Monday, July 28, 2008

Day 1

went to friend's bbq at hall 15 instead of going camp at the start. after i was super full, then i proceeded to the camp. only did the banner then go bed.

nope, no chio bus. but they are decent-looking girls.

i looked damn sianz to all the agls. it's not my face. i'm really sianz.
maybe just tired.

so one of my group is from 42.
that's all

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

feeling

felt like hugging someone.
maybe becuz i feel unwell.
or perhaps its my insecurity.
whatever the case, i feel like hugging.
it doesn't matter if you're of the same gender.
i felt the same warmth from a friend, no less.

anyone thought of hugging someone as a stress reliever?
ppl thought of stress relief squeezing balls.
why not squeezing ppl, in the sense of hugging?
hug, release. hug another time, release.
repeat
it should take more stress away than just a ball in your hand.

you, who have hugged me before, brought me warmth and security.
warmth that resides within me with your presence or the thought of you.
secured that i'm not just someone, but the one whom you hugged.
proof of my place in your life, heart, and soul.
i reciprocate this happiness that you gave.

today is a gloomy rainy cooling yet feeling lousy day.

i feel like wasting my life away in the seemingly slow hours of this late nights...

trapped

today went to ntu for some admin stuffz.
the day felt like crap.
maybe falling sick.

sang my heart out during my bath just now.
felt better.

going to uni, feels a little unsecured.

Friday, July 11, 2008

cut my hair

now i feel lighter and cooler.
the most expensive haircut i've so far in my life. 14 bucks.

somehow, i think it's time for me to change.

my room is in a complete mess at the moment.
maybe will pack it during the weekends.

hall camp~

Monday, July 7, 2008

love

to me, love still remains as a faraway entity. it begins to dawn on me that forgetting wasn't one of my choices. and as i began to envy the love that was blooming in the old-school anime story plot, i'm reminded i was once in a story.

a beautiful girl you just met have you mesmerized as you tried to get close to her, understand her.

no one ever did have bad comments on the anime story, just that they have troubles coping with the ending. it's too close to reality for comfort, for an anime.

constrained, i felt myself trapped within.
but if i let loose, then what will i be then.

Saturday, July 5, 2008

need for bad

there are times when you feel super demoralized becuz you tasted the bitterness of defeat, a sense of inferiority.

today is one of those times. especially when i know i could have done better.

i wanna make it to the team.

i want to play badminton.