随即，女孩便会柔弱下来，告诉男孩下次不允许那样，男孩点头，于是，那时的他们每天都充满着笑容。
——“对不起”的快乐。
大学毕业后，男孩和女孩各自有了工作，男孩的工作总是很忙，有时一个月都休息不到一次，而女孩总是抱怨男孩冷落了她，终于，他们有了第一次的吵架。女孩委屈的哭起来，可男孩却很理直气壮的告诉女孩：“这是为了我的工作。”这场冷战持续了很久。终于，女孩还是忍不住，主动和男孩和好了。后来很多次男孩和女孩都因为这样的小事而吵得不可开交，可每次，都是女孩先妥协。
那年，女孩生日，男孩答应女孩要给他过一个浪漫的生日，女孩欣喜不已，她在家精心打扮，等着男孩回来陪她渡过这个美妙的生日，这一等就是凌晨，女孩在睡梦中醒来，脸上挂着泪痕，男孩见到女孩，心疼的为女孩擦去脸庞的泪痕：“对不起，嫁给我好吗？”于是男孩拿出一枚戒指。
——“对不起”也是一种承诺。
婚后，男孩的事业大有成就，经常有许多应酬，而女孩已经成为一个专职太太了，每天在家为男孩准备热菜热饭，把家里收拾的干干净净，她经常会去菜场买回一些小河虾放在鱼缸里养着，男孩总问他为什么，女孩却总是慧心的一笑。
慢慢的，男孩每次回家，身上总是充满了不同的香水味道，而每次没等女孩问，男孩总是忙着解释说应酬太多。女孩黯然，那时起，女孩不太爱说话了，也不像以前那么开朗了，她总是喜欢成天的呆在家里，抱着枕头看韩剧，然后随着剧情哭泣，夜深时，就会疯狂的大哭。以后的日子里，男孩回来时，身上的香水味只有一种味道了，女孩从来不问，可是男孩依旧说：“对不起，今天又去应酬了。”
——“对不起”，谎言的开始。
渐渐的，男孩开始不回家，或总是在外出差，男孩的事业越来越好，身边都是奉承的人，他每天都在别人的恭维下自豪的笑着，而女孩，几乎不出门了，她总会去超市买上很多方便面，和一些必要的日用品，然后把自己关在家里，这一呆就是很久。从前，女孩会经常和男孩一起聊聊天，而现在，她孤身一人，身边没有一个可以说话的人，每次打电话问男孩什么时候回家，男孩总是仓促的回答到：“对不起，我太忙了。”女孩，失落的扣上电话，那以后她再也没有问男孩什么时候会回家。
——“对不起”，只是个敷衍的方式。
女孩学着电视上的样子，开始打扮自己，她觉得男孩不回家，也许是看腻了她，她决定不再颓废，自己的幸福应该靠自己争取，而不是无谓的后退。
那天，女孩心血来潮，按照地址去了男孩工作的地方，那是女孩第一次去，也是唯一的一次。女孩涩涩的按下电梯，来到这个男孩经常说忙的地方，她细细的观察这个公司的每个角落，这里的一切，她都觉得很好看。终于，绕过长长的办公走廊，她来到男孩的办公室，轻轻的推开门……女孩愣住了，眼前看到的不是自己的丈夫，也不是那个经常弄坏她自行车的那个贼小子，更不是那个把虾放在小鱼缸里的男孩，而是一个正在和别的女人做爱的男人。那个女人坐在桌子上，******的发出微弱的呻吟声，那个男人，仿佛山林里饿极了的野兽……
许久，男孩才发现了女孩，男孩惊慌失措，忙把衣裤捡起来穿好。可女孩，转身离开了。男孩飞奔出去，追着女孩，那晚，大雨袭击了整个城市。女孩不顾男孩的叫喊，径直往前跑，往回家的方向跑，男孩在女孩后面大喊：“对不起，我还是爱你的，对不起，我真的只爱你。”可女孩，始终没有听见。
——这样的“对不起”太伤人。
男孩一直都没有找到女孩，女孩失踪很久了。男孩的世界已经一片黑暗，无心工作，无心花天酒地，他想不到女孩可以去哪里，因为女孩没有朋友，她唯一的朋友就是男孩，男孩终日守着电话机，手机24小时不关机，怕错过了女孩的电话。这一等就是半年多。
快递为男孩送来一个盒子。
男孩打开一看，里面是许多河虾的标本，有的在树叶边休息，有的在水草里躲着，各式各样的河虾标本，旁边放着一封信。
“ 我始终没有勇气再见到你，可能是我太懦弱，也或许是我根本不想见到你，我想这些『警告：注意文明用语！』应该过的没什么两样吧，我很好，我学会了离开你怎么让自己存活，我懂得了怎样赚钱养活自己，而不用每天等着你回家，为你烧一桌热腾腾的饭菜，直到凉了也不见你的人，我的手机已经不用了，因为我已经不会再为你24小时的不关机，让自己饱受辐射的折磨。我懂得怎样去爱惜自己，珍惜自己的本来应该美好的生活。我想，我是可以忘记怎么去爱你的，因为你把我的爱弄得遍地麟伤。
离婚协议书，就压在鱼缸的底下，你签完字，按照地址给我寄过来就行了。
对不起，我想我是真的累了。”
男孩按照地址找去，他满心希望能够见到女孩，然后让女孩原谅，并且告诉女孩自己不能没有她，可是打开门的却是女孩的父亲，而女孩就站在她父亲的身后——是女孩的遗像。
女孩的父亲告诉男孩，女孩在写完这封信后，跳楼自杀了，血肉一片模糊。
——原来“对不起”也可以是种结束。
那一年，男孩疯了。
每个人在自己的生命里头，一定会遇到一个自己真正该珍惜的人。请你好好的珍惜那一个人，不是每一句的对不起，都可以换来每一句的没关系……千万不要辜负了自己心爱的人，那对谁，都不好……把这个故事传下去，让你的朋友们知道，不要随意地说出对不起……
——纯纯的“对不起”。
男孩总是喜欢戏弄女孩，经常会把女孩逗到哭，然后又去哄女孩到她笑为止，直到长大后，也是如此。
男孩经常偷偷的把女孩的自行车轮胎的气放到没有，然后躲在远处，看女孩着急的走投无路，等着女孩拨通他的手机，然后破口大骂他的小贼行为。可男孩，依旧那么喜欢这样的女孩。他窃窃的从远处走来，灰溜溜的为女孩推着那辆没了气的自行车，任由女孩在一旁发牢骚，男孩却暗自窃喜，然后委屈的对女孩说：“对不起，我知道错了。”随即，女孩便会柔弱下来，告诉男孩下次不允许那样，男孩点头，于是，那时的他们每天都充满着笑容。
——“对不起”的快乐。
大学毕业后，男孩和女孩各自有了工作，男孩的工作总是很忙，有时一个月都休息不到一次，而女孩总是抱怨男孩冷落了她，终于，他们有了第一次的吵架。女孩委屈的哭起来，可男孩却很理直气壮的告诉女孩：“这是为了我的工作。”这场冷战持续了很久。终于，女孩还是忍不住，主动和男孩和好了。后来很多次男孩和女孩都因为这样的小事而吵得不可开交，可每次，都是女孩先妥协。
那年，女孩生日，男孩答应女孩要给他过一个浪漫的生日，女孩欣喜不已，她在家精心打扮，等着男孩回来陪她渡过这个美妙的生日，这一等就是凌晨，女孩在睡梦中醒来，脸上挂着泪痕，男孩见到女孩，心疼的为女孩擦去脸庞的泪痕：“对不起，嫁给我好吗？”于是男孩拿出一枚戒指。
——“对不起”也是一种承诺。
婚后，男孩的事业大有成就，经常有许多应酬，而女孩已经成为一个专职太太了，每天在家为男孩准备热菜热饭，把家里收拾的干干净净，她经常会去菜场买回一些小河虾放在鱼缸里养着，男孩总问他为什么，女孩却总是慧心的一笑。
慢慢的，男孩每次回家，身上总是充满了不同的香水味道，而每次没等女孩问，男孩总是忙着解释说应酬太多。女孩黯然，那时起，女孩不太爱说话了，也不像以前那么开朗了，她总是喜欢成天的呆在家里，抱着枕头看韩剧，然后随着剧情哭泣，夜深时，就会疯狂的大哭。以后的日子里，男孩回来时，身上的香水味只有一种味道了，女孩从来不问，可是男孩依旧说：“对不起，今天又去应酬了。”
——“对不起”，谎言的开始。
渐渐的，男孩开始不回家，或总是在外出差，男孩的事业越来越好，身边都是奉承的人，他每天都在别人的恭维下自豪的笑着，而女孩，几乎不出门了，她总会去超市买上很多方便面，和一些必要的日用品，然后把自己关在家里，这一呆就是很久。从前，女孩会经常和男孩一起聊聊天，而现在，她孤身一人，身边没有一个可以说话的人，每次打电话问男孩什么时候回家，男孩总是仓促的回答到：“对不起，我太忙了。”女孩，失落的扣上电话，那以后她再也没有问男孩什么时候会回家。
——“对不起”，只是个敷衍的方式。
女孩学着电视上的样子，开始打扮自己，她觉得男孩不回家，也许是看腻了她，她决定不再颓废，自己的幸福应该靠自己争取，而不是无谓的后退。
那天，女孩心血来潮，按照地址去了男孩工作的地方，那是女孩第一次去，也是唯一的一次。女孩涩涩的按下电梯，来到这个男孩经常说忙的地方，她细细的观察这个公司的每个角落，这里的一切，她都觉得很好看。终于，绕过长长的办公走廊，她来到男孩的办公室，轻轻的推开门……女孩愣住了，眼前看到的不是自己的丈夫，也不是那个经常弄坏她自行车的那个贼小子，更不是那个把虾放在小鱼缸里的男孩，而是一个正在和别的女人做爱的男人。那个女人坐在桌子上，******的发出微弱的呻吟声，那个男人，仿佛山林里饿极了的野兽……
许久，男孩才发现了女孩，男孩惊慌失措，忙把衣裤捡起来穿好。可女孩，转身离开了。男孩飞奔出去，追着女孩，那晚，大雨袭击了整个城市。女孩不顾男孩的叫喊，径直往前跑，往回家的方向跑，男孩在女孩后面大喊：“对不起，我还是爱你的，对不起，我真的只爱你。”可女孩，始终没有听见。
——这样的“对不起”太伤人。
男孩一直都没有找到女孩，女孩失踪很久了。男孩的世界已经一片黑暗，无心工作，无心花天酒地，他想不到女孩可以去哪里，因为女孩没有朋友，她唯一的朋友就是男孩，男孩终日守着电话机，手机24小时不关机，怕错过了女孩的电话。这一等就是半年多。
快递为男孩送来一个盒子。
男孩打开一看，里面是许多河虾的标本，有的在树叶边休息，有的在水草里躲着，各式各样的河虾标本，旁边放着一封信。
“ 我始终没有勇气再见到你，可能是我太懦弱，也或许是我根本不想见到你，我想这些『警告：注意文明用语！』应该过的没什么两样吧，我很好，我学会了离开你怎么让自己存活，我懂得了怎样赚钱养活自己，而不用每天等着你回家，为你烧一桌热腾腾的饭菜，直到凉了也不见你的人，我的手机已经不用了，因为我已经不会再为你24小时的不关机，让自己饱受辐射的折磨。我懂得怎样去爱惜自己，珍惜自己的本来应该美好的生活。我想，我是可以忘记怎么去爱你的，因为你把我的爱弄得遍地麟伤。
离婚协议书，就压在鱼缸的底下，你签完字，按照地址给我寄过来就行了。
对不起，我想我是真的累了。”
男孩按照地址找去，他满心希望能够见到女孩，然后让女孩原谅，并且告诉女孩自己不能没有她，可是打开门的却是女孩的父亲，而女孩就站在她父亲的身后——是女孩的遗像。
女孩的父亲告诉男孩，女孩在写完这封信后，跳楼自杀了，血肉一片模糊。
——原来“对不起”也可以是种结束。
那一年，男孩疯了。
每个人在自己的生命里头，一定会遇到一个自己真正该珍惜的人。请你好好的珍惜那一个人，不是每一句的对不起，都可以换来每一句的没关系……千万不要辜负了自己心爱的人，那对谁，都不好……把这个故事传下去，让你的朋友们知道，不要随意地说出对不起……
Monday, March 23, 2009
Horoscope
SCORPIO MAN
A man with a foggy clouds over him. He is sensitive and easily hurt and always feels lonely. He does not trust anyone but himself. Sounding so negative, but he has an amazingly charisma. He is a compassionate man . He absorbs other people sentimental feeling and pain.
He is a good psychiatrist and he could understand complex and confused feeling. He has a hidden power that he could use it to make things happen and do things well. He does not like people who never try to help themselves before asking other people for favors. He is the type of guy who mostly achieved his goal in life.Once he sets his mind for something, he will put all his energy and efforts in it , whether or not it is a small matter or a big project. One of the most successful man in all the Zodiac.
He is a very patient man and can waits for years to reach his goal. He hates thin feeling and weak determinations. He can not retreat or rest for long, for he thinks life has more questions and more answer to be searched.
If he is in love, you will get plenty of love from him, sometimes may be too much than you have asked for. He is serious about love and relationship and will not waste time with someone he does not love whether how pretty she is.
He hardly makes mistake. He could tell if you have any bad thought, and will not hesitate to tell you so. If you do not like straight forward sincere man, then pack your bag now. If you are an over sensitive person, try not to ask for his comments. He will tell you the truth, even you might not be able to take it. Example , if you ask him if you are fat (and you are fat), he will say "yes, as big as a balloon". He makes such comments because he cares
for you, so do something about your weight and do not get up set with him.
If he says "you look pretty today", you can be proud because he will not say such think just to please you if he does not really mean it. There will be both kind of people, those who like him and those who hate him. If you are in love this guy, be strong and belief in your decision, do not be vulnerable. He remembers all his anger and will wait for his pay back time.
He is very serious about your promise, do not promise something you could not keep. He loves his friends and will do anything for his close friends. He likes you to take care of him, but not in front of his friend. He is a complex man and you will never understand what he means if you do not really know him. He is happy to know he is a complex figure. When he is thinking or
when he needs his privacy, you should give him some space.
He memorize everything well. You may say something that you already forgotten, but he will remember every words. He wants to be respected and admired and at the same time he does not like people to have power over him.
When he falls in love, he really falls deep. A man in this Zodiac once in love, he will be sweeter than sugar. He does not like a plain and simple woman. A complex woman's mind is his venture. Always be interesting and able to talk to him about every things in any subjects. He does not like a woman who sits around waiting for his call.
~although as a psychology student, i understands that horoscope is not substantiated by strong backings, i still believe in some of their words. one of the many questions i seek is to how ppl actually develop such characteristics of others who are borned within this period and why the consensus is that the description will not be 100% accurate, but most of it correlates with their own opinion of selves.
humans, are we cursed or blessed by the stars? are we?
A man with a foggy clouds over him. He is sensitive and easily hurt and always feels lonely. He does not trust anyone but himself. Sounding so negative, but he has an amazingly charisma. He is a compassionate man . He absorbs other people sentimental feeling and pain.
He is a good psychiatrist and he could understand complex and confused feeling. He has a hidden power that he could use it to make things happen and do things well. He does not like people who never try to help themselves before asking other people for favors. He is the type of guy who mostly achieved his goal in life.Once he sets his mind for something, he will put all his energy and efforts in it , whether or not it is a small matter or a big project. One of the most successful man in all the Zodiac.
He is a very patient man and can waits for years to reach his goal. He hates thin feeling and weak determinations. He can not retreat or rest for long, for he thinks life has more questions and more answer to be searched.
If he is in love, you will get plenty of love from him, sometimes may be too much than you have asked for. He is serious about love and relationship and will not waste time with someone he does not love whether how pretty she is.
He hardly makes mistake. He could tell if you have any bad thought, and will not hesitate to tell you so. If you do not like straight forward sincere man, then pack your bag now. If you are an over sensitive person, try not to ask for his comments. He will tell you the truth, even you might not be able to take it. Example , if you ask him if you are fat (and you are fat), he will say "yes, as big as a balloon". He makes such comments because he cares
for you, so do something about your weight and do not get up set with him.
If he says "you look pretty today", you can be proud because he will not say such think just to please you if he does not really mean it. There will be both kind of people, those who like him and those who hate him. If you are in love this guy, be strong and belief in your decision, do not be vulnerable. He remembers all his anger and will wait for his pay back time.
He is very serious about your promise, do not promise something you could not keep. He loves his friends and will do anything for his close friends. He likes you to take care of him, but not in front of his friend. He is a complex man and you will never understand what he means if you do not really know him. He is happy to know he is a complex figure. When he is thinking or
when he needs his privacy, you should give him some space.
He memorize everything well. You may say something that you already forgotten, but he will remember every words. He wants to be respected and admired and at the same time he does not like people to have power over him.
When he falls in love, he really falls deep. A man in this Zodiac once in love, he will be sweeter than sugar. He does not like a plain and simple woman. A complex woman's mind is his venture. Always be interesting and able to talk to him about every things in any subjects. He does not like a woman who sits around waiting for his call.
~although as a psychology student, i understands that horoscope is not substantiated by strong backings, i still believe in some of their words. one of the many questions i seek is to how ppl actually develop such characteristics of others who are borned within this period and why the consensus is that the description will not be 100% accurate, but most of it correlates with their own opinion of selves.
humans, are we cursed or blessed by the stars? are we?
C+
kinda spoilt the mood for me when i realised my group got a C+ for our psy report.
haiz.. wtheck. but i must admit we kinda screwed up the paper. -_-
gotta work hard on 202 and 203. for 4AUs, they do matter quite a bit.
haiz.. wtheck. but i must admit we kinda screwed up the paper. -_-
gotta work hard on 202 and 203. for 4AUs, they do matter quite a bit.
Sunday, March 22, 2009
当你
当你日想夜想，盼着有一天你们会在一起。。。
但事实并非如此。
面对的是残酷的她，表现的是坚强的自己。
而惟有另一个她能将你那感情的盔甲卸下，
在她的怀抱里，倾诉心底的悲伤。。。
a description of a recent chapter of a manga i just read.
但事实并非如此。
面对的是残酷的她，表现的是坚强的自己。
而惟有另一个她能将你那感情的盔甲卸下，
在她的怀抱里，倾诉心底的悲伤。。。
a description of a recent chapter of a manga i just read.
Thursday, March 19, 2009
being a tutor
before i became a tutor, i didn't expect to recieve macdonalds chicken nuggets from my kid's mum. and 8 of them somemore. she practically gave me 2/5 of the 20 nuggest she bought. i finished all of them before i reached the mrt station. hahaha... and really, it's quite hard to explain the question to her. too confusing i guess. she always appear so stressed towards the end of the lesson.
oh well, nuggets. love it.
oh well, nuggets. love it.
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
Mids
finally got all my mids results.
Average score for human development. this one, need to study more.
40/45 for social psy. hmm.. can do better.
89/100 for stats. seriously, over 95 is possible. only in uni, the mcqs are there to kill you instead of help you.
J
Average score for human development. this one, need to study more.
40/45 for social psy. hmm.. can do better.
89/100 for stats. seriously, over 95 is possible. only in uni, the mcqs are there to kill you instead of help you.
J
too critical
often after meetings with the group, i felt that i was being too critical, and they are kinda sui bian on the stuffs. is it becuz i see my way as the better way? or is it becuz the report is really not up to standard?
don't know. my answer during obs still stand. if possible, i would like to do everything myself, my way. but then again, teammates do bring in new perspective. besides, doing by myself will take too much time and energy. efficiency comes with teamwork.
don't know. my answer during obs still stand. if possible, i would like to do everything myself, my way. but then again, teammates do bring in new perspective. besides, doing by myself will take too much time and energy. efficiency comes with teamwork.
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
my forgotten upset
if you didn't care about what's special to me
then you're not the one to be cared for.
i desire no connection with someone who clings to sufferings.
so, get out of my mind.
then you're not the one to be cared for.
i desire no connection with someone who clings to sufferings.
so, get out of my mind.
Monday, March 16, 2009
lost feelings
ever wonder whether that feeling of desire stems from a particular person or just becuz the feeling itself?
confused and lost.
i have nothing to compare.
confused and lost.
i have nothing to compare.
Friday, March 13, 2009
draining
the late nights and early morns and draining me of life.
read a book "in the name of love" yesterday in the library while i was there enjoying the air con in the hot afternoon. not bad. i read until i fell asleep for a good 10 min or so.
book was on the ideologies of love, saying that we have all been influenced in some ways (music, culture, movies, etc) to form certain ideologies in love which is double-edged. when love strayed from the tracks, that's when it becomes something dangerous for the perfectionist. or, the ppl surrounding the perfectionist. the main cases brought upon for discussion were on murdurers (all males) who killed their wives and girlfriends in the name of love.
i only read like... 10 pages at most. before i couldn't stand those words and dozed off.
read a book "in the name of love" yesterday in the library while i was there enjoying the air con in the hot afternoon. not bad. i read until i fell asleep for a good 10 min or so.
book was on the ideologies of love, saying that we have all been influenced in some ways (music, culture, movies, etc) to form certain ideologies in love which is double-edged. when love strayed from the tracks, that's when it becomes something dangerous for the perfectionist. or, the ppl surrounding the perfectionist. the main cases brought upon for discussion were on murdurers (all males) who killed their wives and girlfriends in the name of love.
i only read like... 10 pages at most. before i couldn't stand those words and dozed off.
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
not the nicest feeling
burned an all-nighter on sunday night to rush out a report due on mon. till now, i haven't really recover from the lack of sleep. body system going haywire with the lack of exercise too.
watched band of brothers, 3 episodes so far.
i'm beginning to think my favourite movie genre is army.
still got a couple of presentations to rush out by this week and the next.
then afterwards, gotta prepare for finals. i feel like resting my butt off and just lie on bed, sleep until there's no tml. nice.
watched band of brothers, 3 episodes so far.
i'm beginning to think my favourite movie genre is army.
still got a couple of presentations to rush out by this week and the next.
then afterwards, gotta prepare for finals. i feel like resting my butt off and just lie on bed, sleep until there's no tml. nice.
Sunday, March 8, 2009
Saturday, March 7, 2009
bochup or kns
rushing a project that is due on monday.
one of the group members... don't know what to say.
not sure whether he is bochup or kns.
report he also go use informal style to write.
somemore most of the things he wrote are irrelevant. -_-
one of the group members... don't know what to say.
not sure whether he is bochup or kns.
report he also go use informal style to write.
somemore most of the things he wrote are irrelevant. -_-
Friday, March 6, 2009
我比他好
wang jie's song just came on with my random playlist.
只要你知道，你一定知道，我比他好。
sounds more like a need for self-esteem in separation from your previous relationship. the last drop of pride.
anyway, think i lost weight. my newly bought shorts of waist 30 is loose. i can fit 2 fists on top of each other inside. i rmbed i was 30 in sec. -_-
只要你知道，你一定知道，我比他好。
sounds more like a need for self-esteem in separation from your previous relationship. the last drop of pride.
anyway, think i lost weight. my newly bought shorts of waist 30 is loose. i can fit 2 fists on top of each other inside. i rmbed i was 30 in sec. -_-
Thursday, March 5, 2009
'accident'
woke up early to study before the final mid-test. as usual, i will open the door, breathe in some fresh air to lift my spirits up. went for breakfast. everything was rather fine until i went to bathe.
was unexpectedly hit a wave of... sadness. or depression. or some sorts of low mood. consciously felt it during the bath. and so, i was sianz 1/2 the whole day.
perhaps it's the after-test syndrome i always seemed to have. long hours of studying plus slping late and waking up early, never failed to make me grumpy. should take note of that. my mood was so bad, i don't even feel like talking much, doing much. i just wanna... forget everything. the head hurts a little. nvm.
got a project report due next mon. we haven't even gotten 30% of the materials we need for the report. and one of the project group mate just told me he S/U the mod and gave the sign that he don't really care. -_- dulan with him. 3 days before report due tell me this when i told him tml meeting. i called him irresponsible, he asked me go report him. i said nvm, his choice to s/u. he said will give us advise. maybe becuz ah tiong so not so sensitive on using words. advise is usually like a voluntary thing that's irrelevant to you, and you're giving it becuz you have some or substantial knowledge and expertise on the matter. the fact is, he has nothing. haiz...
i shall burn this weekend for this project.
i want an A. better, i want an A+.
in my life, i've rushed out so many reports last min, i can do it again. haha.. crap also must crap out one A.
was unexpectedly hit a wave of... sadness. or depression. or some sorts of low mood. consciously felt it during the bath. and so, i was sianz 1/2 the whole day.
perhaps it's the after-test syndrome i always seemed to have. long hours of studying plus slping late and waking up early, never failed to make me grumpy. should take note of that. my mood was so bad, i don't even feel like talking much, doing much. i just wanna... forget everything. the head hurts a little. nvm.
got a project report due next mon. we haven't even gotten 30% of the materials we need for the report. and one of the project group mate just told me he S/U the mod and gave the sign that he don't really care. -_- dulan with him. 3 days before report due tell me this when i told him tml meeting. i called him irresponsible, he asked me go report him. i said nvm, his choice to s/u. he said will give us advise. maybe becuz ah tiong so not so sensitive on using words. advise is usually like a voluntary thing that's irrelevant to you, and you're giving it becuz you have some or substantial knowledge and expertise on the matter. the fact is, he has nothing. haiz...
i shall burn this weekend for this project.
i want an A. better, i want an A+.
in my life, i've rushed out so many reports last min, i can do it again. haha.. crap also must crap out one A.
Nobody but you.
vian intro me this song by a female korean group, Wonder Girls-Nobody.
and i'm still listening to a repeat of it after listening for 2 hours yesterday night while studying for my test later on. nice.
even more enticing was the video on youtube. haha... sexy, protraying the right moves to fully exhibit their bodies. if a girl sang this song to you, moved, touched, mesmerized.
showed it to a female friend. she said song not that nice and the dance moves repetitive. haha.. i thought the song was nice before i watched the video. but the dance moves, though repeatitive, but still keeps your eyes glued on them.
tired. last day of mids. then projects.
oh ya, she mentioned it's not good for a guy to emo. not good for the image, especially mine. so i have the super cold look. but well, getting emotional is not such a bad thing afterall. reminiscene what's left of the happiness that was taken away.
it's bitter, cuz it was sweet.
take away any part of it, and it's not a whole.
by gestalt principle, see the memory as a whole.
for parts of memories, don't add up to the whole thing.
and i'm still listening to a repeat of it after listening for 2 hours yesterday night while studying for my test later on. nice.
even more enticing was the video on youtube. haha... sexy, protraying the right moves to fully exhibit their bodies. if a girl sang this song to you, moved, touched, mesmerized.
showed it to a female friend. she said song not that nice and the dance moves repetitive. haha.. i thought the song was nice before i watched the video. but the dance moves, though repeatitive, but still keeps your eyes glued on them.
tired. last day of mids. then projects.
oh ya, she mentioned it's not good for a guy to emo. not good for the image, especially mine. so i have the super cold look. but well, getting emotional is not such a bad thing afterall. reminiscene what's left of the happiness that was taken away.
it's bitter, cuz it was sweet.
take away any part of it, and it's not a whole.
by gestalt principle, see the memory as a whole.
for parts of memories, don't add up to the whole thing.
Wednesday, March 4, 2009
test and presentation
both didn't go well. especially the test.
60 mcqs and 20 blanks. i'm only confident of at most 35 mcqs and 3 blanks.
and i see ppl submitting their papers early, which goes to show they're quite confident. the paper wasn't hard. i just didn't study enough for it.
presentation was quite okay. but i was unprepared becuz i spent more time on the test. after test, immediately was presentation. had to quickly memorise my scripts, which turned out that i memorised the first part quite okay but the second part, not very okay. was reading off the script towards the end. my group members were all pretty good. can see that they're quite natural speakers. i'm the screwed up guy. haha.. besides, i'm the only guy in the class during presentation. 3 presentation groups, a tutor, all females except me.
i rmbed all my stage anxiety incidents. the elementz presentation years ago in ajc in the auditorium. then followed by the speech i have to make infront of the whole sch during morning assembly, becuz of the elementz award. the time i was chosen to go back to yjc to give a presentation regarding nsf life, or my life. and this one, i screwed it up so badly, i didn't feel like going back to yjc any time soon, then. today, it's less of it. perhaps if i know my materials better, i would have been more better, just like my group members.
feb is gone, now is mar.
i'm looking forward to staying at home, enjoying my free time.
i feel like doing lots of personal stuffz.
stuffz i wanted to do but never really gotten into it.
60 mcqs and 20 blanks. i'm only confident of at most 35 mcqs and 3 blanks.
and i see ppl submitting their papers early, which goes to show they're quite confident. the paper wasn't hard. i just didn't study enough for it.
presentation was quite okay. but i was unprepared becuz i spent more time on the test. after test, immediately was presentation. had to quickly memorise my scripts, which turned out that i memorised the first part quite okay but the second part, not very okay. was reading off the script towards the end. my group members were all pretty good. can see that they're quite natural speakers. i'm the screwed up guy. haha.. besides, i'm the only guy in the class during presentation. 3 presentation groups, a tutor, all females except me.
i rmbed all my stage anxiety incidents. the elementz presentation years ago in ajc in the auditorium. then followed by the speech i have to make infront of the whole sch during morning assembly, becuz of the elementz award. the time i was chosen to go back to yjc to give a presentation regarding nsf life, or my life. and this one, i screwed it up so badly, i didn't feel like going back to yjc any time soon, then. today, it's less of it. perhaps if i know my materials better, i would have been more better, just like my group members.
feb is gone, now is mar.
i'm looking forward to staying at home, enjoying my free time.
i feel like doing lots of personal stuffz.
stuffz i wanted to do but never really gotten into it.
Monday, March 2, 2009
love is...
today's test was alright.
pat and me were complaining abt the ambiguity of the answers though.
what's the diff btw self-awareness and introspection?
sometimes, we just need to know, and understand better.
some indo guy committed suicide after stabbing prof.
xiang bu kai ah... sad case.
i think this year during foc, some will use this as a scary story to prime those freshies before the horror night or whatever it's called.
love is...
that's the topic on social psy after the test.
reminds me of the instances of her, which is super funny.
You, or another you.
in Friends, when Ross was listing the pros and cons of his then gf and Rachael in an attempt to choose btw the 2 girls, i was rather touched on something he said. first he goes with the cons of Rachael. "she's just a waitress~" etc etc... then when he went to the gf, he paused and said "she's not Rachael".
and he chose Rachael. although it didn't end up well cuz Rachael saw the list.
so when the time comes for someone to choose btw 2, maybe this will help a little.
pat and me were complaining abt the ambiguity of the answers though.
what's the diff btw self-awareness and introspection?
sometimes, we just need to know, and understand better.
some indo guy committed suicide after stabbing prof.
xiang bu kai ah... sad case.
i think this year during foc, some will use this as a scary story to prime those freshies before the horror night or whatever it's called.
love is...
that's the topic on social psy after the test.
reminds me of the instances of her, which is super funny.
You, or another you.
in Friends, when Ross was listing the pros and cons of his then gf and Rachael in an attempt to choose btw the 2 girls, i was rather touched on something he said. first he goes with the cons of Rachael. "she's just a waitress~" etc etc... then when he went to the gf, he paused and said "she's not Rachael".
and he chose Rachael. although it didn't end up well cuz Rachael saw the list.
so when the time comes for someone to choose btw 2, maybe this will help a little.
Sunday, March 1, 2009
times like this
there are times when you wake up in the morning and you have to choose what you want to do and what you need to do.
in my case, it's either going back to sleep or get my ass out of the room for breakfast.
i like the day just before tests or exams. feels calmer than previous days. mostly becuz i know tml's the test and there's nothing much i can do about it. haha..
in my case, it's either going back to sleep or get my ass out of the room for breakfast.
i like the day just before tests or exams. feels calmer than previous days. mostly becuz i know tml's the test and there's nothing much i can do about it. haha..
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